Sunday was a bad day for me. The only way i can describe how i felt was panic, dispair, loss of control.
I am 4 day gamble free. I have had money go in my bank twice and it has sat there and i havent spent it. Normally i would buy food then gamble the rest and sit with nothing for a week.
I havent been shopping yet and normally i panick and buy everything cos i dont trust myself
I need to be strong. I have told my self i dont need to rush to the shop the moment i get paid incase i have an episode.
I think the penny has dropped no gambling is possible for me i have to not gamble at all. Never again not even 10 pounds or 5 pounds. I need self control.
I have battled this for 20 years and i have beat this before and gravitated back. My aim has to now be to never gravitate. I have proved i can stop many times. My goal now is to maintain it until my last day on this earth and live a happier, stable life.
Life throws curves but most my disasters have been self caused and myself has caused the damage. I can live with unforseen circumsances but what i cant live with is me causing misery to others and myself.
Hi, if having money in your account makes you anxious, is there a way that you can not have access to your account, or someone else have the money and transfer what you need when you need it?
Chris.
You have beat this before so you can beat this again
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