Never going back - only forward.

I have just gambled. f this

I have just gambled. f this

Really sorry to hear that Rainman.

Just get back on wagon and back to a day at a time.

Do you have online blocks in place and gamstop self exclusion?

Hello Bobbyj/Rainman

It's understandable if you don't want to say too much just now. You sound very frustrated. But if you do feel like talking, the Helpline and Netline are there for you, 8am til midnight every day. As K2 says, one day at a time.

Take care

Deirdre
Forum Admin.

Thanks K2, thanks Deirdre. I’m cross with myself and angry, I’m dusting myself off and I’m going to make it happen, down to me, i have blocks in place and self exclusion from the shops, but i went under the radar.. pride hurt but it’s not gonna own me. It’s not going to beat me. Bobbyj/ rainman

Guard up Rainman !

My situation with life in general has worsened, mainly relationships, finances and health, i sound really bright don’t i, well f it, i can’t hide this lot, bin slowly dragging me down and now I’m in bed feeling pretty rubbish,, I’m not completely skint, got 30 quid, but so very stationary, can’t find a way out, can’t think of a way forward, on my own and i feel it. Sold the tv last week. I will cook myself something and get a coffee. Just checking the post, no bills, result,! I don’t feel like gambling or even have a pull to do so, the 30 stays in my pocket. Couldn’t lose my last thirty right. Industrial injury benefit due on Wednesday, I’ve got electric, gas, water and plenty of food, so why so low, cos i have cut off all friendships because of my marriage break up last year, i also owe money to 2 very decent friends who live a long way from me but i don’t want to burden them with my troubles, i will get in touch next month, i just wrote in book, my mum dad and sister are dead and my children are keeping their distance because i have split from their mum, so therefore i don’t see the grand kids, my self and my partner are hit and miss, (she’s in the same situation as me) long term sick and first time I’ve been without a car in my life, .. I find myself waiting for a letter from the DWP so i can move on again, i hate being in this position, I’ve worked all my life, I’m gonna do something about it, i have to, I’m still signed off and ssp has stopped, the U C is a joke, or not, or not, so I’m going to try and get some sort of work, but it’s difficult cos sometimes i can’t walk very well and i also have copd caused by encounters with asbestos in the past, that’s why i got industrial injury benefit but can’t get a private claim, I’m 63 now, pushing 21, smile, so I’m in trouble, ,,, ok I’ve looked at the negatives now I’m going to look for the positives , I’m gonna try and get out of this ditch that I’ve fallen into, i have to and i will... no betting, Guard Up, Bobbyj / Rainman

Hey buddy.

Listen you relinquished control for a moment and consequently your mind is punishing you for it right now. But what else can we do apart from get back up and fight... Give in? **** no, every day we can clear up a little bit of the mess... Even by not gambling day by day you are clearing up a bit of the mess... You are gaining strength. When you have strength you can conquer. When you have enough strength you can conquer anything. It may not feel like that right now but start rebuilding that strength day by day. Don't give up... Don't look back... Don't dwell. The mind is a canvas... Remove the dark colours from your palette and stick with the brighter tones... That's how you'll end up with a brighter picture in the end.

You can do this man.

Rainman.
Fella I feel your pain, life is brutal at times but you will I know be able to ride the storm, we all learn the art of survival mode.
The bottom line is whatever the issue is that we face we won't find the answer in a punt, just temporary escape.
Keep on keeping on fella.
Never forget there's a lot of folk walking by your side.
Abstain and maintain
Duncs stepping forward never back

You ok matey? How's things

thanks signalman and Duncan. Ive not bin to good , I walked out on one relationship and am trying hard to keep focused on the way forward, i fell out big lime with my eldest son and i don’t want to rectify that anytime soon, ,,, I’m in physical pain but I’m gonna go off my head if i don’t become self supportive, I’ve always worked, had my own businesses as well as employed, i can’t hack this benefit reliant, i really hate it,,, so I’ve uped my meds and i walked into a business and asked for a job that was advised on a board outside , i start next week. Sod all that cv bolxxx , so it’s a start and i will increase my earnings , I’m really looking forward to it. I will let the dust settle as far as relationships go and have no intention of rushing back in, but a few things have to be sorted out as they do after a split.. As far as gambling goes, yes i could have lost myself in a betting shop, i could, but i didn’t , I’m on the move, look out I’m coming. Guard Up, Bobbyj / rainman

That's the spirit my man. Good to hear your back up and fighting. Keep up the fight and things will get better. Hope the new job goes well for you.

Thanks signalman, I’m pushing on. Guard Up, Bobbyj/ rainman

Started the job this week and it’s all good so far. I’ve thrown my self into work and have a goal that will hopefully see me in a great position in a year, it takes me away from my troublesome relationships and the gambling, I’m pretty much on my own now, answer to myself, I’m in control of my addiction, and although i try opening doors to new stuff, this door to gambling remains open, it’s always open, it will always be open, i won’t be walking through it, I’d like to say the door is shut, but it’s not is it, it beckons you through TV , radio, laptop, phone, high street, pub, club, everywhere, my choice to take the bait or not, today i have a few beers and enjoy fun with my dogs and watch the football, i won’t be taking the bait Guard up, Bobbyj/ rainman

Started the job this week and it’s all good so far. I’ve thrown my self into work and have a goal that will hopefully see me in a great position in a year, it takes me away from my troublesome relationships and the gambling, I’m pretty much on my own now, answer to myself, I’m in control of my addiction, and although i try opening doors to new stuff, this door to gambling remains open, it’s always open, it will always be open, i won’t be walking through it, I’d like to say the door is shut, but it’s not is it, it beckons you through TV , radio, laptop, phone, high street, pub, club, everywhere, my choice to take the bait or not, today i have a few beers and enjoy fun with my dogs and watch the football, i won’t be taking the bait Guard up, Bobbyj/ rainman