[Closed] My Last Bad Day

Enjoy ?

Sod the lemsips.  I am doing the same.  Pub time. 

Oh double trouble painting the town  (or pub) red 

Chat should be interesting tomorrow..

Alka seltzer at the ready.. 

Plink.. Fizz 

Enjoy 

Boo ???

Thank you good lady for posting on my diary. I appreciate your kind words.

As with many on the diaries I like to follow your progress and feel happy when you are happy and sad when things are not going well for you.

I sincerely hope that 2020 will be a good year in the world of DramaLlama. You are faced with many challenges and have suffered great hardships but you are one tough cookie with the heart of a lion and the compassion of a saint.

Look out world because this is Drama's Year and she is going to wrestle her life back from negative forces, emotions and the people who put obstacles in her path. She is a warrioress, a heroine and an all round good-un who I am proud to call my friend.

The good ship "DramaLlama" has tied up in the dock

The captain is a heroine and she is ready to rock

A workaholic student with a passion in her life

To rid herself of gambling and be free from worry and strife 

Stephen x 

Great, Hubby wants to add my email to his Outlook app so he can track all the Amazon stuff. I spose at least it'll fast track me setting up a new email address. 

*Crosses self* Jesus, Mary and Joseph. Pray for me. 

I'm never buying ought ever again that didn't come from a charity shop. 

Drama

Posted by: Boo radley

Oh double trouble painting the town  (or pub) red 

Chat should be interesting tomorrow..

Alka seltzer at the ready.. 

Plink.. Fizz 

Enjoy 

Boo ???

My pub is blue and white! Hahaha 

I had fun and I didn't even crave a cigarette or ought. I am happy. 🙂 

That makes me so happy!

I think I have practically told folk my house number on chat, definitely which bar I am in. I shouldn't drink tequila. 

I could have a reasonable guess at your home town but not in public ?

Yeah let's not play guess your hometown cos we both said too much on that score. I'm fairly obvs. I know Al knows. I know you know. Fairly sure Boo knows. Also SB cos she's pretty canny. I still would rather not have the name of it on my thing. It would upset me. 

I haven't drunk Tequila since I was in my 20's. It's far too messy. I hope you take some water on before you go to bed mate. 

Love you. 

Drama x

Couldn't agree more, there are things that are not for general consumption. 

It's awesome that you haven't smoked. Really awesome. 

I will have water before I go to bed x

I loved chat.. But reveal is not for me yet.. I'm still learning to get to know me again and trust in me. 

It's certainly not personal as you all have a place in my heart.. But by nature am sociable but private also 

In time I am certain but its all working as it should so I don't want the spell to be broken 

 I love you all in equal measures and want you to reach out to me as much as I do to you.. 

Like recovery all a matter of time.. Nite n bless boo ?

I tried to gamble tonight. The bank let Hubby know. This set him off to check the bank and he found out what I did prior to New Years. He was so nice tonight when he thought he'd stopped me but he's P****d that I did what I did before New Years. In fact, I'm P****d at what I did. I'm P****d for getting found out. I hate my life. I just wanna die. I want it all to be over. I hate being a gambling addict. It sucks. 

I feel like everyone would be better off without me. f**k it..

Aww drama, no one would be better off without you at all. you are an amazing person and so supportive to everyone. Please talk to someone if your feeling like this, Samaritans, call line, just anyone who you can just open up to and talk about how your feeling.

I wish with all my heart I had never ever started gambling. No matter how hard I try, I always give in and gamble again. Find ways to get round blocks etc, but I want more than anything is to stop gambling. I suffer insomnia, and I gave up alcohol 3 weeks ago which has made night times even worse, although I wasn't drinking loads, it was enough to help me sleep abit at night, but I know deep down it was stopping my anti depressants from working and I need to try my hardest to get my depression under control, as I have and still do feel how you do, it's a horrible feeling and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. 

When you wanted to swap email addresses I was abit hesitant at first but I'm so glad I did. You really are amazing, I don't think you realize just how much you've got to give. 

Keep fighting, one day at a time , take care, hope to hear from you tomorrow, would like to know your ok.

Stace xx

Oh Drama,

Your post saddens me. Is a cockney better than a mackem, a Brummy better than a yorkie,or a Scot better than a Welshman. If it's about what footy team we support that's fine, but if Boo, Murlo, or anyone else's team beats mine on Saturday so be it i'll try to be there anyway to support or  ask for advice because at the end of the day we all in this s---thole together. I think the same about you as you've said about me more than once " YOU A GOOD EGG " . What's the biggest disaster ?, the fact you're still trying to gamble or him finding out. I've said it before & i'll say it again I placed my 1st bet aged 15 ( that was school leaving age in 1970 ) & my last bet 9th August 2018 and the only thing it bought me & my family was a life of misery. I understand your struggle balancing work with studying & getting your law degree but something tells me you Will get there & the world can be your oyster. Please don't reply today or even tomorrow spend the whole weekend pondering my advice & lets see where we are next week. 

I'd love to read one of your posts in maybe 5 or 10 years time describing how happy you are, the brilliant things you've achieved and the pride & sense of achievement you've brought not only for yourself but for your loved ones too. I know you're more than capable.

Sincere Best Wishes 

AL 

Nice to read your wisdom slow and i do believe drama will draw some strength from this. 

Hope to catch you in chat

Boo ?