need to change, first day of the rest of my life

Hi tt

Thanks for the post. I guess you are right that the anger doesn't help and wont change anything. Still need to work out a way to deal with it though when i get the snarky comments and the lectures. Something to work on.

Just been thinking about how much i have posted today and spent on this site. Positive thoughts every minute i am on here keeping occupied is a minute im not wasting my time or money. Another small victory for me today!

I have ever faith you will find a way bex your doing so well and every reason to be proud of your self so please try to be kind to yourself too....we can't change others but we can adapt ourselves to it and to change ourselves :0 ) im wacked been one long aS's day and buffet to do tomorrow so am just off to bed take care hun am about everyday if you need to have a rant and let off some steam ....
night for now x

Thanks tt, hope the buffet goes really well tomorrow and as planned, all extra pennies to the pot ,0) nicking your phrase there lol. Have a good night sleep snd hopefully my ranting mood will have subsided tomorrow x

Thanks bex and I hope this feeling passes soon for you its a bloody nightmare when we're doing our own heads in when it won't switch off just try to remember you've everything to be so proud about and a day at a time is how we battle through :0) I'm thankful to be walking along side you on this journey of ours x

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Well despite not having any sleep last night and a busy day at work i am feeling alot more positive today, another day gamble free proud of my self that at starting at the beginning of the week i had 50 pound in my purse and realising today that i still hsbe 15 pounds left. This past month or two has made me realise that actually eith the exception of paying bills and debts i actually spend very little on a day to da basis and dont spend money on extravagant things. Even my brother said he was surprised how little i spent generally with the exception of gambling of course. He suggested that he opens a savings account for mr and that each month just before next payday that whatever money i have left after bills, living costs and debt repayments are made that hr could put this in the account. I have also started putting all,my spare change in a pot and will add this to it each time is is full. Already have about 25 quid in there so just makes me realise that i can have money laying around without feeling the need to stick it all back on those horrible sites. By the end of 2015 i may even have saved enough to reach my goal to move abroad to be with my oh. All of this definitely gives me the motivation to continue being successful on this journey as i could have so much to look forward to.

Wishing everyone a successful gamble free day x

Hi anom,

Just popping in to congratulate you on 57 days of winning.

Keep positive and keep going.

Suzanne xx

Hi iwised

Thank you for the support, it is very much appreciated and i have to say as time goes on i am feeling more positive and feel i can really do this, although not going to get complacent. Well done on 334 days, thats amazing and something to aspire to.

Bex x

Today i have decided after reflecting on how much money i have managed not to spend over nearly the past two months i am going to go into town and treat myself and my daughter to a nice meal together and some quality time. Been a while since weve been out for a meal i can say. Then there is the realisation of how many meals we could have hadbut im not going to dwell on the past other than to learn from it to make sure my life is good from this point forward. Really looking forward to it which is something i haven't been able to say for a very long time. feeling good and staying positive. As they say with the self for filling prophecy, positive thoughts equal in positive outcomes, and life is what you make it so I'm going to make sure my life is a much more positive thing to be a part of for me and my loved ones.

Another day gamble free, i can do thiss.

Well just came back from town having bought a few small bits for myself and my daughter, bought my daughter the glasses she wanted and went out for a nice meal which two months ago i wouldn't have done so am feeling rather happy as finally seeing that each day i don't gamble is a day when I'm winning.

Hey bex how are you?? Nice last post seems your feeling a little more positive glad you had a good day :0) and your right each day gamble free is a winning day
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