My Recovery Diary

I am already worried that I am going to slip back to my own ways eventually. I have just self excluded from the 3 sites I was signed up to. The problem is there are so many other sites and it is so easy to sign up. I absolutly love sport so know I m going to find it difficult just watching something like Sky Sports News and on the side of screen are the odds for games and end of season. So begins the long struggle.

Hi Ian, and welcome to this forum,where you certainly are not on your own with this.

You want to stop, that's a good positive to start with. you have realised that you have a problem, so that is already two steps forward. by taking one day at a time making that choice to say no gambling today, you can do this, gambling is a total waste of our time, money and lives, we cannot win because we cannot stop.

There is a triangle used on here (time money, location) if you take one of these away, it's impossible to play.

I wish you the very best of making the right choice, which is simply to say NO to gambling every day.

Suzanne xx

Ian

Welcome fella, have you considered getting blocking software for the devices you gamble on.

I myself gambled only in the bookmakers in person and have self excluded in every bookmakers in my home town Pompey and it's a pretty big city,but it has been truly worth the effort.

Regards sports and gambling, fella the two go hand in hand, there will always be a market, a growing one at that.

For the compulsive gambler the truth is it's not the industry that has a problem it's the individual, learning to live in harmony with addiction comes through a commitment to continued recovery, I enjoy sports in many forms today without the anxiety of the final outcome, because I simply enjoy them for what they are.

The presence of gambling odds,adverts just serve to remind me that as an active gambler I lived by a mantra I believe we all share whilst active

I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP.

The truth is through arresting that next punt you turn that mantra upside down, you win without waging a single penny.

Embrace recovery, it's a gift, one only you can give yourself.

You have the want, my advice Enjoy it

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

Day 2

I just have an overwhelming sense of guilt shame amd embarassment. I havent thought about placing a bet more how stupid i was for all the ones i did do. Today is going to be another day where i just want to talk but people arent ready to talk to me.

Day 2

I just have an overwhelming sense of guilt shame amd embarassment. I havent thought about placing a bet more how stupid i was for all the ones i did do. Today is going to be another day where i just want to talk but people arent ready to talk to me.

You could ring Gamcare? Go to Gamblers Anonymous? Both are places you could talk

Day 3

I still feel all of the shame and embarssment however today I am also relieved. I am relieved because I dont feel the unknown and people finding out, the all know and I think is the exact push I needed to stop for good. My family are being so supportive and i dont feel as if I deserve their help. My OH is still not talking to me and i expect that I just hope at some point she does want to talk and we can get back on track.

Thank you everyone for your support on here does mean alot.

Ian

Day 4

A better day bit of talk from other half feels like progress. No serious thoughts about gambling more feeling stupid for ever doing it.

Despite not posting on here for a few days I am feeling very good and begining to feel like myself again. It is nice to have the relief of the situation lifted. I still feel guilty and despise myself for what I have done but I can now see my goal and can't wait to be so many days that i cant keep track.

Ian