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Thanks for commenting on me diary

Nice to see you still going strongly mate

my first full month gamble free since being on this site, and well proud of myself , nearly got to a month once before when being on here but blew it a few days before the month was up , but that just made me get serious with this addiction , which is the only way to beat it , onwards and upwards, another day tomorrow

Tryer

Fella long may your gamble free journey continue my friend.

Today I salute you.

Duncs stepping forward never back

thanks dunc appreciate that comment , im also stepping forward , its weird now i got that first gamble free month out of the way, time seems to be flying , where as before i had done a month gamble free the days seemed to be going slowly and before the month was up i had felt like i had been gamble free for 3 months . Anyway bye bye online casino's i dont want to know you anymore you were not a friend but a free loader . everyone on here lets keep our money and our lives

Tryer, thanks for posting on my diary, we have to give up this evil if not for us then for our loved ones but if we keep gambling then my friend the inevitable will happen. Keep strong, we can't and never will beat a machine/computer.

When I gave up for over a year I found the key was to post on here and share experiences, good luck and hope to speak to you regularly on here and well done on staying gamble free.

Hi tryer,

Well done on passing that first month gamble free milestone, it is a great one to get under your belt, and now you are an experienced hiker on the gamble free path I hope you see plenty more milestones in your future.

You are absolutely right about gambling, it is nothing but a freeloader and a money drain.

All the best

Ryan

Tryer

two things stand out my friend

You have grabbed the nettle so to speak in regards to the fact that your lightbulb moment upon my thread regarding the cycle of recovery,for that thanks thanks for sharing,you are more than welcome to 'ramble' upon my thread,you words I hope gift many others mindset too.

Secondly and most importantly, a fellow member of the forum once wrote upon my thread that 'to recover we have to give our recovery away'

This comes in the form of sharing our recovery with others,your own commitment to other threads upon the forum is for me further proof that this is true.

Keep making the right choice fella and enjoy the proceeds,for it be proud.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

thanks dunc for all your help yet again you make me feel like not gambling , today I will not gammble

Simon

Fella you should gift yourself a pat on the back my friend,it is you who is gifting yourself the choice to arrest the punt.

Thanks for the kind words upon my thread,self exclusion for me is my favourate tool in my armoury to continue the fight to do the same.

It truly empowers me.

Keep making the right choice

Duncs stepping forward never back

no bet today as no need to , and there will never be a need to again

Hi Tryer,

And it seems you're not just a "tryer" but a 'succeeder" now. Long may the success you're experiencing continue! Thank you for the post on my diary and no need to apologize for it's length. I know what you mean by accidentally deleting a post.... happens to me frequently and it's very frustrating. As for the suggestions you've given me in your post, I have tried most of them. We do have self-exclusion here but it's a joke and completely ineffective. It is government run and you don't go to each casino to self-exclude but fill out a form with photos which goes to all of the casinos. There is a line at the bottom which you have to sign which states something to the effect that the casinos have zero liability if they fail to catch you. I have self excluded but have even been in the casino and had supervisors buy me drinks while self excluded! As for giving my debit card to someone, I have asked pretty much everyone and they all say no! I also know what you mean by trying to do everything at once. A number of rooms in my house are still a complete mess and I have returned to all of my vices. I just get overwhelmed (not to mention very depressed). In fact, I've just returned from the casino where I promptly lost all of my money AGAIN! I almost feel like there's no hope for me (almost). Thankfully, I bought a 10 pound bag of rice the last time I shopped 'cause I have a feeling that's what's going to be on the menu almost exclusively this month. I can't believe you read my entire diary. I do hope you learn from it... that you see how deep into this S***e you can go. I believe I once said that my only purpose in life just might be to serve as a warning to others! Anyway, too exhausted to say much more but thanks again for your post and the encouragement and I truly hope you beat this.

strange feeling again today , I have that bank holiday extra free spare time/ time to gamble feeling , and have the soft urge to gamble to go with it , although I have no debit card to do so , and again today if honest if I had my debit card I think I would gamble today, so glad for my sanity and for my bank account lol that I destroyed my debit card . feel better now I have written this down , as now while writing this I have remembered how when gambling everything suddenly goes down hill , which is strange as because before I started writing this it was like I had this little reminder in my head why to gamble , but not until I started writing this did I remember why not to gamble , and if I had of had my debit card by my side I think it would of been gamble first this site second then being too late to get the reminder while writing here why not to gamble . Anyway not gambled today not going to , and infact using my dads debit card and cash I have given him to pay him back I am going to pay some of my debt off my credit card , that is a much more constructive way to spend my bank holiday , onwards and upwards .

Hi Mate, totally with you on the bank holiday too much spare time thing. I've had all sorts of crazy thoughts today. keep it up though, sounds like you know exactly what works for you in fighting the addiction. All the best.

thanks granite , nice to know im not the only one feeling that way sometimes , onwards and upwards , first 2 ever bank holidays ive done without gambling since i started , feels good to get through then unscaved , mad really as my parents were talking about the news there were a couple of people on there apparently who lost everything and thety were saying how there are too many adverts on tv and how many people are getting addicted , it seems to be a hidden epademic , that is starting to be seen more oftern, which in the long run could be a good thing as maybe just maybe these gambler pushers could and hopefully will be will have harsher rules pushed upon them , so yes if people want to gamble [ although is still a bad addiction if not carefull ] they can, but harsher rules ect.. would help addicts and pre addicts to control there habbit more easily , ironically i was talking to my parents of how bad it can get , my dad said one 27 year old lost his job house wife kids and everything , i say irronically because my parents do not know how bad i got , they only think i lost a few hundred quid , and think i stopped before i did , i dont want to tell them the truth because i wouldnt want to let them down and could not cope with there dissapointed looks on there faces if they knew , well ive stopped now , so all good , and will do my upmost to keep it that way ,

after a ramble on duncs diary I now must document on my diary one of the reasons why I should never ever start gambling again , so in the future I can read back through my diary and remind myself why not to gamble , the reason is the fear I felt just before I stopped a fear a fear that I have never ever felt before a fear of not being able to ever stop gambling , and when reading/writing this I can remember it , it was horrible and I do not want to go back there not ever again , the loss of the money , the loss of possibly everything totally secondry in comparison to having that fear , simon a reminder to yourself to never ever go back to gambling . no bet today or ever