My recovery diary - Last bet 18/02/2012 - Forwards and upwards

DAY 126

Thanks Mr Woody.

Had a great day and now round my dads waiting for homemade Fish 'n' Chips! 🙂

Hi Andy

Pleased that alls goin well and having some steady days , see ur on the move in October like ur parents say dont stress u can't do anything bout that till then , moving is quite stressful a big change in ur life so something that I hope runs smoothly

New season starting soon hope ur goin to get to the matches be something to look forward to

Keep goin ur ticking along nicely

Castle2

Yo,

Thank you for your recent post.

Good to see you doing so well. Particularly with mum and dad away . So proud of how far you have come , hope you are that proud and more of yourself .

You really are an inspiration to the good folk who come to this site struggle initially but by following your lead can see that perseverance is the key .

You my dear Andy have it in abundance !

Shiny xxxxxxxx

Andy

fella I am truly proud of you.

keep making the right choice.

to abstain and maintain.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

DAY 130

Thanks Castle, Shiny and Duncan. Just popped on quickly before going back to work, will post you all back replies tonight.

Haven't been on for 3 days now but I'm absolutely fine and still staying strong.

Bit tired however, need a little break

Andy.

Fella you do what works for you.

The end result one day at a time.

No bet today.

Keep up the good work.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

130 days is something you should be very proud off, more days I get under my belt the less I come on site, but always read every few days

Keep up cracking work fella

DAY 134

Still gamble free.

Things have taken a turn for the worse over the last four days. I have split with my girlfriend of 4 1/2 years after she had told me her feelings have changed.

To me its the worst day of my life. I am so upset and fear for the future. She meant everything to me and I certainly have nothing to look forward to for the future.

My head is all over the place but I will not gamble, or will try not to.

Sorry to everyone who I haven't posted back to or supported. I have become quieter on this forum during my progress and I only hope my interest returns soon.

I wish everyone well, I will pop on once a week just to update my diary but for now I haven't got anything to say, as my gambling addiction at the moment means nothing compared to the love of my live I have lost 🙁

Take care

Hey Wilsy

Really sorry to hear your sad news. I kbow it must be difficult but try to remain strong - I split with my partner at Christmas and at times, it has been very difficult for me but I refused to let it spoil my efforts in remaining gammble free and make me een more unhappy.

Take care and loik after yourself.

Feb.

Yo,

Oh Andy I am sorry to hear your news.

This will be a trying time for you mate , but you know as well as I do that that destructive voice in your head will try to convince you to have that first bet .

You've come so far recently , I hope with all my being that you continue the good fight .

You are in my thoughts ,

Take care Hun

Shiny xxxxx

Andy.

Fella we have rode the good times along with the bad, now I see you have hit the terrible times, fella there are no words to say that will take the pain away, simply i'm gutted for you my friend, I hope things sort themselves out fella, one thing is for sure having a punt wont make things any better, dont add to the pain.

Fella i'm by your side unconditionally.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

DAY 135

Just an update, I am feeling much better today. My recently separated girlfriend has called and is coming down in 2 weeks time. She is going to take 2 weeks to think about things without any contact, basically in 2 weeks if she doesn't want to try to improve things then I will accept it's over and we won't see each other again. It's harsh but that's how I see things. If you love someone but they break up with you, then why should you make it easy for them by remaining friends and constantly being hurt for the rest of your days, knowing somebody else might or is with her. I will have to stay strong but if she doesn't want to hurt me again or doesn't think her feelings will be the same again, then she can keep well away from me.

Thanks obviously for all of your support when mine back hasn't been there, which I aim to improve. I have decided by having today off work, that remaining on this site is crucial to my continued recovery.

I have had no desire what so ever to gamble today, which has proved to myself how strong I have actually become.

Remaining alert at all time.

Thank you everyone

Yo,

I have had no desire what so ever to gamble today, which has proved to myself how strong I have actually become.

This is something I am glad you have picked up on , quite a few of us have seen this already in recent months . To sustain recovery through the tough times is the biggest test , you Andy are doing just that and should be very very proud of yourself today .

Shiny xxxxxxxxxx

Hi Shiny,

Thank you.

Today has been a tough day, I feel absolutely awful and lonely. This is such a tough test, I could so easily go gamble now as the urges are as strong as ever today but I won't, I don't feel great about myself but in my frame of mind I don't want to make things worse!

Today is 136 days and today I won't bet, tomorrow I will face when it arrives x

Andy

fella we are here, keep posting.

To gamble will just add to the misery.

for your efforts be proud.

you will be rewarded it won't feel that way but you will fella.

Duncs stepping forward never back.