P_K's Diary

Welcome aboard PK,

7 days in already is a very good start, well done.

Best wishes to you on this recovery journey.

Suzanne xx

Many thanks Suzanne.

Second entry - this is now my 12th day without having had a bet. On one hand it doesn't feel that it's been too hard but on the other hand what seems like an eternity since I placed a bet is literally less than two weeks....I accept there must be a fair amount of novelty attached to my new routine. Early starts and plenty of keep fit and that sooner or later (hopefully much later) that's going to wane.

The biggest single help (aside from sharing my secret with my sister) has been refusing to acknowledge that professional football exists!!...which on these islands is not a simple task. In the same way as many people, over the years, have said to me they quit smoking but always have the urge when having a pint, I now associate watching a live football match with a wager and that's a shame....but if the price of not destroying myself and my family is never watching another match then I'll pay it...and never seeing the giant Ray Winstone head telling me to "have a bit of that" is a bonus.

Hi,

Thanks for the diary post.

Well done you. Nearly at the 2 week Mark so continue to do what you are doing.

One day at a time and keep those barriers high.

Best wishes

Hi P_K

Keep going and never give up, you would be surprised how quick the gamble free days mount up.

Paul

Sweet 16th [day without having had a bet]. Wishing you all love and strength.

Day 20 [without having had a bet]. . Barely slept last night. The end of the weekend brought a wave of shame, guilt, disgust and self-pity....at the money I've wasted and how it could have....no, should have been used for the benefit of my family.

I recognise this feeling of depression but one thing I've never been more sure of is that having a bet to mask the pain [as I've done so many times before] is no better than necking a bottle of cheap wine or snorting a line of powder in that the problems will still be there and even harder to overcome. I will run tonight and will push myself harder....I will not waver.

Day 26 [without having had a bet]. I did run and I did push myself harder and I did NOT waver. Stay strong people.

Well done P_K,

Keep going and keep winning.

Suzanne xx

Day 30 [without having had a bet]. Another (very small) roadsign. Stay strong people.

Great work. Today is day 3 for me. I need to think that stupid slots don't even exist!

Day 33 [without having had a bet]. Tough weekend sleep wise...had a meeting with my bank on Friday asking for help to re-structure my debts.....they couldn't help.

This hasn't lessened my resolve in the slightest it's just troubled my mind and affected my sleep.

It's not their fault it's MINE but this site has shown very clearly that there's a choice of paths to follow and I'm staying on the good one. Stay strong people.

Hi,

Thanks for the diary post and well done on your abstaining.

I haven't read through your diary so if mentioned before I apologise.

I am with Stepchange with my debt management plan. Apart from a few minor hiccups it's going ok. And they don't charge a monthly fee. Might help?

Best wishes

Day 36 [without having had a bet]. Since my last post I have 'celebrated' a birthday and watched the Foo Fighters in concert.

Stay strong people.

Wow. Those days are now mounting up. Well done and keep up the good work.

Best wishes