Day 6
1 day to one week again. Almost gambled last night. Would of had I found an account I'm not excluded from. But the blocks are in place and it worked this time. But I didn't even want to gamble really. I just wanted to se did I could earn some extra money. Money which I would of put back in anyway. I can dress it up however I want but I would have put it back in because I cannot win because I cannot stop. I use gambling as an escape it is not a solution.
Day 7 - 1 week
Made it to one week = reward day. Looking forward to hitting the two week milestone. Trying to focus on future not the past. What's done is done.
Day 1 Again.
Just need to stop
I know how u feel!
Day 5
All blocks in place and no money. Budget in place for pay day.
xxx cyber hug xxx
Day 8
No money. Stressing about money. But got off my b**t today and went for a run. Felt better.
Wow double figures already x
Day 1
Had money. Classic fail. Tried to renew loan to begin repairing the last couple months damage, wouldn't approved. Probably for the best right now. Feelin low, guilty and a failure. Trying to make doctors appointment for medication with anxiety but can't get one for at least 2 weeks ATM. But new counselling sessions pending. Please no lectures about blocks in place etc. I just want to feel comfortable recording my progress. Dont really feel like I have support else where so I really rely on being here when feeling the need to talk.
Wishing everyone a happy gf bank holiday wkend.
Oh red thinking of you hun x
Hi red, no lectures from me, I've been in your shoes more times then I want to remember, just keep trying and keep coming back x
Day 2
Thanks guys. Up and down like a yoyo ATM. The emotional rollercoaster is in full effect complete with hot flushes! Trying to book doctors appointment tmz and currently approaching anxiety with facing my fear. Eg. This is scary - why - worst case scenario - solution = taking back control.
Day 4
Counsellor contacted me today, set up at date and time and then the agency said they had to relocate me and find someone else. Also can't get doctors app till fri earliest. Trying to stay calm an positive. OH making me a steak for tea so feeling loved.
Day 5
New counselling session booked. Up and down like a yo yo today so sent myself to bed early and trying for docs appointment tomorrow.
Day 6
Doctors booked. 1 week eve
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