One day at a time

Thank u. It actually feels so much better to finally admit it and read other people’s stories ! I have gamban on my phone and other devices. I haven’t herd of Gamstop but I will defo add to that straight away.

So far I have been feeling ok strange as it seems I’ve been occupying my time with cleaning ( mrs hinch has a lot to answer for lol ) just trying to stay busy and keep my mind occupied. Today is the big first challenge as at work I would spend hours online on slots to pass the time however I am staying positive I can do this one day at a time

Note to self feeling very chuffed. Successfully stayed gamble free whilst bored at work. I know I’m very early days but I am feeling very proud of myself 🙂 tomorrow is just one more day to get through

Today I feel more positive than ever. Not been thinking about gambling much at all. Still staying busy through work and cleaning. Made it to 5 full days gamble free. Not much in the grand scheme of things but I have genuinely never lasted more than 3 days without skulking back online. Just today to get through.

Not one single thought was given to gambling today. I am very grateful for days like today the good ones. I am aware the bad will follow eventually but when it does I hope to read this diary and remember how fabulous it feels to be 6 full days gamble free it’s comforting to read the stories of people with much higher gamble free days and continue my journey to be just like them one day. For now tho this gal is feeling fabulous and positive I got this I can do this

Well done bambi. Hope you have a pleasant gambling free Sunday. One day at a time. Scott

Well done bambi. Hope you have a pleasant gambling free Sunday. One day at a time. Scott

Thank u Scott and a massive congratulations on the 319 days that’s a fantastic achievement !! Today has been another successful GF day. The difference I feel even in only one week is amazing. I sleep so much better and I am no longer a slave to my phone spending hours stuck to it chasing the wins that are never enough. I’m loving no longer checking my online banking with dread. It really was an awful feeling when it was there in black and white how much destruction one day of gambling could do. Worse was the withdrawals that didn’t come off straight away and would hit later when I had already lost far too much. However enough dwelling on the past what’s done is done that money is gone ! From now on the only time I will look back is to c how far I’ve come 🙂

Still feeling positive 🙂 started a new job and tomorrow is double digit day. I have so much to be grateful for and so far I haven’t missed the slots at all. I know the lows will come so I’m trying to fill my diary with as much positivity as I can to read when I’m struggling 🙂

Just back from holiday and still hanging on in there been a few tough days not gonna lie but so far still managed to resist my demons. Can’t sleep due to jet lag and can hear the old demons calling me to pass the time. Trying to stay positive and occupied. One day at a time I can do this

I’m back after a horrific relapse. 600 lost in the space of a few days. Trying to accept it’s gone and start again. I feel so stupid and embarrassed. Why did I let this be happen. I know it’s never going to be only 20 I put in and before I know it I’m chasing what I’ve lost. I need to get myself together before I lose everything . Back to feeling miserable and ashamed after doing so well . Day 1 here goes x

Woke up this morning and still feel utterly devastated. I know I need to accept what’s happened and start again but I feel so ashamed and can’t believe I allowed this to happen so close to Xmas. Trying to stay busy today. I know there’s no point in looking back so I just need to get on with it all x

Hi Bambi,
Sorry to hear about your relpase...maybe time to try attacking this a different way?

You really need to get some blockers in place. Did you look at registering for gamstop? Can you get someone to look after your finances, meaning its more difficult to get hold of cash when you get the urge? Maybe look at some form of counselling....try to get to the bottom of why you have the need to gamble?

You will get some great advice on here but in the end it is you that needs to make the effort to get the things in place to help you along the way.

Damo

Hi damo thank u for taking the time to write to me. I had a read through ur threads and look forward to one day being as successful as u in recovery . I previously had gamban on my phone however I quickly worked out how to bypass this ( not ideal I know ) today I registered with Gamstop I had never herd of this until u mentioned it so I’m hoping this will be a big help 🙂 I don’t really have anyone to look after finances for me as such so I will just have to put my big girl pants on and get on with it l have my first GA meeting tomorrow to say I am terrified is an understatement but I will try anything that will help thank u again for ur words x

Hi Bambi,

Gamstop us a great start so well done. GA is going to feel like a much bigger step to take, but is something that i think will really benefit you. I have heard OldhamKTF say this many time....Walking through the doors of GA for the frst time will be the best gamble you have ever made.

You should have a look for his diary, Better to Ramble than Gamble, and read through his story. It proves that if you make the effort in recovery it can be done. Let us know how you get on tonight.
Damo