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I do post every now and then but on the same diary , thought I'd mix it up haha ! .... Thanks mate really appreciate it !

Closing in on 200 days !

So today is the 200 day gamble free milestone !

So much has happened since I stopped and all good I wouldn't change a thing .... Only thing I wish I did it before I affected others .... either way I'm here now and I'm very happy that I've proved myself right .... Now to look onto 250 days !

Hey 200 days...massive well done....: )

Nice one mate. Well done

Thanks guys ! Onto 250!

Sitting here having a read through some people's posts and I started to wonder maybe what's helped me is I never had that 'massive' win ? The most I ever won was £212 on one spin of roulette , of course being a gambler I rounded it down to £200 and took it .... I can honestly say I think I only won over £100 maybe a handful of times , I was always to scared to put it on big until I was in a dizzy zone where I wanted the ground to eat me up and I was doing next to impossible bets ! Maybe I'm lucky I never had that win ? Maybe if I won 10k I wouldn't be where I am now maybe I would have had that in the back of my mind but instead all of got is why did I even bother just for £20 there £50 there or losses ? It's not been easy don't get me wrong but I think with the big win feeling in the back of my mind I think it would have been a lot harder! .... I do still dream of winning the euro's but I never even put that on never did even when I did gamble ! #fgambling

236 days gamble free now , seems like forever since I last had a bet it's crazy to think how far I've come .. Just going back I remember thinking that I'm never going to be able to stop gambling it's just a part of my life like eating and drinking , just goes to show how wrong u are sometimes and with some help and stubbornness anything is possible !

As always dav a privilege to have been part of your journey and great to see you doing well
Deano

So .... Today .... 250 days gamble free .... Ok technically it's about 253 but on here it says 250 so I'll go by that .... It's not been a easy journey mainly because of my gf how much it has affected her but as regarding the gambling it's been a doddle ! Nothing has made me want to gamble in the slightest .... Bit of a misunderstanding happened last weekend basically I showed my gfs sister a site that u can watch tv series on and in doing so a load of pop ups opened on different pages and the one I noticed was b****5 but nothing was said and just closed the pages and carried on showing her .... After we got back my gf told me she looked at my phone and see I had been on a gambling page , after I explained she understood but told me when she see it her heart sunk and didn't know what to do, in a way it's good because I still know how upset she would be but it's bad because I didn't mean to make her feel like that .... Trust is a big issue still and this certainly didn't help but at least I know I've not done anything it's just her having to get over the situation again .... Any ways thanks to everyone who's helped me with this journey even tho it definatly hasn't stopped its just another milestone ! Onto 300 days !

really happy for you that youre on 250 days, massive achievment

keep plodding on youll soon be 300 days gf.
Well done
Ben

Excelleent work and keep up the good work.

Best wishes

Cheers guys appreciate the support !

Well done on your continued journey ☺

Every little thing counts, rewards are endless, keep claiming your life back!

Just for today...that's all it takes! Enjoy & keep posting

S x