In a bet there is a fool and a thief

Welcome back Trigger

Well done for coming back

One day at a time you can do this

Best wishes

Suzanne x

Thanks Suzanne,appreciate the support.

Ive woke up feeling angry,full of regret,more negative emotions that gambling bring.

Its not the way to beat this addiction,whats done is done,the if onlys' will only put my brain back in a gambling mode.

I have a few days off with my 2 littlens,im reluctant to spend anything as im unsure of the complete damage ive done after my latest episode.

I'm not gona sell my kids short,were gona have fun,gambling isint gona take away my kids happiness.

Im gona seek professional help this time,try new hobbies,try,try,try!

I got disillusioned last time on was on this site, some members thought it was okay to have the occasional flutter, it's there choice, but I'm a compulsive gambler,it's impossible.

Having that seed sowed in my head contributed in me trying to gamble regularly but in a controlled way = disaster!

It worked for a couple of weeks, was even level after 2 months but the inevitable happened.

I cannot gamble a penny.

Just for today I'm gonna be happy, just for today I shall not gamble.

Welcome back trigger, shame you are back on bad terms, but having done it before and enjoyed the rewards I'm sure you can do it again, stronger this time, enjoy your time with your children, enjoy life and leave gambling behind in the past. Stay safe and have fun.

Thanks screwball, I intend to have fun, I aint gonna let this addiction take anything else from me.

I haven't been on this site for some time, sad but good to see the volume of new people seeking help.

Day 3 , been here countless times before,all those failures are gonna count for something. I know where I've gone wrong.

I got a nip any temptation in the bud, exclude, cancel cards avoid any situation I can which may lead me to gamble.

Full of determination, full of hope I'm gradually picking myself back of the floor.

Mr t

Fella welcome back.

All I will say my friend is you cannot change the past,put it behind you.

You can change the future fella,take that help,gamcare offer a counselling service,it helped me to come to the realisation that gambling in any form in my life is totally unacceptable.

Recovery is bespoke,find a way to arrest the destruction it brings to your life.

Turn the mantra around

I cannot win because I cannot stop

Becomes

I DID WIN BECAUSE I DID STOP

not just for you fella

But those you hold dear too.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

Thanks Duncan glad to see your still going strong, an inspiration.

Day 4, still off work, this rubbish weather is making things harder, more time to think, not a lot to do, but I've come to the conclusion I'm definitely at a crossroads. This time has got count.

I got to make changes, failures in the past have been through lack of effort to re place the time spent wasting money with new hobbies.

I can live without having to watch sport, much prefer to be playing it.

I've lost touch a bit with my mates, I'm 41 it happens life goes in different directions , most of the time with my mates was spent gambling and drinking anyway.

I know the direction I need to go, just 3 more frustrating days to conquer.

Hi Trigger, flip its like reading my diary! We;ve so many similarities its scary. And hi Duncan I remember you from years ago, you always offer good sound advice.

Has anyone heard from Flagg? I remember he used to post a lot.

I read your post on my diary re scratching out CVV number, im going to order new card, but leave it at work over weekends, and nights / holidays were theres opportunities to gamble.

I too have drifted from my friends , my alcohol and gambling have put them off, I do stupid things when drunk, take stupid risks and am deeply ashamed of them. Gambling s not the answer.

Wish you all the best , and I sincerely mean that.

lifes too short as it is, we dont want to look back with regret, Like Duncan says we cant change are past but we can change our future. Keep posting and stay active !

Welcome back Trigger

Like Duncs says there is a lot of help from Gamcare have you taken advantage of it all?

different people come here with different goals and yes some have no intention of stopping gambling but that's their choice.

Like you I can't dabble. If I dabble i'm in trouble.

Have you looked for help elsewhere? other counselling? GA?

Tri

Thanks triangle, sad thing is I've been battling this problem since 2000, I've been to ga several times, it wasn't for me, very clicky were I went.

I'm back on the right road now, just got a try harder than before to replace the massive hole gambling leaves.

My mistakes in past attempts was setting unrealistic targets to pay back debts, I got to enjoy recovery, 'so what I owe a bit of money on paper', I can still live.

Been out on a family day out today, couldn't really afford it but it was good to see the kids enjoy themselves.

One more day off and back to work, back to routine which will help get through these initial first weeks.

Onwards I go.

Another day, back to work tomorrow, probably do me good.

A few negative thoughts after looking at my payday loan, it will get paid, promised myself I will go down that road again.

Off for a run, gonna get that positive mindset back, everything will be okay as long as I'm gamble free.

All sounds good apart from the debt mate. Excercise def is the way to go!

Keep positive, in the middle of resetting my ipad currently , in work tutt tutt lol

All positive Gav, wiping your iPad sounds quite therapeutic, good on ya.

I intend getting into running, I've always done it, carry on while I'm fit and healthy makes sense. Gives u a chance to think very

clearly.

Had a great family day, sun shining barbie out, my eldest learned to ride her bike, smiles all round, I realise now what I've been risking, just hope it's not too late.

1 week gamble free tomorrow nite, I intend to go outside in the garden for a beer in the same spot as last week when I hit rock bottom, pay day tomorrow, mortgage day Monday, important weekend. Happy weekend.

Hi trigger

Good positive post

Well done on one week tomorrow of winning

Enjoy your beer tomorrow night

Suzanne x