[Closed] My Last Bad Day

Uncle Kracker - Follow Me. 

love tour music choice Drama. Wish you were here pink floyd for me but I am a hippy at heart ? 

The Kinks - Lola. 

Love you Murlo. 

You are a good egg. 

xoxoxo

My brothers laughed at me sharing "Let's get ready to Rhumble" by PJ and Duncan on my FB. This makes me very happy. I love making my brothers smile. 

Morning Drama. 

Just a quick visit to wish you a happy, fun filled weekend with plenty of good adventures, lots of laughs and good spirited social interaction with an abundance of merriment and good feeling amongst you and your friends and loved ones as you celebrate the arrival of December with high jinx and camaraderie in a friendly, loving and supportive environment.

I believe that God saw that the world was missing a certain kind of sparkle and in her wisdom decided to send DramaLlama to brighten the place up and it was a good move on her part.

Stephen x 

I like the way you see me Stephen. It's real nice. 

Saturday. 

I woke up at 12.00 midday. Mega long sleep! I thought it was the first time I'd woken up but Hubby says that when he got up at 7.30a.m to walk the dog, he offered me tea and I said "no tea, only sleep" and then went back to sleep. So when we woke up we were having play fights and tickles and stuff trying to make the other one get out of bed to make a brew. I cannot remember the last time we did that! It was soooo silly. THEN I REMEMBERED! It's his birthday, that's why he's expecting me to get up. 

I ran downstairs and grabbed his present and ran back upstairs and gave it to him. He is absolutely suited with his man spray cos he knows it's super expensive and I've had to do some extra hours and stuff to get him the posh stuff. He loves it. I am also happy cos he doesn't bath as much as he should and at least now I know he'll smell nice. 

I went on chat at lunchtime. It was alright. 

I logged onto work from 14:30-19:30 and did my OT. I did not go cleaning. 

I took Hubby to the pub tonight. He is not in the best of moods. I know he's run outta that stuff he smokes and he always gets real strange when he doesn't have it. Like paranoid and angry and stuff. 

He's gone to his mancave and I'm in the front room. I'd like to hang out with him but I cannot cope with badness at the moment. My recovery is too fragile and I just need to take care of me. 

D x

Called women's aid as advised. They won't talk to you if you're in the home not alone. It's their policy. I am done. 

I won't call them again. That is all. 

Hello Drama.

Sorry if hubby's birthday celebrations went a bit sour but hope things were resolved and you are now feeling ok.

Your gamcare friends will have all been concerned about you today because we all think of you as a very good friend and travelling companion.

Wishing you every happiness over the coming week.

Stephen x 

Thank-you. Sorry if I upset you or ought. I'm okay. 

Sunday. 

I got up in a boo. I hate upset. I put on yesterday's clothes. All of them. I am a complete trog. 

I got a moderated post but I got an email from the f.A to say why they did it. Like what sentence and duplicate post was removed and why so I really didn't feel bad. Like, I totally got it. So thanks to them for explaining cos that did help with my hatred of being edited. I want my recovery journal to be a true reflection and it's pained me in the past to have it messed with but today I was not pained by that. 

I went to my cleaning job no. 1. It was cold cos they don't have the heating on at the weekends. I did a good job. 

I came home and had some spaghetti and sausages with toast. I say "with toast" cos I cut my two slices of toast in half and then arrange the halves around the plate to make a square in the middle and blob the sketti in the middle cos I HATE soggy toast. Can I just say that the sausages that you get in cans of sketti are not like the ones you get in cans of beans. They are like bullets. Horrible! I licked the tomato sauce off them and fed them to the dog. 

I went on chat for a spell. It was fine. 

I went to the shops and got some bakers complete for the dog and some other bits. 

I then went to cleaning job no. 2. It was near perfect. They must've had a quiet Friday so I watched half the Arsenal game then did my clean. A lady from the thing called and said she's sorry I didn't get a call this morning. I didn't mind. She's arranged a call for tommoz. I tried to nix that but she was having none of it. I was talking and then I wanted to cry so I kinda cut her short. No offense lady if you read this. I just dint wanna blub on the phone. My anger gets me through stuff lately and blubbing would've ruined it. I guess they just wanna make sure I'm okay but I am, I like just needed to vent to not gamble last night cos I really wanted to alot. I know that my situation is not normal but it is what it is, that's how I feel today. Some folks have real hard lives and have to search through rubbish tips for food and stuff. A little perspective is everything. 

After work I took the dog to the park. It was cold but nice. I wish the park didn't shut early in winter. I do miss it. 

I have not made a Sunday dinner. This is my thing. It's like the only weapon I have in my Arsenal if you like. If you upset me, I'm not cooking for you. End of. 

Hubby has been super nice to me today but that doesn't help. He's only doing it cos he's getting what he wants. I want him to be nice because he loves and respects me. 

I went to see a man about a dog. 

Then I went to the pub and got squiffy. It was about time that I didn't have to drive. 

I have done absolutely no Uni work at all. I have booked two days off week after next in anticipation of having to catch up with that. Hopefully my boss approves it but he seems a chill kinda guy. Don't see why he wouldn't. 

I am pleased that Murlo hit 4 weeks. It makes me happy. I hope Bex is okay cos I haven't heard from her in a bit and I'm glad that Bal is back. 

I do feel a part of something on this forum. 

That is all. 

Drama 

xoxoxo

I really feel like gambling. 

Let it be no more than a feeling Drama

Drama xx just write more in your diary.. It will give you so much satisfaction. Think of the bargain rail at tesco. ?

Boo x

I wanna do my 90 day fuddle like I have planned so I won't gamble. I'm just saying I want to for diary purposes. It's important to remember. 

Feeling well rested and calm. Dint do ought bad. Lets hope this week is a peaceful one. 

D x