My story of recovery

Today has been a good day gf, and I have spent some time reading new members / new stories thinking how lucky I am to be thinking straight at the moment and making me feeling Positive for the future stay safe and gf

Another day popping online reading some new posts on line ready and feeling the hurt! Life is so much better when you can concentrate on it! Here’s to another day gf

Day 51 wow 50 days gf I feel much calmer, and serenity has found me! I have a couple of treats planned (I would never plan) - that said i do struggle at Xmas because it reminds you of the family and friends that I have lost due to gambling and being alone for times when you should be sharing - does make you think! Hopefully this year I can turn that positively with a thought it will only get better the longer I stay gf!

Well done on 50 days gamble-free Jappy! A great milestone!

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Hi all day 55 a quick update, been v busy with work big push to Xmas!! That said I have been away for a Xmas trip / shopping - this has been my tale for every year! Image shopping enjoy a mulled wine Xmas market big parcels a couple of drinks and good day! Reality making gaps to split up for half hour nip into bookies lost a few hundred / win a few and the more excuses etc etc! This year.- booked hotel had a special meal night before then wandered had a mulled wine bought some expensive shoes and went home knackered and (skint) but do I care no it’s coming out of a bonus and I did something with it!! (Sod the repAyments) so all good and 55 is now older than me!! One day at a time!

Hi Jappy, thanks a lot for your post on my diary. It was much appreciated despite my stupidity later on down the line. Congratulations on reaching 55 days mate. Stories like your Xmas trip give me hope for a better future away from gambling. I had a similar trip in the Summer when I was around 95 days gamble free. I felt so good on the trip, guilt free and able to relax and have a ball. It’s what it’s all about! Keep up the good work mate. Will keep an eye out on your progress.

Thanks dan hope you start to accumulate the days gf! Today I have been trying to shift work backlog - which not too bad as the weather is cold and wet!! I am getting tired now of the never ending - but this time next week off till new year! A rest is needed it will super special if I am having a break with peace and serenity! I might have a look at DIY (house been neglected for years) kitchen needs big cash, but a paint and tidy elsewhere may make it feel fresher! Let’s see! Another day gf

Hi all early start - last week before Xmas at work - big last push to clear the work, this will be tough but can then relax into a break, and concentrate on the house and me! Busy so no issues over gambling! Here’s to another gf day / week!

Hi all early start - last week before Xmas at work - big last push to clear the work, this will be tough but can then relax into a break, and concentrate on the house and me! Busy so no issues over gambling! Here’s to another gf day / week!

Big day today! Got a pile of work to to turn a job round today, and hopefully full concentration will deliver this! No gambling so no reason I won’t be full on it! Here’s to it then we can relax and get stuck into a break!

Day 61 - wow that number is great and so proud and here’s to next day etc etc 19/10/18 is may date and two months gf!!

Day 64! I have received my Xmas bonus yesterday and it’s nice to think I can use this! I have paid off a small debt which I had from buying presents / gifts for myself, and this feels good as I have something for it, and a small amount put into a saving with a time delay! So safer! Yesterday last day at work few beers in afternoon and train home / previous years a few beers turned into a fobt session and home with empty pockets and full cr card! Or hours endlessly playing until it all went! Instead I’ve just got a bit of a thick head and a bank account to pay the bills later in month! All good here’s to a gf weekend

Hi all finding it hard to sleep tonight- so I thought I would log in and read a forum! I like to read the new member forum to see how things can get, just to remind me how close we all are to disaster! Let’s all hope there are no more disasters in 2018 and we all have a peaceful Christmas if that is all we can afford,

Christmas Day - a day I always find difficult, my ex wife loved the day and I enjoyed it because she did , now it’s empty and quiet and a day I find regret is close at hand! This year I will and do feel the same, but I have just read the first few of my posts and it reminds me of the journey from desperate need to stop to where I am mentally in 66 days! Money not sorted (but slowly better) relationships not sorted but I commit more and don’t quit! Xmas is paid for and a small amount in saving to kitchen! Here’s to a few more days gf and my initial medium term goal which was to gf for rest of 2018!! Happy Christmas! Whatever it’s like it’s better gf.

Christmas Day been and gone lots of regrets, been with the family (married kids, and normal s**t) but not me i am the one that turns up and does the “happy as I am gig” this year hit home more than normal, normally just want it over! This year enjoyed the company and maybe next year something positive!! Who knows!