My first diary!

138 days is absolutely brilliant!

Long may this continue, you are obviously in a very good place right now.

NT

hi flagg, hows the training going??

Cheers Flagg. Yes it was a great Friday. I really feel I'm maturing as far as this addiction goes and my understanding of it. Which is a great feeling and should make me stronger in this ongoing battle. The goals certainly help. Glad things are well with you and your closing in on the 6 month mark. Time flys when your not gambling.

Yo,

Glad your meeting went well, although it would have shocked me if it hadn't .

Short week next week ,good for you , bet you have planned a whole running schedule lol

Spect the double deckers are out of bounds at the moment , or do you just just have to run that bit further to work them off ?

Have a great weekend , sounds like the Flagg is flying slightly higher than half mask at the moment .......

Shiny xxxxxxxxx

Hi Diary,

Day 139 - Nothing to report today. Another weekend free of gambling sounds perfect to me.

Day 139 - Bet Free

hi flagg, well done mate for staying gamble free!!

I just watched MOTD as i had the tv off the rest of the day as couldnt stand to think of jeff stelling and co enjoyin themselves lol. actually enjoyed watchin MOTD, (never bothered watchin it in years as i knew all the scores and was to busy with spanish footy in the evenings) but i realised 2 things..1, it was to late to bet on the games, and 2, i would have lost anyway(who`d have though spurs couldnt beat WBA?), so my bank balance has stayed the same and no losses to chase tomorrow...thats a great..and novel feeling !!

keep your chin up mate, it looks like you are doing a good job and your are certainly proving to be an inspiration to us newbies.

stay positive

Cheers

Mark

Morning Diary,

Day 140 - 20 weeks! I could just leave it at that really. When I write figures like that it is now looking and feeling like a significant amount of time has passed since I gambled. I think for me each day is an achievement which is why we all profess that the one day at a time mentality works.

However, as you get further down the line you start to remember there are other people in your life. To them 3 days is just a non event, 2 weeks is not much, 1 month is us still hating ourselves, 6 weeks well mayb we are serious, but they look at 20 weeks and it is just possible that it's a serious figure. A significant period of time away from something that consumed us for a long long time.

Today I think about those people close to me and hope they know I am serious about my recovery, I genuinely don't want to go back to gambling. I am in this for the long haul. To do this I maintain the philosophy written in the first paragraph, that philosophy we must adopt, that philosophy which will keep us away from a bet.

Today for the 140th consecutive day I will not gamble!

Day 140 - 20 Weeks

Huge congratulations there fella on reaching 20 big weeks, others have tried but not managed it. You did, you're special, and tough. No one else will understand or feel the way you do over this achievement because only you know how much effort you've put into it and how difficult it is for a cg to change their habits. 140 days is massive. I've never seen a baseball game in my life and to be honest I'm not really interested in American sports. I enjoy cricket though, an excuse to lie on the couch for a day watching it. Football is the one for me though, will be watching today's game with great anticipation. Looking a the table now makes me weep, come 6 o' clock, I may be even more depressed, fingers crossed though.

Hope you're still in training Flagg and playing football. Used to love playing football, hopefully if I get reincarnated I'll get to play again. It'll be just my luck that I'll come back as a fat kid, with glasses and asthma and spend all my time in goal scratching my a**e.

Anyway enjoy the day Flagg and have a good week, if I clock in on your 90 day thread on Monday or Tuesday just ignore me, it means I've just taken too much Nytol and I'm somewhere in limbo land gardening with Charlie Dimmock in light rain with a cooling breeze surrounded by cake and alcohol.

Better go

Steve Titmarsh

Yo,

Let me be the first to congratulate you on reaching 20 weeks plus one day .lol

That's a bit like getting a happy belated birthday card ,

, hate those .

Ever closer to the half year target ,

What can I say that has not already been said , nooooot.

Hugs ,

Shiny xxxxxxxx

Hello Diary,

Day 141 - 6 Weeks today until major target 2 is reached. Yesterday managed to push myself through 7 miles on my run. Had a couple of foot issues on the way round and I was pretty tired by the end but I do think the half marathon is now pretty achievable. It was a 12 week plan to get up to that distance and im just over half way through so still on target.

Good week ahead as only 2 days at work. All in all another peaceful weekend with no great shifts in mood. Remaining very much at peace with life and the direction it is going. I have always been good at pushing things to the back of my mind so currently things like money and debts don't bother me too much. I have more money and my debts are slowly being paid 2015 end date.

Right off to have some lunch.

Day 141 - At Peace Still

Hi Flagg,

Just lost last post I did to you.....grrrrr!

May turn up in some unobscure place knowing my computer skills!

Anyway thanks for the post on mine......I always read yours with a real sense of pride....you always make me feel good!

Well with your running skills guess you will be in running for 2016 olympics......Go Flagg...go Flagg....go Flagg.

Think you may need to start practicing your pose. Have visions of Mo and The Bolt now!

Enjoy the rest of your bank holiday friend.

Sue xxx

Morning,

Day 142 - Back to work on the busiest day of the week, nice to have the extra day but usually Monday eases me back in gently ready for Tuesday! Oh well just the two day week so won't complain!

No thoughts or urges to gamble been relatively peaceful on that front for a while now! Filled my head with other things which are much better for me so my focus lies very much elsewhere! Was also chatting yesterday about next year and it sounds amazing but I know to do the things planned I need money and to have money I need to stay away from gambling! Theoretically it's all so easy!!

Day 142 - Easy in theory!

Flagg,

Was thinking yesterday when we were sorting our Flag to mark our tent out a the fair we are off to today, when will we find out why flagg??? two gg'ss !!

Nice to have thoughts of a nature like this fella than s**t how am I going to blag another fair on no cash!!

for you thankyou!!#

great tot see you to are planning ahead something at it that well does not occur!!!

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Easy in the theory. Sounds right on the money. But in practise your doing it perfectly to. Keep going and next year you'll be able to do everything you wanna do.

7 miles great going. I'm going for my first run today - first of many I hope. Im doing well with gambling following your lead. But I think the fitness thing will be a tougher test!!

Afternoon,

Day 143 - Busy busy today last day of the week for me! Trying to leave everything straight at work and working well under pressure! I only ever work under pressure too be honest! Unless its needed now I don't rise very well and can be a bit lethargic so I enjoy days like today Brings out the best in me!

Off to a different GA meeting tonight nice to sample another one as I've only attended my regular one so far! I can't make it there tomo so getting my weekly dose tonight! Pretty manic day but no worries here and that's a sign life continues on the improve!

Day 143 - Good Under Pressure