In a bet there is a fool and a thief

A time to reflect, 379 days gamble free, I don't really relate to the gambler I was before, I know it only takes 1 bet, one day at s time works.

Here's to a gamble free 2025

A time to reflect,  379 days gamble free, I don't relate to the gambler me anymore, 1 day at a time

Many gamble free days have passed since my last post, over 2 years gamble free. Just had a blip on my road to recovery.
Started just after Christmas with a few visits to bookmakers as my exclusion had well expired, to be fair the lady at l*******s did approach me but then realised my exclusion had expired a year  ago. Well done to those bookies who have introduced face recognition. 
The thought of money lost, not a massive amount , consumed my thoughts. A moment of clarity, i re self excluded.  I couldn’t let it go, signed up to a non gamstop site, desperation. Thinking I could control things after 2 years gamble free, not a chance, my balance went up and down, betting on basketball games mainly, always said once I broke even I would then quit.

The rollercoaster ride took my mood, emotions back to dark places I’ve been before, uncontrollable anger, mood swings, I knew where my mind was at, but just couldn’t control it. The realisation is once that money is deposited it’s gone. You can’t win cos u can’t stop shall be etched on my gravestone.

Feel good today, money has gone, but I’ve got myself back, im not being too hard on myself, 6 gambling episodes in the past 6 years, every time a lesson learnt. 
Lessons learnt. Always keep blocks on, non gamstop sites are a con, even winnings are deducted for fees, u can’t win cos u can’t stop.