Metamorphosis

Indeed.... echoing Joan. Be safe! The snow is a pain and a workout but at least I'm safe. Thinking of you.... and thanks for the link. I think I will always be a dreamer but I'm starting to be ok with that!

Hi Dragonfly,

I am hanging around the diaries today because as you say, I guess it keeps me off the streets.. lol. I hope the river is calmer. I hate the thought of your house rocking and banging about. Shi te I am such a nervous Nellie I would be crazed by now. It's too early to be thinking spring but, here the storm has passed and the sun is shining. Who cares if my spit turns to ice before it hits the ground.. not that I go around spitting. lol. One last random thought. On tv some man just to prove how cold it was drenched a tee shirt and hung it outside. Apparently within minutes it turned into a solid board. Ridiculous the cold and that man. Thinking about you and waving from my frozen window. -joanxxxx

Thanks Joan, sounds dreadful on the news with such a low temperature, scary but the frozen spit projectiles did make me smile.

Water has risen steadily here with rain and wind all night and most of the day. More threatened tomorrow and have reached crunch level where I will have to abandon ship in the morning or I will not be able to get to land in my waders.

Thinking today how grateful I am that I have never been tempted by on line gambling as anxiety levels around so much at top volume at the moment I am sure I would have succumbed to it.

I know, as Joan says, much wasted energy worrying about stuff that will never happen but seem to be unable to focus mind away at the moment.

Have just had an e mail to say a dutch barge broke its mooring just upriver from me which has really brought home how scary this is as there is a weir just upstream from me. yikes.

Hoping everyone safe, dry and warm.

Hello DF,

I just reposted Joan to go on a sleigh lol...hmmm..maybe bad thing to do in THAT cold... :-))

Anyway, i'm rooting for u here darling...East side of UK expecting floods tonight too...not as bad as last time, but still scary.. i think it's all to do with global warming and it is not gonna get any better in a near future...

I hope you will have some peace tonight and stay safe, dry and sound darling.

Look after urself and take it easy

Love

Sandra xxx

Hey DF

Still touched by your words my lovely ...xxx

I'm still here in the ether so to speak ...gonna try and wean off as I need to try and assimilate back into 3 d life ...don't get me wrong ..it holds no attraction.

I'm currently being moderated by GC after my recent outbursts and I guess I started to think if I wasn't on here I may not be triggered. ..I'm not triggered on diaries aside of the obvious controlled gambling thing which doesn't even trigger me now as I don't read but I do get it moreso on friends and family ..ironic really!

Thinking Stockholm Syndrome ...Lol lol lol xxxx

I wanna stay but it may not be healthy 🙁 xx

Thanks Sandra and Rach.

Am writing from the comfort of my son's spare bedroom as lost my fight with the encroaching water which is now waist high in my garden. Had to escape in my waders with help from my son in law ( he is so lovely as being somewhat larger than this time last year I couldn't get them off and instead of peeing himself laughing or filming with his phone for u tube he helped me remove them, no mean feat as they are men's and come up to my shoulders).

Trouble is as everyone else's flood water retreats, the Thames swells even more so could be a few days til I get home.

Certainly have a bad case of the floating anxiety Rach speaks of and strange for me as these days fairly laid back. My main problem at the moment is absorbing other people's (mainly family and friends) problems which seem insurmountable at times added to worldwide concerns about which I can do very little and my head feels about to explode at times.

I will not resort to my past placebo and will attempt to resolve issues I can and accept the difference between those I can't, although there are many small ways to make change. Recently signed a Change.org petition about the homophobic Russian laws in respect of the Olympic games.

Thank you for being around and writing on mine and your diaries everyone, as although I am not contributing much to others at the moment I gain a huge amount from reading and hopefully will get back in the flow sometime soon.

Hi DF,

I am rooting for u girl and hope you will soon come back to the safety of ur own home.

Glad to hear you have somewhere nice and warm to stay. We had water rising last night around here, but so far so good. I know how devastating immence mother's nature's force can be.

Hugs hun - stay safe

Take care x

Sunday - abandoned houseboat with all my worldly goods aboard

Monday - hospital told me I need another operation (have had over 20 when will it end)

Tuesday - all roads to houseboat closed

Wednesday - neighbours going by motorboat to try to save my houseboat which is now in danger of tipping over as floodwater so high and still rising.

MOT due on Friday - if I was a betting person I'd put my money on it failing.

No inclination to gamble as sick to my stomach.

Hi Dragonfly,

Why must it rain shi t bricks on good people??? I hate what you are going through!! I guess I am feeling for you and when that happens I get dumb founded. My heart going out to you. All my hope and strength to you today Dragonfly. It's got to get better for you dear friend. ((((((((((((((DF))))))))))))))))) -joanxxx

Hey DF,

Echoing Joan here..hope all is ok and nightmare already over.

Take care and stay safe

((((( Dragonfly ))))

S x

hi Joan, Sandra and Duncs for caring.

One hell of a week and certainly been going round in circles Joan chasing my own tail.

It is very scary to think that in the course of a few hours all your worldly possessions disappear. I work with very young asylum seekers and I am of course aware of a lot of people's views on this topic however the last few days has given me a little more insight into their feelings except that I am not in a strange country where I cannot speak the language with no money or friends. As my son, who I am staying with keeps telling me, no one has died, get over it.

I am trying but with my boat still at risk from the highest recorded floods in the area my stomach is still in knots. To add to the fun I have sinus and kidney infection.

I was seriously thinking it was karma this morning as I did some pretty unkind things when I was younger when lo and behold my little old banger squeaked through the MOT with just a few advisors. If she doesn't disappear completely down one of the potholes in this area she lives to fight another day - as do I.

Having read through some texts I sent recently realised what a moany old crow I had become and surprised friends still care but also realised that my default setting is no longer the casino. Money has become an actuality rather than a phantom hidden away in my laptop bank account and if I want to fulfil my dreams this year of building a studio I need to acknowledge this and not waste a penny. Having said that I will also be treating myself regularly as who knows what tomorrow brings.

Just one more thing - if anyone knows any native American Indians please can they ask them to desist from their rain dances or let me know the choreography to the antidote.

Hope everyone else is safe and warm especially in the snow and floods and please keep your fingers crossed for my beautiful houseboat.

Well its in the hand of the gods as they say. Water still rising and I am told they are now pumping out the local water station into our lane to add to the misery of those marooned in their homes. All I can do now is trust that my houseboat is cared for by those that know how and they will dive to release the ropes if need be. I am the only one with no engine along my lane so a different more serious problem for me.

Feel so impotent stuck here miles away and nothing I can do. Conversely plenty I can do in respect of my gambling as at the end of the day I can make a choice not to. Once again thankful I don't gamble online as one less choice to manage and could certainly do with an anxiety blocker at the moment.

It was my choice to live where I do and when my son asked if I was regretting it I didn't even have to think as the pleasure has far outweighed any loss.

Hey DF,

My heart goes out for you...what a horrible situation to be in..nothing you can do to prevent the mother nature. I will pray for you and ur lovely houseboat with that lovely view...

Really wish you well, i believe boat will survive the water threaths and you will soon be reunited.

Look after yourself and keep calm darling

(((((( DF )))))

S x

Hey DF ..just catching up with back posts and keeping all crossed that your houseboat is safe and afloat.

I guess all the focus goes on houses flooding and people just assume boats ride the storm but alas this is not so.

I really don't think you are being punished DF so please try to out that out of your thoughts, I do the same thing and heap the coals on but really it's just because your dealing with forces beyond your control...Mother Nature .

Keep warm and dry and trust that all will be well..easy for me to say I know ...but I have a feeling all will come good .

((DF)) xxxxx

o*g, Dragonfly! I watched the news last night and saw the severe weather going on in a number of places throughout the world. I am shocked and so sorry to read what you've been having to deal with. I'm also thankful that you are safe. I won't say "possessions can be replaced but lives can't" because I know how attached I am to many "things"( but like Ex D said, I have a feeling you are going to come out of this alright. Am also sorry for the health probs. Keep breathing! ((((Dragonfly))))