My recovery diary - Last bet 18/02/2012 - Forwards and upwards

Andy

my friend it is with honour i write this post.

Through hard work and a determination you passed through the half century. A foundation to be proud of, seriously proud.

Me i am honoured to have shared this journey, we have been through some tough times but you hung on.

Take a bow.

You earnt it.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Day 52

Thanks Duncan my friend, we have been on a long journey together and may our journey as friends continue.

You are right I am proud of myself and I will never give in battling.

Day 52 has been a lovely relaxing day, the weather has been glorious, so much so my indoor guinea pig boys both had a cuddle outside in the warmth today, they haven't been out since September due to winter/wet. Soon they'll both be able to enjoy their run again when it dries out a bit. My apologies I am a bit of a softy when it comes to pets, these lads are my children! lol

Now watching the Masters, shame I've got work tomorrow, really enjoyed myself.

DAY 53 Still gamble free

Steady day today at work now cooking dinner and then going to watch a film. It's what it is all about, living my dream, a normal life.

DAY 54

Another day without gambling. Pleased to be home, going to sit back and watch/listen to the football matches.

Boom sparked that half century mate, keep it going and push thru to 100 days and beyond

Great achievement be proud

DAY 55

Thanks Mr Woody, I will catch up with your diary tomorrow.

I have sad news, my oldest dog Jasper passed away on his holiday (Mums house in France) yesterday. He passed in his sleep probably of a heart attack as he had a heart problem and I think it just packed up. He was a wonderful boy, friend and member of the family and I am devastated. Work has been hard today, pets just mean so much to me, so wanted to pop on here to write things down, to try and stay strong and to not do anything destructive as in the past I would normally go out and gamble after such things happening.

Going to remain strong but sorry to be quiet posting others recently and today, I just haven't felt up to it, just staying focussed.

Thank you

Wilsy,

Real sorry to hear about your bad news. I also have a pet and would be gutted at the loss of my pet.

No need for gambling however. These things are seperate and must be kept seperate.

Tomso.

DAY 56

Thanks Tomso, your support means a lot.

Feel much better today miss the fella but nothing I can do. Work if busy got a migraine but am chipping away.Still focused and no gambling thoughts what so ever, have no money anyway!

Andy.

Fella my heart goes out to you, hope you have many great memories to treasure.

A massive well done on continuing your abstinence.

keep making the choice my friend.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Hi Wilsy

Really sorry to hear about your sad news. I'm glad to hear that you are dealing with it a little better today.

A massive well done in your commitment to stay abstinant at this difficult time. It just proves to show, that you are determined to change your life for the better.

Take care and stay strong.

Feb.

I'm so proud of you coping with such loss so well. Really glad to see you are still gamble free.

Makes me want to kick myself even harder for my slip but hey ho.

Here's to a gamble free future. Px

DAY 57

Thanks Feb and Paige, I will post you both back on your diaries also now.

Had a good day at work, was really confident in myself and it came across to my customers hopefully.

I am so proud of myself also, I've handled the passing of our dog Jasper well although I'll probably be upset when my parents get back from France and they talk about him. I think as long as I don't think about him, I am alright but his memories will always remain.

This is the first period in my life that I have not gambled whilst they have been out of the country and this time, it's been 3 weeks, so a real achievement. Babysitting my sisters two boys tonight they are 7 and 3, they are hard work but it's the least I can do so my sister can go out.

Looking forward to the football game tomorrow and having a gamble free weekend. Life is so much better and I'm smiling. x

Yo,

Sorry to here about Jasper.

Just wanted to say you should be really proud tonight,

I have followed your journey from the off and yep your relapses co insided with your mum and dad being away . So yep my dear friend a massive leap forward , and smiling well you and me both !

Shiny xxxxxx

Andy.

I would like to add to the honourable Shiny's post that you should be proud my friend.

You really did triumph over adversity, you can keep doing that and with it the smile will stay.

Fella just for today, it's a pleasure to share your journey, thanks.

Inspired.

duncs stepping forward never back.

Well done Wilsy on all fronts.

Michael