My Recovery

If you want to stop gambling act on the advice you read here and go to GA. If you just want to stop losing it's not going to happen. Time to decide how you want the future to look.

Of course you’re right, time to face up to it. I work shifts and have checked when the meetings are and I am not free for 2 weeks. I’m going to try my best to stay away from gambling and hopefully I can hold strong for those 2 weeks and go from there

Hi Almwch
Thanks for posting on my diary.
Like you, I have found reading recovery diaries and success stories to be really encouraging and helps to keep me focused on my own recovery.
there are some great people on these forums who can give much better advice than I can, but what I would say is that you should definitely try to get to the GA meetings. I've been to 5 now and they've helped massively. If you can't go due to shifts then are you able to join the forum chat on here? They run twice a day, every day (1-2 & 8-9). That could be an outlet for you to chat to other people in the same situation and may just tide you over and help you to stay GF until you can get to a meeting.
Stay positive. I'm 35 days GF now and life is a LOT better without gambling.
Good luck with your recovery journey
Kate

Thanks Kate. The GA meetings seem so awkward but I guess I need to put myself in that situation and face it. I’m away for the next 2 days so i’ll Be too busy to even think about gambling so that will be a good thing! I didn’t realise the forum does daily chats so i’ll Definitely have a look at that after the weekend. I just feel so guilty and so, so sick about this, I wish I could turn the time back to the end of January and start again. We can get through this though! Every time I come on here I feel more positive so I need to make that a daily thing for me.

Almwch

Hi all, up to day 4 and have not really thought about gambling at all. I’m training and a 100km walk later in the year so took myself out for a 9mile walk in the winter sunshine. Was nice to get out and clear my head a bit for a couple of hours. I need more training so hoping on doing a couple of these a week and get away from the house and work.

I’m working nights for the next few days and have succumbed to boredom before by loading up the blackjack to ‘try to win just a couple of £’ which I know always ends in tears. This week I haven’t been temped at all.

I feel that I’ve turned a corner now, and I will get on the forum chat one evening when I’m not working to try to talk this through with people. I’m also planning on attending a GA meeting as I think this will really help.

Day 5

Working nights and thinking about how to pay off the money that I have managed to wrack up. I’ve got a plan and I think I can pay off £1000 a month so pleased with that. All going well I should get back to where I started by my August payday.

Such an expensive mistake that takes 6 months to sort out!

Day 15 GF

Still going strong and the gambling is starting to become a bad memory. Got so much to pay off but confident it won’t take too long to pay off, just got to say strong.

So today I ran a half marathon, it was hard work and quite painful but I finished it in a respectable time. Didn’t train enough, some of the reason for that I was gambling instead of training so I felt that.

Starting to realise a £1 hand here and there is simply not worth it, because financially, physically and mentally it takes its toll

Have you excluded yourself from all gambling sites? If not why not mate?another interesting diary which I hope works out well.

holycrosser wrote:

Have you excluded yourself from all gambling sites? If not why not mate?another interesting diary which I hope works out well.

It’s complicated and I don’t want to go into too much detail but I’m a sports trader for employment, so if I exclude myself, I can’t work! It’s a difficult situation to be in but I think I’ve managed to sort it out in my own head! And thank you!