I apologize first I am on the phone. Unusually I have not lost much money but wasted so much time over the last couple of months and I am sick of it. So I start my recovery again, I have no idea how I am going to succeed time after time I have failed. But I have no choice I am just sick and tired of it. It has sucked up most of my life till now so tomorrow a fresh start. All observations appreciated maybe I have to listen abit to move on.
I am blocked from everywhere online, in a month I am out of the City to a new enviroment where I am blocked from gambling in all establishments. I have thought about gambing today but I am trying. It is mad how much I want to gamble despite not wanting gambling. I am totally switching between gambling and not gambling. I will post later.
So once again I have slipped and tomorrow I must start a new journey. I lost a significant amount today, I have no clue why this time I will succeed. But do I have a choice ? What faces me is to gamble risking certain destruction, I am so unhappy or to not gamble and see where it takes me. Surely not gambling has to be better than this, late for everything life I am currently living. I am wasting so much time and I don't want to waste anymore. I have a busy enough weekend so hopefully that will mean a gamble free weekend but the road to redemption starts here. I am disappointed with myself but clearly I have not wanted to give up, now I do. I don't know why but I am just sick of this collasal waste of time and it's constant merry go round. Be safe everyone.
Get yourself along to Ga - nothing to lose
Happy gamble free 2019 everyone, I don't post much but read most days.
Still going strong , always in fear the power of this addiction is always strong. Good luck everyone
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