My first diary!

Morning Diary,

Day 230 - Well I don't think it would be an exaggeration to say I was asleep by 9.15 last night. Not ashamed to say that though as I woke naturally at 7.15 and I feel pretty refreshed this morning.

I wasn't 100% sure my minor low was fatigue related but I was fairly confident and equally hopeful. It's actually quite a relief that it could be attributed to being tired. I think whilst gambling we are in constant fast forward. When we stop we are initially relieved but still in fast forward trying to put a million things right in 5 minutes. Then we hit a brick wall and if you look around many diaries mine included, you see many people struggling after a few weeks of not gambling.

I don't think this is missing gambling, nor do I think it is missing fast forward. I honestly believe it is fatigue. Our body, but more importantly our minds need a rest. Not just a short rest, a prolonged period of recovery.

I remember one day in particular where I felt so tired that I was scared to close my eyes just in case I didn't wake up. The strangest feeling I have ever experienced.

Anyone my point today it was nice to attribute a minor low to being tired. More importantly it was great to cure that with one nights sleep. Progress in recovery, take the positives that's what my daily record is all about looking to see what's going well, what's improving in my life.

For anyone fairly early in recovery do not despair if you don't feel great or if you feel a bit low after that initial honeymoon period. Honestly, you might just be tired. Being a compulsive gambler is tiring you prob just never realised it.

Day 230 - Look for the positives everyone!

Very true words as usual. Glad your back to normal. Sleep can be a powerful thing. Have a good weekend.

Wow Flagg my friend........So happy for you!

You support so many......You are what makes this site work!

Am so glad to be back....missed you all so much!

Just before I leave though "Whats this,check slippers"

Visions of my fit Flagg changing to Flagg in rocking chair, smoking a pipe with one of the cosy blankets round him....LOL

Think you need to put some work in to change my mind hey?

Thanks for everything

Sue xx

Hello Diary,

Day 231 - All is well for me. Off out tonight to the Glee Club that's the comedy club not some place that's been erected nearby as a shrine to that dire Sky show.

Should be a good night been waiting to see this comedian for some time now. Day off tomo Xmas shopping the only thing on my mind my intention is to complete 90% of it and totally chill in December. Sick of racing around buying extra gifts because I felt guilty about my gambling.

Wishing all a nice relaxing Sunday,

Day 231 - 33 Weeks

Hi flagg that is the way to go mate 33weeks.;-) have to take my hat off to that even though my ears are freezing lol hope you enjoy the comedy club ma man 😉 keep up the good work.see you in check in tomorrow al be nice and sharp this week again 😉

Scottyboy still bet free 😉 take it easy

Hummmmm lets see...........two young ladies teasing you....well hows about we make it three!

Really hope the gamcare night is going to happen......Cos we are all coming (and bringing our cauldren)

Flagg be afraid be "very afraid"

Happy Sunday!

Love Sue xx

Hi Flagg,

Yehhh Sue is joining in lol 🙂

Hmmmm I am confused..... does Santa need 2 go Christmas shopping? lol

The ppl who do not use chat will have no idea wot I am on about .... But it made me smile 🙂

Have a gr8 nite 🙂

flagg

Carl

Hi Flagg,

Thanks for your support as always 🙂

Glad to see things are still ticking along nicely

Hope the comedy was good and that the xmas shopping got done!

Keep Strong Flagg

Smiling Lucy x

Morning Diary,

Day 232 - Had a laugh last night as with many comedians it was on occasions a bit close to the knuckle but fun all the same.

Woke up this morning in my own time that's the joy of having a Monday off work. Going to pick my brother up in a bit and off we go Xmas shopping. Optimistic about the day ahead hoping to get the vast majority done and dusted. Hopefully the queues won't turn me into a quivering wreck.

Check in today for the Xmas thread and I just dropped in to see 6 already checked in. It's nice to know that these threads are a help and provide people with an additional focus.

Right on with my day, plenty to do!

Day 232 - Shopping Optimism!

Oh and Gambling I should have mentioned it really. Erm not today for me thanks the previous 33 weeks have been just fine without it.

hey Flagg just stopping by to say thanx for all your lovely support : )

you really are a great person and do so much for people on here ! you should be proud of yourself !

anyways im back on day 1 again but im hoping this will be the last time and that i can join one of your threads in the new year ! take care and keep on doing what you do : ) X

Howdy Dale winton, I have visions of you running round shops a bit like dale winton and grabbing things off the shelf lol.

Hope the shopping trip was a success and you got everything on your list, i bet you had one lol.

Glad you had a good night last night laughter feeds the soul.

Enjoy the rest of your day off. Oh and dont think i didnt see your comment on sues diary.. What do you mean I tease you lol.... Me... Nah..

Take care, hope the slippers kept you warm whilst you was shopping.

Blondie x

Hi Flagg

S h a l l I s P e a k s l o w l e y ?

You really don' t know what you have let yourself in for........Am gonna work on a fantasy xmas pressie list for everyone...wow that sounds like a plan....giggling to my self now!

Anyway my friend, sounds like you had a great time yesterday at the GLEE club.

Thought I would help with your comedy withdrawal...........

Who hides in the bakery at christmas?

A mince spy!!!!!

Sue x

Flagg,

Great to see you doing so well buddie. 232 days gamble free sounds brilliant. Keep up the good work.

Tomso.

Morning Diary,

Day 233 - Back in work today after a fairly successful shopping day! It wasn't really going to plan but managed to salvage something from the day and now only have bits to buy before Xmas!

Didn't really get round the site much yday, normally on Mondays I like to keep abreast of the thread but the day just drifted past! Having looked this morning it was another great week and I hope everyone makes it to Xmas and beyond! On a side note I am a little concerned we haven't seen Steve for 8 days now! It's nice how we all come together on this site and I really hope Steve is doing ok!

Enough waffle from me today, no gambling thoughts no urges, money will be a bit tight for a couple of months but gambling would only make that situation worse! That's my progress for today, the realization that gambling would worsen the finances and not better them! Simple!!

Day 233 - Back to work!