One day at a time.

Hi Scott,

Thanks for the post. Was it Monty Python, SPAM SPAM SPAM EGG AND SPAM? No worries.

I meant work would stop me thinking about it just for today anyway. Sorry to hear you are feeling up and down too. It's when on those downs as I am sure you were the same when I became so self destructive. Just doing best to find out what lies behind it.

Anyway back to being positive I wish you a belated HAPPY BIRTHDAY for yesterday. Hope you enjoyed your day.

Once again thank you for your interest and support. Best wishes,

IanB.

Hey guys.

Am quite annoyed at myself tonight. Haven't gambled, but I got quite aggressive at the pub tonight. I didn't start the fight, but made no effort to diffuse the situation. It just reminded myself that I'm still weak and easily led into situations that I should avoid. Nothing happened, but it COULD have. I suppose it's much like gambling, it's always around the corner if I let it happen.

As bad as tonight was, I'm still gamble free and still enjoying life. But be vigilant, it's never completely away. We're in recovery, just enjoy each day as if it's our last.

Thanks to those reading my posts, you continue to be my inspiration. Without you, I'd be in a much more desperate place. United we stand, divided we fall.

O.D.A.A.T

Scott. x

Roses are Red

Violets are Blue

Rachie and Dot

sending cyberhugs to you...

Happy Valentines Day xxx

Hi Scott,

Just dropping by to check that all is well - both with your recovery and life in general.

I still remember the thoughtful advice* you offered in the early days of my recovery, even though it feels like an age has passed by since. That's why the content of your last post coupled with your absence from the board leaves me concerned.

Your single minded determination to conquer your demons shines through in so many of your previous diary entries. I hope this remains.

James

* "This war is won, not by those who can inflict the most pain, but by those who can endure the most pain." Or words similar to that affect!

Hello chaps.

Been a long time. First things first, the good (great) news is that I have just past 9 months gamble free. It still feels fantastic, though I tend to think less and less of it as an achievement and I'm now just enjoying life.

Forgive me, I've just had my hands full of late, not really had time to think about anything else but the job and moving to a new place in London.

Thought about posting here a couple of times over the last couple of months, but didn't quite know what to say, so I thought it best I didn't. I only want to contribute to my own diary if I'm actually saying something. That said, I should have still made the effort for others, because that's what this place is about. Mind you, still not sure what to say, but. I still believe in the main point of recovery, that being that I'm only one bet from oblivion. That is what keeps me grounded, I still hate gambling for all the damage and pain it caused to both myself but more important my loved ones. If gambling was a person, I'd have killed it with a sawn off shotgun for what it did to my family.

I'm still rambling, but yeah....I'm doing good. I will be back to see how you all are.

Hiya Scott

....glad to see you back and checking in.....don't worry about what you do or don't say on others diaries....just nice to see your name on here and that you are enjoying life.......

Take care ....Rach and Dot x'

Hey Scott,

Glad to read that you are still going strong & rambling, rather than gambling :-]

Don't worry about the situation in the pub, you are still bound to have pent up frustrations, it's still early days!! I'm clean for around 320 days now and I know only too well how easy it would be to slip back onto that crazy path. Don't need it!

Keep it up mate.

All the best , Jim

Great to hear that you are now 9 months gamble free. Just think how you felt 9 months ago and how you feel right now.

Onwards and upwards!

Enjoy your weekend.

NT

Not really into milestones, but I have now completed 45 weeks. 315 x one day at a time.

Still going strong, still inspired by the people here that have/are overcoming this bloody thing.

Let's keep it going guys.

Well done scott

Michael

Well done Scott,

A real achievement. Shortly to be a year.

Thanks for the post mate, I know you always read. With me it was got, got, got , got , haven't got! I am off down the local park to swap with some 9 yr olds soon so must dash before the kick off.

Up the Hammers!

Best wishes,

IanB.

Hello friends!

So today marks one full year (to the minute almost!) since I came on here in the deepest and darkest of despairs. I was in agony. I couldn't imagine I'd be here today to write this. I can still recall walking up the road to tell my girlfriend about what I had done. Makes me physically ill to do so, but it's important I never forget it. Luckily, shaving off all my hair was the most drastic thing I did, even though I considered much much worse.

I've changed so many things about my life, which has resulted in only the positive - my relationship with my girlfriend in particular is stronger than ever....and I have realised that I am not powerless anymore. I CAN resist, I WILL continue to do so. It is in my hands, as it is with all of us. If I want to remain this way (happy and living my life again), I GET to decide.

I might not get the chance to be online much anymore, but I do come on here from time to time to see how you're all doing. Thanks again to all those have helped me and helped so many others - so many inspirations. This is a great community, one that changes lives for the better. This forum opened my eyes, more than any GA meeting I ever went to (Though GA played their part to, some great guys in both Manchester and London)

We continue. This battle is never over, but it does gets much much easier. As long as we focus on what is good in our life, we can not fail. I will try to get online more in the coming months, if at all possible.

ONE DAY AT A TIME.

ALWAYS ONE DAY AT A TIME.

Onwards.

Thanks and much love,

Scott

Scott congratulations a year bet free is an amazing achievement a day at a time and long may it continue.

Its great 2 hear success stories

Hi Scott,

Hope you are doing ok.

You haven't checked in on the joint thread that Nearlythere set up in a while, so was wondering if everything is ok?

Would be great to see a check in from you, so we know you are still with us : )

Take care,

and congrats on the 1 year!

f x

Thanks for commenting, Freda. Not really had the chance to be online much at all this year, which is a good thing - being bored and having internet access is what lead to my problem being as bad as it was. I'm now more active and enjoying life again, it's incredibly simple once you truly turn the corner. I'm still wary of ever going back though, I know what it can do to me. This place helped me so much, I feel guilty for not getting on here any more.

Onwards! One day at a time.