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Gambling is so silly mate we cant control it so why start in first place. You were doing really well. But as long as you only lost 200 they no harm done. Stay strong mate

feel very weird and spaced out today , like recovering from my so stupid stint , and borro your right why start when I cant control It why start when its silly , all I can remember is before starting again I was craving that buzz , seeing a few adverts on tv possibly gave me that craving as there was a particular tv show, where there were a lot of adverts inbetween advertising gambling , not blaming them just think it may have sparked something to try again . [ I must ignore those adverts ] , thanks dunc for your advice , stupid of me but not even thought of blocking gambling on my phone , but will give it ago , onwards and upwards , strange though forgot how loosing at gambling tires you out mentally , another reason not to gamble

Totally understand were you coming from with the adverts its a disgrace they are aloud to advertise gambling. The way I see it they is always a catch with these free bets and thing like that so I take no notice because its just a con. I.e get a free 10 pound but you have to play it 50 times before you can withdraw whats the point in that. As for being spaced out its because you cant believe what you have done been they loads of times and its awful

But its only 200 not the end of world you can easy recover from in and learn a harsh lesson mate. You just cant gamble!

graeme

Hi tryer

Even with your blip your last post is so positive and look what you have learnt

Recovery is a journey of learning and you are getting wiser

As Duncs and Graeme says use every barrier you can so when the urges come you can't oblige them.

The triangle is a brilliant barrier

Suzanne xx

don't expect any sympathy , I could not help myself up till sunday last week went nuts couldn't control myself , but one thing I have learned which I did not know before , I knew before a system cant win, but I did not know when gambling that I have no self control when it comes to gambling , I have really learned last week that I cannot pull away even when winning , and I have also learned mainly that while gambling I know self control absoloutly none when it comes to not raising the bets too high to win back a loss and also absoloutly no self control when it comes to putting money on the betting account , win , loose , more money in account , repeat this repeat this repeat this and so on ...

it is right to say I cannot win because I cannot stop , BUT I now for me say , I cannot win because I cannot stop even when im winning , because I AM A COMPULSIVE GAMBLER , and I think this last week it has taught me , I cant gamble because I as a person am not personally able to control myself while gambling , even today after being totally annoyed with myself after loosing too much more money , and I don't think now the amount matters , even today though I still thought of trying again having another stupid spat of gambling , but luckily for me this time it was different ,[ I realised only after learning the hard way last week though] whats the point I know I wont stop even if im winning up until the point to where I loose it all again , and knowing actually knowing that would be the outcome after a day /week/ month / hour or whatever / and knowing that would be the outcome that made me make the decision not to place another bet, not to have another go and not to put any more money on my account .

to be straight I cannot promise myself or anyone on here I will not gamble again , all I can say is I have learned more about myself and have learned that I cannot gamble because I loose control and then loose all my money. feel pretty sh*tty and angry at myself at the moment , this will pass as have a lot of feelings already in the past few days , I will not give up giving up , I think I know myself a bit more now and understand actually understand that gambling is not for me simply because once doing it im doomed , as once doing it I have NO SELFCONTROL and as this is the case I then stand no chance at winning when gambling . I make a promise to myself , if ever I want to gamble again or if ever I think about it again I promise that I will come on here and read this post first .thanks for everyones comments will post on others diarys soon when feeling A1 again , no bet today or yesterday

mind confident to still not gamble anymore !

Hope you can stick to it this time mate!

I hope I can to boro , thanks , I told my girlfriend I gambled again , not impressed to say the least and telling her made me feel like I have lost the total amount of money I have lost , it made me feel like I had lost that all over again. although I have never told anybody the amounts I have lost and nor did I tell her the other night. She did ask how much I lost when last gambled I said I can not tell you , but I have promised that if she asks me if I have gambled again I have promised to be honest and tell her the truth weather I have or not and also I have promised if it is a yes that I have gambled , I have promised when she asks how much I have lost which she would do , I have promised to tell her the amount I have lost .we do not live together yet and probably wont for a few years yet , so it would not directly affect her , but all the same she does not want to go out with a gambler !

I have not gambled since last time and do not intend to , I have just closed my account with the last online casino I used .

hopefully this time I can do it , with the thought that if I do it again I will have to confess that I have done it again and how much I have lost , I really really don't want to have to do that, so then have a real influence from her to stop me from gambling , and then that has got to be a good thing 🙂 hope everyone is fighting the good fight , lets all be well

Hi tryer.

It sounds like you really WANT to stop now, I hope this is your time,

Well done on telling your GF that really is a big positive for you.

Lost money is nothing compared to what we can lose

Think of what you lose when urges come and think of what you are gaining by not playing,

Try and turn the negatives of gambling into positives of abstaining, it does help.

Stay strong and focused and carry on

Suzanne xx

confirmation email of closed betting account today so feelng a bit better

Hope the penny has dropped with you mate because I don't no about you but I cant take anymore relapses. Stress and heartache it cause its just not worth it. stay strong mate

Good to hear you are still going strong mate. Well done its hard but it will be worth it in the long run