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Hi Tryer

I cannot explain how uplifting your last post is to me. I remember my early days and the pain. You now have a little direction and optimism in your words. Stick with the winners on here mate and you'll find serenity!

Take care

another day gamble free , and happy , and maybe have also scored a date with my nextdoor neighbour lol onwards and upwards . Driving to work today i realised i am a winner today i have won some money today , because i have stayed gamble free today , so i have won the money that i have not lost to gambling by not gambling , I WILL NOT BE A VICTIM TO THIS ADDICTION .

Hi Simon

These waves of good feelings come over us now and then and they are great. Just keep it nice and easy and next urge just work through it as it will pass. Stay strong and you will be a winner every day. Glad you are enjoying things thus far

Take care

today is going to be another gamble free day , im off to work at ten finish at 5ish , then onto cleaning my pig mess of a house as to be honest i have over the last 18 months of gambling have let my house slip big style and not lifted a finger, so will make a start and hopefully i will feel alot better for it and see and realise what can be acomplished when not gambling . Whoever set this site up , a big thankyou as to air my views on here is really helping along with getting advice and also realising that i am not the only weak one when it comes to gambling . I WILL NOT BE A VICTIM TO THIS ADDICTION ANYMORE

Keep strong mate, really does help having people to chat to on here.

Good Morning Tryer

Many thanks for the your kind words on my diary, although it would be nice to take the credit for the long post on my first page, it was actually the words of a friend of mine who has suffered like hell with gambling. He has actually a website called 365 days beating my addiction http://www.365daysbeatingmyaddiction.co.uk/

His words had the same profound effect on me as they had on you, he is lovely guy and had the world at his feet, than BOOM ! gambling & FOBT, you know the rest. He is campaigning really hard and trying to raise awareness however i know he fighting his own demons still like we all are.

I read your opeing posts, my vice has not really been online roulette but almost everything else.

I wsih you well tryer, I will keep an eye out for you and trust you do the same for me.

Have a great weekend, Dark Place

will do mate thanks

A big congratulations on getting this far Simon whilst doing everything right. I agree with you, this site is priceless. I came here a list person but found people who knew how I felt and what I was facing, I've never felt alone or isolated since.

Keep putting those days between yourself and that last bet. One day at a time.

Steve

hi all have just read somebodys diary and it has really helped me even though they have wrote this a long time before i was even on this site , the words that meant so much to me are so simple and just needed to hear/read them," its immoral to loose that kind of money" and now i have heard those words it has really hit home with me. a pound leads to twenty , twenty to fifty then to hundred then thousand and so on , so i cant even gamble one pound as this will mean i will always carryon to then loose a big amount an immoral amount of money , as a pound is not immoral but it would never stop there and would always lead to an immoral amount. So another day another dollar as they say , but another dollar that im not going to gamble today .I will not be a victim to this addiction anymore

A big congratulations on getting this far Simon whilst doing everything right. I agree with you, this site is priceless. I came here a list person but found people who knew how I felt and what I was facing, I've never felt alone or isolated since.

Keep putting those days between yourself and that last bet. One day at a time.

Steve

had a big chat with someone today regarding my gambling, found out he had a habbit once , but everytime I have stopped gambling before then chatted to someone in person about the problem I have had then within 2 weeks ish I have gambled again , I don't know why it has just sparked something when I have chatted about it to someone, even though its always been a conctructive conversation ie why not to gamble, but this time of stopping must be different, I must stay stopped , I will beat this I have to , I will not gamble because I can not stop and I will not be a victim to this addiction , no bet today

as I said in last post chatted to someone about gambling , and usually after doing this within 2 weeks ish i start gambling again, I think I know why, I think in my head after chatting to someone I almost in my head think because I have chatted to someone about it that I have it beat, and must somehow let my guard down or something , I don't know but I only just mentioned in my last post that's whats happened before after talking to someone about the past gambling, then suddenly already I have a big massive urge to gamble cant believe it already while I was writing on somebody elses diary , it could also be because I have a little spare cash aswell [ well that's if I don't pay more than the minimum on my credit card ] that along with chatting to someone about roulette , and then thinking I beat the addiction and am gamble free, still shocked by the quick influx of this temptation/urge to gamble , its carming now but a minute ago it was strong and scared me a bit I almost went under that gambling spell again like it controlled me again and like I was being radio controlled by this addiction to just put some more bets on and get ahead again and win some of my money back , I cant really remember properly what i was thinking a minute ago , not being a drama queen either , that urge came quickly. Well my brain is now trying to convince myself why not to gamble while the addiction is not letting me think straight for good reasons not to gamble , but I know in my heart of hearts that I cannot gamble because in the long run I know i will loose , i think im fine and know i wont gamble tonight but i feel sick that i think i might of nearly gambled tonight. Anyway im going to sleep now , god that was horrible,

Hi tryer, you've done the right thing and came on the site to vent your urge. That's happened to me a few times while reading diaries, there are certain times when the urges get triggered but at least you are recognising them and are able to ride them out. Also I think the majority of people on here would agree that having spare cash can also trigger thoughts, we've just not used to having spare cash usually we are blowing it. It will get easier though. Make every penny your prisoner and don't give it back to the gambling industry- they will only win.

That feeling of sickness would be a whole lot worse if you did gamble as you probably already know.

Your doing great though, keep it up

Take Care and good luck with your recovery

thanks babybluesky that means a lot , and think your name is great by the way , just seen the time and realised its the start of another gamble free day w hay

Stay strong mate, we can,t gamble because we can,t stop. Life with gamble is no fun at all mate

all the best