No looking back

You are such a strong person, but you can be the strongest person in the world, if  the pressure gets too much you are going to struggle.

Firstly you need to relieve the pressure, which is easier said than done, but with creative thinking and saying `no` now and again you can start to do it, deal with and prioritize one problem at a time,and realize that not all problems can be solved.  

Seek appropriate help where needed, admitting that you may be  struggling is not a weakness, it is a sign that you are noticing which bits of your life you need help with and are trying to address.

Very importantly spend time and effort on yourself, a ruined you is no good to anybody least of all yourself, take time out every day for you, to relax and do the things you like to do even if that means sitting in a chair without a care in the world for an hour, it is not selfish in any way (because everyone benefits from a mentally healthy you) and really should become the norm.

Give yourself genuine praise for what you have achieved on the no gambling front.

Be proud of what an inspiration you are to others, because you really are.

You will get back to where you want to be, and i am looking so forward to reading it when it happens!!

Thankyou Susan and lids for your kind posts.

3.30am, been lying in bed since 9.30pm trying to get to sleep but havnt been able to drop off. Wish it was still Easter holidays so my kids were still home. Dont want them to go back to school. Mind well and truly in overdrive, just can't switch off. I'm so tired, got to the point now were I'm just crying, everything feels too much.

53 days gf and I'm proud but right now, id do anything to get that 'escape' gambling used to give me.

Thanks for the post dave. 

So 54 days gf today.!

I QUIT.....

IM DONE TRYING..

IM DONE FIGHTING

IM WARN OUT AND EXHAUSTED

@stace hey u ok x

@stace  I hope your ok Stace,  don't let it defeat you, don't let it consume you.

You can do this

X

Hi Stace,

From 13 years psychosis skitsophrenia experience i thought id write to give you a bit of advice as when it started for me i became very isolated, didnt talk to friends and family, lost my job, tried to commit suicide and even ended up travelling on eurostar to france one day trying to solve the problem of my voices and what i thought was happening...... in reality absolutely nothing was happening everything was fine outside of my body and mind i was just unwell and the voices didnt actually do anything they werent real and when i focused on everyday real life real physical things my life got back to normal.

Risperidone is very good i was on it a number of years, a couple of times i refused to take it believing in what my voices were saying, this didnt help at all, allways take all prescribed medications docters are there to help and they do.

I also thru the early stages when i lived independently ended up in different places at all hours of the day sometimes without even having shoes on..... with this in mind stace whilst in the early stages try and stay at home.... its safe there and no harm will ever come to you in your own home (voices may say differently but they arent real!!!!!!)

So take the meds prescribed and stay safe.....

All my love thru this time Adam xxx

Thanks for your posts littlemix, dave and secret ?

Adam..thankyou so very much for your post. Youve made me feel like I'm not alone with this..I'm in a very scary place right now. Hospital has been mentioned a fair few times but I want to stay home with my kids who are also having support whilst I'm ill. As for going out, your so right, couple weeks ago I did leave my house, didn't return til early hours. Being home is definitely safer. 

Again thankyou ?

@stace hey how u feeling now xx 

Just thought id check in stace xx

Keep taking the meds, stay in with ur family, and things will get better mentally.

Beleive me the thoughts will go back to normal everyday thinking once the meds take control.....

I am now used to the voices and just get bored with them once they come and go the next morning when i wake up.

Try to think of everything that you can see as being the reality and the thoughts that are intrusive as non reality.

Your family and friends are real they love you and will get you thru it.

All the best see you tomo.

Try to relax....

I find if i dont sleep i listen to music and make a hot drink.... just dont go anywhere stay at home till youre well.

Adam xxx

Thanks for the posts. I'm not really up to talking at the moment, but just want you all to know, I really appreciate the support I receive, it really does mean alot to me, so thankyou ❤ 

RESETTING MY GF CLOCK.!!

Relasped badly. Spent a fortune. Made mistakes. I've finally admitted I'm very unwell mentally,  taken a while to get my head around it, didn't believe my diagnosis. But now I do. And I'm terrified. I feel so lost. I'm hurting so bad. I came clean to my partner. Hes upset. The mess I caused , all because I needed to escape whats going on. I can't keep doing this no more. Its not a life and I'm hurting everyone I love. 

Tomorrow will be....... day 1

Time to try again. 

Either that or give up completely. But I love my kids , and wantt to be here for them. Wish this pain would stop. 

Good Evening Stace, 

I am sorry to hear that you have relapsed. We appreciate how this can feel like a set back but it is important to try and draw out the positives from what has happened also. 

Well done for opening up and talking to your partner, whilst they are upset now it is important that you keep that communication going so that at times when you are finding things particularly difficult, you will find it a bit easier to talk to them, it will help to build trust. Also acknowledging how you are feeling is a big step forward, use this to gain some momentum in accessing any further support that you feel you may need. 

Wishing you all the best, 

Ricki

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