I'm back for the final time.

I wish there was an on/off switch in my brain.

:'(

So sad

Mba

Hi mba

I also wish there was a simple on/off switch ppl who aint got a gambling problem think it is that easy. My wife has been very supporting over the years and through the lapses but this is my 1st time ive shared on a forum and hoping it is the help i need to rid this stupid addiction. Im looking for ppl who are starting the long journey so we can help each other. Im posting a day diary to share my ups and hopefully not so many downs. Goodluck

Hi Mba,

Thanks for your message and it's good to see you back( I have missed you lol).

Sadly there is no on and off switch button, or quick fix, I am learning every day that it is a lifetime commitment lol.

Once we place that first bet again win or lose, we simply can't stop my friend. I believe it's about the FIX we need, not the money in the end.

You know what you need to do if you really want to, all blocks, barriers etc in place, maybe a different outlook this time, like changing what you can to mould around your recovery, nothing changes if nothing changes.

The triangle is fool proof, if we take one away it's impossible to play,

100% commitment is the only way to abstain and maintain, (I know you know this but just reminding you xx)

Walking along side with you as always, time for positive changes and time to really start winning.

You can do this, one day at a time, don't beat yourself up too much, learn from this slip and move forwards.

Suzanne xxx

Many thanks.
I'm just at the theme park so gonna enjoy my family day out
Mba

Too right, Enjoy.

Xxxx

Hi MBA, i have been in the same boat as you, gambling large sums of money away in the hope of getting our losses back. Despite numerous and i mean numerous attempts to stop, i still kept going. I just haven't listened to family, gamcare, my counsellor and all the advice given on here by the wonderful 'posters'. I finally came to my senses on Tuesday morning after a marathon session on the on-line roulette, losing life changing amounts. I stopped before debt was about to appear, I guess the nail finally hit home, WE CAN'T WIN BECAUSE ONCE WE START WE JUST CANNOT STOP. So i have shut my final on-line account, self-excluded from every bookie i have ever been in. Its time to re-assess my life and I guess yours too. Just wanted to post this too you, so you know you are not the only one who has suffered and is suffering from gambling losses. - Paul

Mark

Fella feeding addiction leads to deciept, lies and gifting your self esteem back to addiction, you didn't stop to think about the consequences when you where winning those thousands, I guess like any page ripped from my own gambling life you let addiction have you believe that it was finally your time.

The blunt truth of it is you like me will never win through gambling, you simply cannot stop.

My advice is simple

Tell your wife, your father and your kids, honesty is the only way to face addiction.

Self exclusion works, it stops your main avenue for gambling.

To boot take two hours out of your life and walk through the doors of GA next Thursday, our local meeting is Ironically situated in gamble road Buckland in the community center,you will find a group of like minded folk there who are committed to making a better life for whomever walks through the door.

Lastly is it time to arrest all forms of gambling.

As I have written many times I know through experience that gambling in any form, no matter how 'harmless' it is perceived for me breeds an exceptance in the brain that to gamble is ok.

For a proportion of the world that is without doubt correct, for the compulsive gambler it is a green light for self gifted misery and destruction.

You didn't waste six months of your life mark you opened the door to the possibility of a different life.

Addiction teased you back through the door into the world of active addiction.

Yesterday you opened the door again

It's your choice whether or not to shut it behind you.

To do that it will take a huge amount of commitment, honesty and humility.

It is possible to learn from our shortfalls, I do each day I commit to recovery.

I hope you find the courage of your convictions.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Hi, you say you're back for the final time....make it the final time, but stay for the rest of the time...make it the final time you stop gambling, admit to yourself you can't win by trying to win through gambling, forget the previous losses, forget what they could of done, forget what you've won then lost.....if you don't, you will lose everything, I nearly did, day 71 for me, after a lifetime of losing, but that is behind me now, I've been honest, I have support and this site is a great tool to help you decide to accept if you want to carry on letting people & yourself down. I'm a proud man, and have given and taken advise from many new friends on here, now is my time to show them, and you, I will not fail or let them down....take that step and say, no more! It's took 35 years for me...and I can truely say, you are amongst understanding, supportive and experienced 'friends' don't let us down!!!!

Keep winning daily, by not trying to win through gambling! You will never be a winner! Count every day as a total success when you achieve it! I smile every day when I write the next accumulative number on my blackboard....it's a great feeling, you too can achieve it!!!!

Hi everyone. So overwhelmed by, your support. I can't even remember what I wrote last time but I had to ask my dad to bail me out £10k. I told my wife and I broke down. I thought she was gonna walk out. She didn't and I was bailed out again yet I have bet again.
I have not got in a dangerous situation again but need to stop. Thought I'd read some comments on here and dunc I think I will take u up on the ga meetings. It's the only other thing I can do.
I have now self excluded myself from my only account I could still bet with but I still want to bet.
I swore on my own life I wouldn't bet again but I did so I deserve what comes to me but I need to be here to support my 3 girls. They think I'm the best dad ever. .and husband. ...am I?
Definitely not in my eyes so here we go again. This is it. I never go into bookies its just online and now I cannot so this is me.

I am sorry to everyone I have let down and you are now going to see a lot of me. I'm back and I will succeed for my girls.
I am living now to bring my two little girls up into a successful life and from now on they come first.

I want to mope about because I want to bet but it's pointless. Forget it . Work and pay them debts off then save for the girls.
A new me now.

Hello everyone. Lets do this and any help and advice is so much appreciated.

Mba

When I started this post I was at my worst then I told my wife everything again and my dad bailed me out.
Why did I bet again after that? I actually wanted to die. I wouldn't because that is a cowards way out and it hurts others more but I put myself back on the road to failure again after all that. .why?
Anyway something has clicked today. I have lost some recently yes but nothing to get me in trouble so my blocks are in place and here we go again.
I did 147 days last time and this time I will beat it and more.
29th September will be 148 days so here we go.

A very warm welcome back my friend, I knew 🙂 , and I am sooo pleased you have joined us all again to carry on yes carry on with this battle, you are not by no means back to the beginning, you are simply just carrying on and moving forwards with your recovery journey.

Suzanne xxx

Thank you Suzanne.
Yes I am continuing and with targets and full of confidence this time

Mba

Xxx

Mark.

Fella I am pleased that you have once again found the recovery door, it revolves fella, it doesn't matter how many times you walk through them, it is what you learn each time you do.

I am abroad until tomorrow and would be happy to meet up with you early next week for a coffee if I can be of any help.

Pure and simply the reason for your return to active gambling is because you are a compulsive gambler.

Fella I was active for twenty years and in that time I arrested my gambling many times because I was in a hole caused by my actions and I played lip service to appease Sarah. And addiction willingly took a back seat.

You have to want to stop for yourself, it's the one selfish act that I allow myself, because the profound effect it has on the folk I hold dear is plain to see.

I accept that for the rest of my life I will be a compulsive gambler and it's my choice to have the mantle of 'recovering' before those words.

That is what's on offer.

If I can support your own recovery, unconditionally I will be proud to do so.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back.