[Closed] My Last Bad Day

Sorry mate, drifted back off to sleep. 

I think I've broken the fever and my cough is more productive. Didn't sleep well cos of the cough but I can always snooze during the day. 

It feels real good to have a week gamble free under my belt. Forgotten what that felt like. I rock! 

I've called in sick for the day job. Gonna blob the two cleaning jobs till Sunday. Feels real nice to know I can just relax and concentrate on getting better. 

I've just had a hot lemon and a slug of cough medicine and I'm gonna find a movie to watch. 

Drama. x

Yep, you are right there, you absolutely rock!

Glad that you have some proper time to rest and recover. 

Hi Drama

You don't know me as I've just started to post on my recovery diary but I just wanted to make you aware that your's was the first diary I read when I logged onto this site 83 days ago. I was in an extremely dark place with my emotions all over the place. I found some comfort in your diary, I was able to relate to an awful lot of the experiences that you had encountered and I was well aware of most if not all the frustrations you were encountering too. As a result i'm currently 83 days GF and a huge, huge part of this is due to you and your diary.

As I've stated i'm new at this stuff but I admire your ability to keep persevering and your bouncebackability too. I'm sorry things have been tougher on you recently but I certainly speak from the heart here when I say keep going and keep posting as you've helped me immensely in this fight.

Take care and chin up 

Santa soon will visit to fill your Christmas Stocking

Great to read that you are well and ready for some rocking

For Drama is a helpful soul who spreads goodwill and laughter

And when not on a Sicky she is really quite a grafter

Henry, I am humbled by your post. It makes me feel like I'm not just opening the window and shouting to the wind when I post. It's nice to know you've been here with me through the ups and downs. Kinda like when Bastian finds out that he's been with Atreyu the whole way through the NeverEnding Story and he can make a difference. 

Stephen, Thank-you for your visit and your poem. You know I love them and you. xxx

R&R Day. 

I chatted with a lady on the Helpline last night. It was the one that I reckoned that I upset with the "Are you Scottish" question. I am so pleased to find out that I really didn't upset her. Anyway, so I told her I wobbly and we chatted for a spell. We chatted about having wobbles even when I'm not drunk and she was curious about whether I had booze in the house and I do. There's a box of ale under the tree wrapped up from my boss. For sure it's booze. If I was an alcoholic, I'd just open it and neck it. Plus I've got some Irish cream in the fridge for Christmas day. Anyways, so she was real nice and helped me through the wobble and once the adrenalin when away, I got super super tired and said g'nite and went to bed. 

Today I am full of beans in so much as I am 7 days gamble free. Feels magic. I still have germs and decided to text my boss and take the day off. It was a wise decision. It's done me a power of good to just rest and recuperate. I feel calm and healthy in my mind. 

My Christmas Tree is 20 years old. It has inbuilt twinkly lights and the bulb went. A couple days ago I used the Bixby vision on my phone to find out the kind of bulb. It's real niche. I found a retailer and ordered four. They came today and Hubby put one in the tree. He's very impressed with my research skills and the fact that this knackered old tree that we both love is back up and twinkling like always. 🙂

I watched lot's of movies today. Die Hard, King Arthur, Can't remember the others. 

I went to inspect someone else's cleaning work at 5. The receptionist has NoraVirus. Dear God please let me not get that. She raced off to the loo to puke and the other thing whilst we were talking. The lady I was inspecting is lazy so I've had to report back that she has elements of good but mostly not great. I just told the truth. It's for my boss to deal with that. She isn't mopping. She isn't using antibacterial cleaner. Given this is a place where sick people go, it's not on. They rely on the place to be clean when they are not well. 

I left there and went to Lidl for some bits, then Sainsbury's for some other bits. 

Then I went to Church! I read the scripture at evening prayer and stayed for mass. I received communion. Just the bread cos I didn't want anyone to have to drink out of the same chalice as me. I still have germs. I felt wholly worthy of being in Church. Not like a bad person who doesn't deserve to be loved. It's a great feeling! 

I came home and went on chat. It was a lovely chat. Everyone was real supportive of each other. I did not manage to convince the chat mod to keep the chat going for a spell. Really need to up my powers of negotiation!

I am now watching the Chase on Challenge TV. It's one of my favourite shows. 

I had a great day. I am full of beans. I know after being gamble free for a week that I can push on to the New Year so long as I keep making good choices. 

Thanks for the support everyone. 

Drama

XOXOXOX

I know it’s not all plain sailing but so pleased you have had a good day and been able to connect with your church again.

You are doing mighty fine young lady, love you lots and I am proud of you x

I spoke to Hubby about the chat me and Debbie had about my parents behaviour. I said I'm not ready to cut them off. I'm not in that place but can you like answer my phone at Christmas for me but not be rude to them. He said yes. Then he came up with a better idea. He said if I just block their number then they will get the engaged tone if they try to contact me so I have done that. 

It felt good to be able to talk to him about them without him getting cross and angry mad like he normally does. I always thought he was biased about them but after talking to Debbie I feel like he's 100% spot on in his opinions. 

He ain't perfect by any stretch of the imagination but in this he is correct. 

It was real nice to be able to have that conversation with us just talking calmly and not arguing and me not defending them. 

I am doing so well. 

Gonna go sleep now in the hopes I am well enough to go Football tommoz. It's my favourite thing to do. I hope to be well enough and have the energy to go. 

My mate R wants to go for a pre-match pint but I dunno I'll have the energy for beer. I'd like to go see him though. 

That is all. 

Drama x

So glad you spoke to your hubby. They may not ever truly understand but great to have him in your corner. I hope your team win tomorrow, pretty sure mine won’t but they are punching above their weight anyway  

Fab news about Xmas even chat xx

Bless you Drama you're a diamond & every time you post you give me hope & inspiration.

Sincere Best Wishes

AL

I'm very annoyed that my Husband has spent £150 without my permission. Given what I've already spent on him and his habits this week it takes the absolute mick. I have just told him off and said he needs to stop doing stuff without talking to me. How can I possibly budget for our household when he's dropping bombs on me all the time?! I'm vexed. ?

Just want to know that you are ok at Auntie A's?

I would just like to come and give you great big hug right now xx

I am safe. I am hungover. All will be well. 

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Oh drama.. Just the kind of surprises we don't need ?

Take care boo x