[Closed] My Last Bad Day

Posted by: Murlo

Evening Drama, you should be rightly proud of yourself, 50 gamble free days tomorrow. I know I am seriously proud of you x

I kind of worry about the post though, you probably know why without me saying so I won't. It's not to do with the money thing. 

There are ways you can have your money and block gambling transactions. You have time to think about it though. You will make the right decision for both of you because you will do your research, that I am sure about!

Maybe I should try squiffy and cigarettes tonight ?

Hey! Now you stop worrying about me. I am fine. The Gamcare people have my back. You have just about enough to worry about. 

Auntie Flo called last night. Says she's stopping for a few days. Reckon that's why I've been all out of sorts. Just the big hormonal monster. 

I will be just fine Murlo. 

I promise. 

I keep my promises. 

Drama x

I do believe it is your half century today. That’s awesome ?

Posted by: Murlo

I do believe it is your half century today. That’s awesome ?

I'm waving my cricket bat at you Murlo. I dunno if you do cricket but it's a thing. Also listening to Paul Simon - You can call me Al. It's a great tune. I love music. I have found a new love for it since I stopped gambling. 

Love you pal. 

Be well. 

Drama x

I love cricket, (IPL especially) , can see your half century bat raised ? 

Music is amazing. It doesn’t matter what I listen to, I get something different out of it each time.

Love you too pal. Sleep well x

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H7m1PO7wvYM

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hSq4B_zHqPM

I just love that tune...

Congratulations on your half century Drama

Stephen x 

I am going to bed. I am very happy to be gambling free. That is all. x

Saturday. 

I woke up at 11.30am. Really very hungover after messing about last night. I had the worst headache. Like the crown of my head was painful. Hubby brought me breakfast in bed. He brought me tea and toast and marmalade. He said he would've done it for valentines but I had to go to work. It was cute. 

I stayed in bed till nearly 3pm. I should be studying but I don't feel like it. Mostly cos of the hangover. 

Um, what else?

Hubby used all of his stuff and wants some more. I messaged a guy and we went to get it at 6pm. I am unhappy about this but it is what it is. I made Hubby come with me because the weather is terrible and it scares me a bit. 

We went to the pub. I saw T from Church. That was nice. 

Hubby has increased his limit on his credit card. He bought me some new trainers. Um. Well I knew that was coming. Not the trainers part but that's his way of saying don't be mad please. I'm not mad. He still cannot spend as much in a day as I can gambling so I have determined that I will hit my 90 day target and then take back control of the money. 

It's for the best. I need to know that I can be strong before I do that. He won't get us in as much of a hole as I can in a single night. 

I love my Hubby. I love him so much. I wish he was more responsible but it is what it is. 

I am looking forward to getting my Nike Air Max 95. 

He knows what he's doing. 

I am sad that LouLou is in a bad place right now. I wish she would talk to us. I reckon we could help. I am sad that Stace is having stress with the weather and stuff. 

I think we have a real nice community here. 

I hope people use it when they are low cos I know it helps me stay strong. 

I am off to bed. 

G'nite. 

Drama 

XOXOXO

Oh yeah, have decided I'm gonna not go to work this week. I worked when I was sick and it wasn't appreciated. I am gonna go sick and get well and finish my assignment this week. 

That is all. 

Drama. x 

Sunday. 

Stayed in bed and watched a romance film called Our Souls at Night. I enjoyed it. It wasn't Up Close and Personal good but it suited my mood. 

I went on chat at lunch but I asked a daft question and felt stupid so I gave up on it. 

I went to church and lit a candle for Murlo and one for her mate and I also lit one for Boo cos when she says night and bless it makes me wanna bless her and I felt bad for her getting shoved for no reason. Even if there was a reason blokes shouldn't be shoving lassies. *angry mad face*

I went to Sainsbury's and got a Pork Roast and all the trimmings. 

I got home and Hubby had sent me several whatsapp messages with other stuff he wanted me to get. 

I had a cheese sandwich and a cuppa tea and went to Lidl's and got the stuff he wanted. 

Then I come home and had another brew. 

Then I took the dog up the park. Due to the weather we had the place more or less to ourselves so this was nice and relaxing. I didn't have to worry about keeping her close or little kids or other dogs or ought. I enjoyed this time. 

I come home and cooked dinner. We've had Pork, Sage n Onion stuffing, Apple Sauce, Roasted Potatoes and Carrots and Savoy Cabbage and Swede Mash. Very nice. I did not eat all mine cos my appetite is reduced. 

Whilst I was cooking I had a FB fight with some Uni kids about whether selling photo's of yourself online is s*x work. I do get myself involved in some very odd debates. 

I'm just chilling now and looking for summat to watch on Netflix. 

Drama. 

It means so much that you lit candles, thank you Drama. I am properly soppy today so it has set me off again ?. Love you ?

Thank you.. I have my salt lamp on here.. Cozy tosed with my hug a mug brew 

Boo ???

Sorry you left in a rush Drama.

I am going to propose that a Tena machine be installed in the chatroom.

Nite nite

Stephen x