Hi everyone.
Well I’ve been here several times, and yet I’m back again. I’ve had a gambling addiction for 9 years. I’m 28. Always played online and on roulette, I have absolutely no control and have lost more than £5000 in a single day. I can’t walk away, I play until every penny is lost.
June was a really bad month for me, I lost a lot of money. Money that I did not have because PayPal let me make transactions without the money in the bank.
I already suffer with anxiety and depression, gambling has always been an escape from life, however, it just makes me more low.
I have two beautiful boys and a husband, I hate letting them down but I just cannot stop. I’ve tried counselling before, I didn’t find it helpful.
I’ve blocked my access to money and asked my partner to take control of my finances. I’m currently in around 15,000 worth of debt. I’ve been registered on Gamstop for a year but have still found ways to gamble, with a few months free here and there.
I honestly wish I could explain to others what this addiction does to an addict, it’s not a case of “just stop” even when there are so many reasons too. Addiction is an illness and people do not get that.
I don’t know what the point to this post is, I just want help and someone to understand me.
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Hello Angie90,
Well done for starting a recovery diary.
You will find a lot of understanding on this forum. Sharing peer support can also help your morale.
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