My diary

Well done mate what a achievement

Hi Luke,

Just had a read through all of your diary posts and the only way to start is by saying a MASSIVE congratulations on 200 days, a really amazing achievement, but more importantly on to the next 200!

We are of a similar age and i have felt and been through a lot of similar situations and thoughts as a result of gambling. Its very true that as a compulsive gambler it isolates you and can make you feel on your own at times. However, you have shown an amazing amount of strength to get through everything and i just wanted to drop by and say well done. I will be keeping an eye on your diary and look forward to seeing you hit the big 365 days!

Jason

thank you for all of the posts of encouragement, it means alot to me i will try to reply and have a read of all of your diarlies also. pleased to say day 200 is coming to an end.

Feeling much better today than yesterday, i have learnt from the minor urges, it is a reminder that this compulsion will always be there, i just need to manage it appropriately when it raises its head. It has been dealth with, processed and i have learnt from it.

Got up early today, went to the Gym before work, very busy day today, it just seems to be getting busier and busier..

Well that is all for today,

On to the next major milestone, 300 days then 365.... and onwards

Congratulations on the double century plus 1 (coz I'm old & forgetful, knew there was a reason to log on yesterday, just got here & couldn't remember what I'd turned up for) Luke 🙂

I think that when we reach our little milestones, Mr Gamble chances his arm & suggests we 'treat' ourselves for doing so well...It's only right he should chuck in a few urges & empty promises to try & make giving in our 'treat'! Well boohoo Mr Gamble, you're wasting your time!

Onwards & upwards - ODAAT

Thank you for your kind works ODAAT, i appreciate the support, urges are always going to come and go, it is learning how to deal with them and move on which is the difficult part, i feel like i am getting there more and more. I am also seeing the rewards from abstinance, i have been able to pay off all of my debts, buy a motorbike ( albeit an old one), and also save towards a deposit for a house.

I am living normally, saving, spending money on what i want and need, and not feeling a compulsion to gamble. It really is refreshing.

looking forward to the build up to christmas, and hitting the next milestone of 300days

today is day 206, seem to be doing ok. Got a busy couple of weeks of work ahead of me and a course to go on which will be pretty intense and requires a fair bit of Pre Coursework..... so got a fair bit on in the coming two weeks or so.

Hopefully then it calms down a bit, got a few christmas meals to attend and of course christmas.

weekend just passed was good, i went to visit a couple of friends in shrewsbury, had a great time, relaxed ate and drank a little to much.

Had a few little thoughts about gambling, not sure where they are coming from, i wonder if it is related to work, stress, tiredness.

In fact i know that it is related to that, i will get past these few weeks and then try to cut down on my hours i think. I think i am just a little overwhelemd with the number of different things i have on my plate at the moment.

The last thing i want to do is gamble, so i need to stay strong here, focus my mind, make a list of things i need to do, slowly but surely tick these off the list.

well that is all for now.

I will try and post a bit over the next few weeks

Well done on passing the double century Luke, it really is a great achievement.

Those little urges will keep coming but they soon go, maybe time to now strengthen your resolve in other areas, our addiction hates that.

Keep strong and keep focused.

Suzanne xxx

Thank you suzanne for the encouraging words, Work has been busy as usual, a few interesting days which have been good and time has passed quickly, cracking on with Job applications and coursework. Looking forward to a bit of time off over the christmas period.

Nothing to report from the gambling front, no recent urges or thoughts of gambling.

5 more shifts and then i get a well deserved day off!!!

Today is 210 days since my last bet... the days keep marching on.

Working hard, managing any thoughts about gambling really well and nip those in the bud. I find they seem to come into my mind when stressed or tired.

Nothing else to report

Luke

well just got home following a very busy night shift, was working within a good team so it made the shift easier.

Pay day a few days ago, treated myself to a new coffee machine and some other things, I felt that having beaten a couple of urges recently, better to reward myself with something tangiable. So a new coffee machine is on its way. Makes it worlh while.

No thoughts or urges to gamble, just looking forward to finishing my last night shift tonight.

off to bed

Luke

well today marks 214 days since my last bet, struggling to sleep well as my body clock is all over the place.

Pleased to say no gambling, No thoughts of gambling, no Urges, which is all good.

Some big news on the horizon, i have applied for a new job which will start in August, have an interview in february for that post. I am also in the process of trying to negotiate some work in australia for 5 months, February until July,

it would offer a good change of scene, lifestyle and an oppertunity to see some friends that i have over there. Just waiting on a visa!!!

That is all for today

back in work at 1100! cant wait for a day off on thursday

Well done Luke on your days and well done on your job prospect.

Suzanne xxx

Thanks suzanne, appreciate you kind words,

Back into work today, had a long hard day, on top of that i have the dreaded man flu!!! feeling sorry for myself +++

today is day 215, still gamble free, striving for a better future

got home from work, watched masterchef and had half a bottle of wine.... " antioxidant properties" that is what i told myself,

Back in at 0800 ttoday so i wont ramble on

Thanks GT for the kind comments, Had to take yesterday off work, came down with the dredded Man Flu!

Up early today still struggling with the man flu today, it is my day off, going to do some revision and try to do some little jobs. Mostly i wil be resting up.

well what a week i have had, come down with the flu, i have been house and sofa bound for days, going out of my mind with boredom, but dont feel well enough to go out and do anything.

Good news is i havent gambled, havent really spent any money.

Cant wait to feel a bit better, get myself down to the gym again! Not much else to post here.