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I am really struggling today but I am going to fight this demon in my head.

 
Posted : 1st January 2015 7:41 pm
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hollie wrote: I am really struggling today but I am going to fight this demon in my head.

 
Posted : 1st January 2015 8:50 pm
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Keep fighting Hollie, we all behind you!! Don't let it win, it will only end in tears 🙁 x

 
Posted : 1st January 2015 8:59 pm
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Thank you barney. I put gamblock on my phone and sold my laptop.
I am only day 2 but feel good about myself today
I hope to get stronger day by day
4 years of self loathing hopefully behind me
No more scrounging to get by after my wages are all gone on silly slots
More time to spend with my family
positive thoughts from now on

 
Posted : 1st January 2015 9:08 pm
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Oh we are all in same boat hun, you are not alone and well done to you for putting the blocks in place to remove temptation!! I am the same as you my poison is the online sites too - I have lost so much time and money its insane but it's taken me a while to get here but it's the best move I have made!!

All the best for a gamble free 2015! Keep posting and stay strong !!

Mel x

 
Posted : 1st January 2015 9:31 pm
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Day 3 gamble free

 
Posted : 2nd January 2015 3:48 pm
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Well done Hollie, stay strong.

 
Posted : 2nd January 2015 4:22 pm
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Thank you
I really hope I can do this and live a happy life again

 
Posted : 2nd January 2015 4:43 pm
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Welcome to recovery hollie & thank you for your kind words on my journal! You will find many other recovery stories on here to help you find your way along this bumpy track. You will feel your strength return, will be more likely to find yourself @ a loose rather than having no time & best of all you will realise that you are not a bad person, you just got sucked into a bad place for a while!

You CAN do this - ODAAT

 
Posted : 2nd January 2015 5:15 pm
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HI Hollie, well done it's day 3 of your new happier life. you're doing all the right things, it's surprising how quickly you start to feel better about everything as long as you stay focused and keep abstaining. keep posting because there's a lot of likeminded people out here looking out for you.... keep fighting those demons.... Ginger.

 
Posted : 2nd January 2015 5:27 pm
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Thanks Ginger
We need to stick together and stop letting casinos steal our money and self esteem

 
Posted : 2nd January 2015 5:48 pm
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Well done on day 3 Hollie. Keep up the hard work and determination going into this new year. The past is the past and keep remembering how much you want this to happen and it will!

Clare x

 
Posted : 2nd January 2015 10:53 pm
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Thank you Clare
Day 4 gamble free and feeling good. I never want to wake up feeling disgusted with myself for spending my hard earned money on stupid online slots.
This forum and all you kind people are keeping me going. Thanks again

 
Posted : 3rd January 2015 8:03 am
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Hollie

welcome to the forum,a place full of like minded folk who all share the same goal,to arrest the destruction brought on by their gambling.

We all live by the same mantra whilst gambling. I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP.

no win big enough,no loss small enough to walk away from,just a relentless pursuit of the next bet,spin of some reels or watching a tiny ball shatter your dreams.

For us there is a way to win

for three days you have gifted yourself that,you through arresting the net bet have joined the winners enclosure.

The stake? well there is no financial stake

The rewards? they will never cease.

My advice the same that was gifted to me when I set out on my own journey

there is a triangle Time-Money-Location

take at least one away at all times and the bet is impossible,gift your mind the chance to enjoy the rewards of abstinence.

You have plenty of reasons to continue making the right choice

Enjoy it.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

 
Posted : 3rd January 2015 8:14 am
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Thats brilliant Duncan. The triangle-so true. I will keep that in mind as boredom is my demon.
Its amazing how good it feels to get through a day and beat the urge to gamble. X

 
Posted : 3rd January 2015 9:07 am
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