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Stay strong mate and thanks for commenting on my diary

Hi tryer

Congratulations for everyday you have been gamble free. Sounds like your taking all the necessary steps to ensure you stay that way.

Just remember you have a lot of support on here and people who will always understand and empathise with your situation. And the best thing is none of us will judge cos we are all in the same situation.

Craig

thanks for all the advice and comments its a real help onwards and upwards

I think I still miss the excitement of gambling , but I know I must now live without that excitement and then live without gambling as if I don't then all that will happen is my life will never get better and instead my life will only get worse financially, but also just as importantly mentally, emotionally, my personality would change anger would come self pitty , disappointment the big addiction , irony self exclusion from the outside world, time would be wasted I would be on a like a hamster wheel going round and round but never ever getting anywhere my life would be pointless, worthless , my business would fail shame would arrive and my house would be taken , my car would soon go the debts would get big the lies would come back and I would not know who I am anymore . So getting all that in return for receiving that excitement when gambling,I ask myself is the excitement I get from gambling worth it , not to mention the sick feeling you get when loosing,the deteriation in health , I think it has finally sunk in a big fat NO it is not worth it .knowing I now realise it is not worth it, and with the blocks in place I think I have a chance of not ever gambling again ,[apart from my lucky dip lotto ticket which im fine with that ],its a shame that I had to loose all that money before I got to this point , but I am putting it down to one BIG exspensive lesson that I have learnt in this life , feel good now after getting all this out and as writing this feel a big relief a weight lifting off me , feels great,well moving on , keep strong everyone

onwards and upwards

Hi Simon, I know that you haven't got great Internet access at the moment so that's probably why you haven't posted. Just want to say I hope you're doing well. Forget about the money, that was when you were sick, you're finally getting better now. Forget about the buzz from gambling all that did was made everyday life dull. Once you're weened off those costly shots of dopamine you'll start seeing the world in all it's true colour again.

Steve

yes doing well at the moment, lazarus/steve your spot on how the buzz of gambling made everyday life dull, im just gonna keep going and hope everybody else on here does to, I think ive finally realised gambling is not for me and is just stupid , thanks simon

Come on mate,thats the way, its so good to wake up and dont have those moments of exasperation ,not knowing what to do after an huge loss,thats it.it is finito!!!we are stronger ,we are bigger,we command our own destiny!!!

thanks ruivo. ive felt a bit gutted today not cus I have felt like betting again as I have not far from it , don't want to go and do a stupid foolish thing like that again , and really believe I wont now , but still felt gutted about the 43400 ish I have lost in total , what I could of done with that money , or just if I still had it just leavin it in the bank sittin there giving me a financial comfort blanket so I can have a day/week off work without worrying about the money I might loose, a new car I could of had , 40000 paid off my mortgage leaving a smaller mortgage payment making life easier, whatever I could of done its just gutting , but after writing on here and reading today its made me think well ive stopped now and yes ive lost that money but I will not be loosing anymore because ive stopped, and ive also thought over the last few days if only I stopped 20000 or so earlier it would not be so bad , but ive got to think ive stopped now and not stopped another 10000 later , so that's good but even better ive also stopped permenantly, then putting myself into a situation to have savings again one day to work hard and build back up a comfort blanket . its weird ive got back the value of money again , I wont waste money on anything anymore , but on the other hand I am happy to treat myself and others all the more because after wasting so much money on gambling if I can waste that amount gambling and justify that [ not anymore though ] then I can justify treating myself and others permenantly with only needing to spend a tiny amount of what I used to spend on that foolish thing called gambling, that foolish thing which I once was addicted to , anyways think I have turned a massive corner , and moving forward, keep strong everyone, simon

Hello Simon,

I've just read through your diary, read the first 5 pages complete and had then to jump to today, because it is really hard on the phone is all so small or you have to scroll nonstop and my eyes are not the best anymore anyway lol. But hey man you can be very proud of yourself you doing really good and I'm sure you make it. Not really the point but hey you estimated 2 years to get rid of your debts and even me thinking that this will be very hard, if you make it and carry then on saving the same way, then is just another 2 years and you are about 40000 up front how does this sound ?

But how ever mate you are great and your diary lifted me, today a bit on a downer but not through gambling, up again.

Keep it going mate you are a inspiration for many of us 🙂

Wolfgang

bank holiday period weird I had slight urges , and felt as though because its the bank holiday I should be gambling , also maybe as I have had more time on my hands , also maybe I feel like gambling because its coming up to the period where I got to last time without gambling before ruining it and having to start from day one again because I let myself at that point gamble again, who knows why , but hay I have not gambled and will not as I know its stupid, but im not sure if I would of stayed gamble free if I still had a debit card , so that gives me my answer to my question , my question was am I ready to get a new debit card again and can I stay gamble free if I have one , my answer after bank holiday no I am not ready to get a new debit card and no I might not stay gamble free if I have one . so I will not be asking for a new card as if its not there I cannot use it . onwards and upwards

3 days and ive done a month gamble free , very proud although to be honest feels a lot longer than that

Hi Simon,

first of all well done mate and you have all the reason being proud of yourself you are doing great.

Thank you for your post on my blogg yes Im feeling a lot better since Lou and me having the things between us talked out and getting on with what is important.

And I'm glad to have friends like you and others here to talk to

All the best

Wolfgang

best thing i ever did , dedtroying my debit card

Hi Tryer,

Thanks for the posting on my diary mate.

Also new to the forum but getting there. Day 7 today and really proud to be gambling free.

I know its early days and expect the demons to try and break back in. My guard is up and staying up, my next aim is to get over the weekend then over the next week.

The feeling is good only look forward. Keep it strong mate and good luck..