13 days without gambling. Not feeling the urge, fortunately.
Only 1 year was enough to let this addiction destroy everything I had. Lost my bussines, got in debt, felt on deppresion, and the love of my life left me, without even knowing what happened to me and why I changed so much, why I started to act irrationally and putting all the important things in a second plane, without even realizing it.
I lost everything, and its so hard. Its so hard to remember how I had chances to Wake up, even on this forum late Last year, reading other people's fights and experiences, I cried a lot that night, I was aware I had an addiction, but couldnt drop it, oh lord, why? I was on time and I just couldnt, why?
Why I always have to lose the most important things in my life to realize and Wake up. I miss her a lot.
But now, nothing more but to keep working, currently going to therapy, doing everything to bring the real me again and with the motivation to get everything back. But its Hard, its very difficult to feel all of these and realize the hole Im in, I feel the strenght to get up but at the same time, the Mountain seems to High, too dense. I hope, I can do this.
GZ,
Welcome to the forum.
I am sorry to hear of you troubles and I truly hope you can find your way back to the life that you know. We can all get there one day at a time by making the decision not to gamble and by doing this we remove the destruction from our lives. Gambling not only affects our financial situation but overrides most of our good character traits. It has the power to change our personality.
So, start your journey and get back to where you want to be.
Good luck.
Tomso
Tomso wrote:
GZ,
Welcome to the forum.
I am sorry to hear of you troubles and I truly hope you can find your way back to the life that you know. We can all get there one day at a time by making the decision not to gamble and by doing this we remove the destruction from our lives. Gambling not only affects our financial situation but overrides most of our good character traits. It has the power to change our personality.
So, start your journey and get back to where you want to be.
Good luck.
Tomso
Tomso, thank you very much for your kind Words and consideration. Yes, like every obstacle in life we must overcome them and try to grow. I hope to give this path the best possible direction. Thank you and I wish you are all good too, brother.
ALN wrote: GZ, it's times when I read such a post that I remember how bad it got for myself and the number of years I've lost through gambling. My own mental health is still very poor and if I had still been gambling I don't believe I'd be here now.
It's possible to rebuild and by taking one day at a time, in time I'm sure you'll get there.
Wishing you all the best.ALN
ALN, thank you very much for your comment and kind Words. We must overcome all of this, its such a great tool we have here to share and listen each other.
I hope you get better and better about your mental health situation, good thing is we are aware and doing what we can step by step. I wish you all the best too, my friend.
Day 14 without betting.
Nothing special today. Was a good thing that I blocked all bookies Twitter accounts, and despite constant ads on TV, still not signs of need.
I guess I truly realized the magnitude and importance of what Ive lost. A lot of regret still to work with. Need to find a job since my bussines is going to most likely die and leave me with a considerable debt. Grade exam on the 19th too, need to focus more.
18 days without betting.
I felt some temptation today but nothing too strong. Forgot about it and I didnt bet.
Right now Im wondering about calling my ex girlfriend and Just talk to her, theres so much I need to say.
I lost everything to gambling mate. I hope you can sort thing out with your ex. I never could she wasn’t bothered about the money it was the lies I told. The trust had gone and they was never any way in her view of getting it back
19 days
I called her but she didnt picked up.
I came to important conclusions in therapy today. I Understand its not the time to talk to her yet and that my approachment and focus should be directioned outside my desires about getting her back. I must change, and when I do, I will have something to offer and I will share change.
Boro wrote:
I lost everything to gambling mate. I hope you can sort thing out with your ex. I never could she wasn’t bothered about the money it was the lies I told. The trust had gone and they was never any way in her view of getting it back
Its such a miserable situation, I feel what you say. I have been assuming maybe I definetely lost her, although Im trying Hard to change either way. Im sorry you couldnt be with her again, Boro. And I wish you all the best in life, no matter what, better times will come.
It’s an impossible situation mate. You need to prove that you can change and in time hopefully she will forgive you. But at the moment you need to concentrate on yourself by trying to beat this illness
Today I failed. After 32 days, I gambled. Won and then loss, was Just abound 5 usd so no issue there. But f**k how am I dissapointing myself again. I need to clear things up.
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