My Diary

144 days GF

Haven't been able to login for some strange reason, but still gamble free for 144 days.

Bank account is starting to look a lot healthier and I'm spending less generally day to day which is helping a lot. Tired of seeing adverts for gambling popping up everywhere from Facebook to YouTube.

161 Days GF

The 150 day goal target has been passed, I'd actually forgotten to post.
The urges sometimes flutter in. I sometimes fancy a pound go on an accy, but then the pain of what I've done soon smacks me in the face and I come to my senses. I'm not even going the gambling demon an inch.
Finances are getting better with each month that passes, I'm now only £600 in debt and will be clear after Xmas.

I'm open with my wife, but not enough to let her read this as I feel this is my space. Maybe one day.

My advice to anyone in a bad situation is to open up and tell someone who cares. It becomes easier to handle and also harder to hide any future gambling.

175 days GF

Another personal milestone completed, no gambling or betting made.

I've started to feel better about myself and not feeling anxious. Xmas is still a worry as it's always expensive, buying presents because people are buying for you. Rather than because you want to or can afford to. But it's just another hurdle on my road to recovery, hopefully a bit of overtime will a rise and can earn the cash rather than gamble for it.

180 Days GF

Its Saturday, the betting gremlin is trying to creep in. I will resist, only way I could bet is at a bookies and the wife has the car (I've never been in one either).

Stay strong everyone.

200 days GF

200 days completed, debt level down to just £300 and managing to keep my bank balance in the black. The biggest hurdle I've had was going on a stag do back in October to the horses. Having to steer clear from betting and hiding the fact of why I can't bet was a bit of a task. But I managed and overcome it, but don't get me wrong there was an urge to join in when everyone else was having a go.

Last payment on the debt in January and I'm all square, no gambling and no debt. I intend to keep it that way.

280 days GF

Haven't posted in a while but I'm 280 days gamble free and nearly debt free. Having a few personal issues at home, but this isn't making me want to gamble. Hopefully things will get resolved and life will be on the up. It's been a bad 12 months.

Yo,well done you. Keep on keeping on and before you know it those days will double , Shiny

305 days GF

The year mark is well in my sights. Biggest thing I've noticed since dealing with my problem is that I have changed as a person. I'm less anxious with money worries in the past and constantly thinking about betting.
I've now bought a car again. Funny thing is, is that it felt like I was buying my first car all over again. After sharing for 2 years (sold my car originally as I couldn't afford to get it fixed) I feel I have freedom in regards to coming and going without permission for car usage. This is a big step for me.
On to the year mark. Have a good weekend everyone.

365 days GF

Finally hit the 1 year mark. On reflection, I still cant believe how stupid I was to fall into gambling addiction. I'm currently debt free, but living on my own as my partner moved out some months ago. Although the gambling urges have gone and debt is paid off, life is pretty lonely without my wife. I have friends and family but it's not the same. Gambling was part of the problem, not the entirety but along with that goes lying and distrust. It's not just money you lose when gambling its whole lot more.