In a bet there is a fool and a thief

The illusion that gambling is fun got me. I've been holding onto to the need to have a gamble. Thinking gamble is a pleasure. There is no pleasure in gambling.

Whilst not gambling I've often thought I'm missing out on something I use to enjoy, then when I get the chance to gamble it only delivers stress, anxiety misery, no laughter, no satisfaction,  its a lonely act.

Gambling has caused the thought of fear of not being able to gamble again. I've got to keep sane and remember I'm not missing out on anything good , gambling is poison,  it was not fun, complete opposite.

310 days gamble free and basically I've held on to the fact that once my gamstop exclusion had expired I can re enter the fantasy gambling world again, win back all my past losses. Go back to the happy gambling, just a tenner on the footy at the weekend, lay horses, trade for a living.

It was never going to happen, my mindset has got to remember gambling is no fun, virtually impossible to win, and winning is more dangerous than losing.

I'm not giving up anything fun or good, just for today I shall not gamble.

I've been listening to Allen carrs book again, probably bout the 8th time I've read it, found it inspirational today, feeling very up beat, genuinely feel free, free from the shackles of gambling.

I have no need to gamble, feels like getting the all clear from a major disease. Gambling is not fun, not pleasurable,  I no longer need or want to gamble.

All blocks moses including the pilot scheme of 200 shops monitoring exclusions as well, great thing they don't tell you which 200 shops, gamstop signed up for 5 years, all independent bookies I had accounts with also excluded for 5 years.

Onwards and upwards.

I'm glad I got back straight back on the wagon, I've been pretty upbeat, in fact feel quite euphoric knowing I'm no longer a slave to gambling.

Even tho I abstained for 310 days this year it was always in the back of my mind I'd go bk to gambling, now I know I'm not missing anything, no pleasure.

I encourage anyone just quitting to read or listen to Allen carrs 'easy way to stop gambling' basically just talks sense.

Just checking in still gamble free. Honestly have no inclination to gamble, really doesnt interest me.

Feels like I was possessed in the past, I've distant myself from gambling, the thought of losing or even winning a tenner is terrifying.

Never give up on giving up, I just don't think I was ready to fully give up in the past. I've realised the fantasy of actually making money from gambling is fantasy.

 

300 up, not been counting days as non gambling is the norm now. I keep myself busy, I have a few new hobbies, but nothing replicates the buzz of gambling, I think it's why I found it so hard to quit in the past, all the excitement of watching sports is enhanced by gambling.

England playing at the moment,  I've no interest in watching,  prefer to watch countryfile. As they say it matters more when there's money on it.

Luckily I realise you can never win and it always ends in tears