NEW DAWN , NEW DAY , FEELING GOOD !

A little bird promised me youd pop in today. ..
Sooo HELLO !
Take care of you..
Don't put to much pressure on those hips. ..
Keep in touch Mr fish : ) x

Alan, you are correct, in everything you say, I am selfish, I want my life to stay the same, and I know it will not if I own up. Yes gambling is a dirty little secret, and I hate myself for being sucked in. We are both in our late fifties, and if this relatioship ends as it will when I confess, I will probably never find anyone again, she will defo end it if I confess. So not only financial ruin but relationship ruin beckons, I will post to you when I have sorted this mess out, thanks for taking the time mate to post. See you around.

b****r me !
I know I've put in a few pounds this summer ...but .." big L "lol
"Tazmanian devil " !
I accept the " wooshhhhhhhh " !
that's a girl thing....multitasking....peel the spuds...post....Hoover...post....polish...post....ironing....post....even sent deanooooo a picture to prove it
But seriously me old booty....tis great to hear from you. ...me and mine are rickety boo thank you !
And even if me / them wernt....id deal with it....head on...sort it !
Lol
I trust you and yours are all fine And dandy. ..
Look after those creeky old bones...the new dance craze next summer is going to be oops upside your head....I'm sure you'll remember it : )

Morning sir alan
I thought I might be able to entice you out. I was missing the positive post's. And the bad jokes
Are we not due an update?
Hope all is well and your hips aren't playing you up to much?
Have a great one x

ALAN 135 wrote:

Afternoon diary , Bit of a while since I've had a catch up simply because life's got in the way a little .

So a few weeks ago happened to notice £ 1200 had gone into my account :)) I did wonder from where but soon realised it was a payment from my pet insurer reimbursing me for the operation my dog had a few months ago ,at one point they'd flatly refused to pay out on the grounds of it being a related condition to the other leg she'd had operated on , in my gambling days I'd have probably not bothered chasing them too much as it would have eaten into my valuable gambling time and my gamblers brain would have no doubt told me that I could easily win that back on a Fobt machine but of course now I have all the time in the world to take on companies and not accept their cop out clauses , so after words with my vet and a folllow up letter and me threatening to take them to the insurance ombudsmen, they paid up with an apology for the inconvenience :)) .

My son who's on his way back to uni this weekend had a meeting with his mum this week , it's the first time they've spoken or seen each other in about 4 yrs , It was his decision to meet up and I knew he was thinking of it as he'd mentioned her a few times since his sisters wedding back in early August to which she wasn't invited , my daughters pretty much drawn a line under it all and moved on but as my son was 13 when she went ,he had a lot of questions that as far as he was concerned went unanswered , so it was his chance to ask what he needed to know .

He spoke to me on his return and felt that although it went ok , Her addiction was in full swing and she was still in denial about the reasons she left and hasn't been in contact with him but I think it gave him a bit of piece of mind that although she wasn't in a great place she was at least ok , I'm not sure if he'll continue to see her as he's left it by saying he was going back to uni for a few months and would speak to her later . It felt a bit uncomfortable for me to be honest as I've brought him up on my own since she left and feel very protective towards him and I know what she's capable of but I'll just sit back and let it all unfold and be there to gather the pieces if need be .

Glad to see my old buddy Martin ( Oldham ) reach his first year gamble free , we started here within two weeks of each other and it's been an honor to have been along for the ride with him , he's come so far and turned so much around and deserves all the good things that life now gifts him :))

Thanks to all that left messages for me before my little break it was really kind and sorry for not getting back to some , truth is I'm struggling to find time to post these day's I'm all back on track enjoying life since I stopped gambling and taking the benefits since doing so , I'm also absolutely racked with pain at the moment and really struggle for the first couple of hours in the morning and it doesn't get much better during the day , the cortizone Injections I had back in August haven't really worked this time and instead of 8 to 12 months of being relatively pain free I've only managed a few weeks this time , my hips are knackered and I've been back onto my consultant who's ok'd the op but I'm now waiting for a date , it's all leaving me really tired as I'm on a constant stream of painkillers which help but not enough .

I'm still about checking on here making sure all the posse are doing well and not misbehaving in any way ( something I've never done of course ) and can see that most are doing just fine and keep on offering support to one another and all the newcomers that find their way here but I'm just not feeling able to post at the moment simply because of the above reasons , hopefully it wont be too long before I get some new bionic hip's and will have a few months off to catch up with everyone , I mentioned to my partner the other day that It would mean no nookie for 6 to 8 weeks after the op !! Her reply " Well it's you that's having the op " :(( She makes me laugh and keeps me in my place !! .

Wishing you all well in your continued recoveries, love and best wishes .

Alan xx

thanks Alan. hope you are doing well. tri

Fantastic - made me smile - well done - you inspire me - keep it up x

It's not the mutt you want to be feeling sorry for 😉 & for your info, he's only my dog when he's charming the pants off of the village folk with his repertoire of tricks (teach a dog to wave & you'll never be lonely again), the rest of the time (99.99999999%) he deffo belongs to the Nurgel mackherer!

Don't apologise for not posting Pops & never kid yourself you could keep up with the kidz in the chatroom! I hope those old hips stop giving you jip soon...I'm not wheeling you to Mick's!

Afternoon dear diary , time for a catch up me thinks :)).

As per usual these day's nothing much gambling related to report , in fact it's the furthest thing from my mind these day's and without trying to sound cocky I definately think I've turned the corner so to speak , I just don't ever want to go back to the way I was 13 months ago coz it wasn't a nice place to be at all .

Feeling pretty good today as for the first time in a couple of weeks I managed to get a reasonable nights sleep , been in absolute agony with my dodgy hips so made an appointment with the doctors yesterday and was given some new wonderfull painkillers to replace the old one's that just wern't doing it anymore , hospital phoned me on Monday to let me know that they'd put me on the waiting list already instead of having to wait until November as originally planned , so maybe by Xmas or January could be going for the replacement :)).

Despite all the pain I'm still looking on all the positives life's giving me , thinking to myself the other day just how fortunate I am to live in an age where you don't have to be in pain and also that in a few months I'll be granted the opportunity to have surgery that will make my life a whole lot better , Imagine living with that years ago when you wern't gifted those choices :((.

One thing I have been more aware of lately is an increase in my patience with life and outside influences , in the doctors the other day , my appointment was for 9.55 and didn't get seen until 11.15 , in my gambling day's I just wouldn't have wanted to waste my valuable gambling time and would have probably kicked up a fuss and booked another appointment but the other day I was quite happy to wait and be seen and allow a couple of others to go in front of me who's immediate need was much greater than mine .

Got quite annoyed with someone the other day in Barclay's though , stood there waiting for a while and witnessed an overseas gentleman ( and I use the term gentleman loosely ) getting quite Irate , He'd already had a go at lady in the line for questioning him over his use of one of the machines and when a young female member of staff tried to calm him down he turned on her and said , " She had no right to interfere with his business " , she was quite upset by the way he spoke or rather shouted at her , so gobby decided to have a word and tell him in no uncertain terms how rude I thought he was being , I then got a bit of backup from a couple of other fellas in the bank ( thankfully ) and he left a bit sharpish , I popped off to do some shopping and dropped a £ 4'99 bunch of tesco's finest flowers back to the girl in the bank , I knew she'd probably got over it but there is really no excuse for rudeness .

My dog's now got over her op and is walking much faster than her owner these days , she stops and stares back at me as if to say "Come on then " while I hobble along behind her :(( , just wondering if the vet could sort me out ( hip's not the other ) someones already beat him to that many years ago !.

Thing's are starting to come to a head with the fosterkids , court date coming up soon so we'll know a bit more about what's to happen with them , they have all come on leaps and bounds in the last few months and look so much more healthier than they did when they arrived a few months ago , I can't see them being returned to their parents as they've not made much effort with the authorities to get them back , it upsets us all but what will be will be and hopefully they'll soon find loving homes where they'll continue to flourish :)).

I don't like to do doom and gloom in my diary and TBH there really is no room for it in my life anymore , I'm happy and at peace with myself in a way that I've not been for many years , family's become the most important thing in my life and as everyone is in good heart , I really need nothing more :)).

Another week will see me reach 400 day's of getting my life back and everyday I'm thankfull of the day I came to this site and admmited that gambling had beat me , the most honest words I ever wrote down and the one's that set me free :)).

Best wishes to all on the forum . x

My name is Alan and I'm Recovering Compulsive Gambler

Great positive post Alan, I hope one day my mindset will be where yours is at now. You a credit to this forum. - Paul

Good post Alan, keep up the good work and glad the dog is doing well 🙂

I'm still here Alan...lurking in the shadows lol..
Naaa ...call me what you like hun. ..at the moment im calling myself licensed social worker rather than landlady. ..few customers going through the mill at the moment...but heyyyy wouldnt have it any other way....must be the sign of the crab lol
i do feel like all I do is clean...maybe I could get a job with aggie and Kim...love them pink fluffy rubbers !
Eek..hope deanooos don't read that ..he may want some...
Anyways...I've really got to fly now....lots to do before my waters break ! : )

Just dropped by and read your post Alan - apart from the knackered hips it's great to hear your positivity and happiness. Keep doing what you're doing mate.

take care

Oh Sir'Alan you old smoothie you, Tesco's Finest flowers indeed. Did you tie your handsome white steed with his flowing mane outside? (Although not quite sure how you'd have got on and off the thing what with your dodgy hips). Lol! Of course you were gentlemanly, that's just you. I can't imagine you as a grisly gambler, so just as well we get to know and hear about the life of the lovely recovering version 😉 Those little ones will miss you and Mrs Sir'Alan when they have to go, but like you said, we'll hope their forever homes will be just as life enriching for them as Chez Al.

Glad (but not surprised) to see you still gf my friend. Wishing you another restful night tonight Al.

Twinks xx

Alright my old fruit bat?
What's wrong with loxxie using Deano as her child's name lol

So you're on the list to become part man part machine?

Maybe just maybe you will be able to show us all those tango dances you've been learning at loxxies get together next summer? It's going to be similar to Glastonbury but it's called loxxbury. Twinks has already pitched her tent she's that excited

Anyway enough babble for one night. Just thought I would pop by and ruin your diary lol
Kisses

Sorry sir Alan lol
I wasn't around for a few day's as my phone ended up in the splash by accident. So had to wait until the wife had time to fetch me a new one.

I have noticed the frog man but I don't think it's the same one as they have a different style. Bit I could be wrong?

Funnily enough I was attacked by my 3 year old son welding a hidden sword this morning. He's very much into the turtles at the minute so thinks he's a ninja lol

Apparently it never rains by loxxie so there won't be Crayford mud although she tells me there's a pool. Maybe we can get twinks to swim it when she's had a few?

Good to see you still knocking about and just shy of 400 days to boot. Awesome work my freind
Have a great one
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