PROBLEM GAMBLER

blew it again gambled its really not right. I know I shouldn t and can t afford too but when I get upset off I go again just for 10 mins to help it doesn t. but put blocks on but worked out ways round that. only gamble online so I think maybe try a week with no computer and see if that helps. good luck and here I go day 1 be back on 26 of november a step at a time .

Sorry to read you slipped, Digglesnan. A break from the computer will do no harm and should be of benefit to you also. Slips can teach us new ways of overcoming this, I believe. Yet you have to 'keep on, keeping on' with the recovery. Ever closer, you'll get to point sometime soon where you'll just no longer want or need to lose yourself to gambling. Don't give up the fight. Stay strong.

Thanks for your support too.

Wish you the best.

Alex

Thanks. need to vent I am so frustrated decided I needed to look after me and voice my thoughts you would think that would be easy wrong for years as I have previously said I never voiced any of my thoughts or oppinions hate to upset anyone over many years I have been given lots of ammunition to cause arguments got 5 siblings and let me assure you there all nasty about each other there partners the same one example is even though my brother s partner was pregnant went full term and lost baby girl still birth all my sister did was say how house was filthy and they had to scrub it from top to bottom lots of things have happened over years.recently I decided that I need to concentrate on sorting me, actually helping myself not to need crutches like gambling and enjoy life I don t even mind the rain without it no flowers and I love flowers they add so much colour .I know how lucky I am roof over my head and food on table great kids wonderful grandchildren. but no confidence and always down on myself reading these diaries help. just for me I will not gamble and I will look for new things to achieve after knitted jumpers for grandchildren I am going to knit some toys for hospices as I found a site that says children love toys made for them and see how that goes giving myself something else to do maybe try to lose weight a bit at a time.good luck on achieving our goals.Every step forward no matter how small is a good step

I think you have a lot in common with most on here, Digglesnan. Problem gamblers tend to have a more than just gambling problem, and the gambling is just an escape that escalates over time.

Lacking confidence is definitely a big one for me and others. Big mistakes we make that haunt us. Being stuck in an endless rut. Maybe the focus should sometimes be on improving us as individuals and changing our present circumstance. Getting gambling out of the way is huge first step, but there's always things we can do to better ourselves as well. You seem to be doing just that, so no worries. 🙂

You will do well. Believe in yourself.

Hi there,

Alex has got a lot of wise words there. I believe this addiction is associated with escaping more than we think..running from one thing or another. Recovery is bespoke and sometimes you need to strip yourself layer by layer to find the underlying reason for all of this.

You are doing great, you keep yourself busy and focusing on things which helps you on a way.

Keep it up and take it day at a time...flowers are indeed nicer with some fresh water over them 🙂

Take care

Sandra x

Thank you so much for your kind words they always make me smile. to know that others care enough to reply and encourage us all on this site to achieve our goals.

I have slipped from my goal more than once as I have said but do I feel I failed maybe I would of if hadn t started reading diaries and writing mine. but as long as I try and keep moving forward in trying to stop then I am achieving my goal because for me that means no trigger for today so its a good day and no gambling

Hey digglesnan,

Thanx for your message and i'm glad to see you finding this site and diaries helpful. There are so much advice and spirit round here we could win any battle!!!

You doing great

Take it day at a time and be kind to yourself

Sandra x

Thanks. nearly finished grand daughters s jumper start one for grandson soon.no gambling today

Thanks I really do appreciate all the kind words and encouragement another day no gambling

Today is new day got some sort of cold and babbling a bit just been reading diaries some great banter as well as advice here s another day towards our goals I m back to my knitting

Morning digglesnan,

Thank you for lovely words, i do appreciate them a lot. I am being myself and i know sometimes it feels like reading two different diaries with my mood lol...Gemini- what can you do 🙂

I hope you feel better soon, and i love love your hobby!! Knitting is very good to keep yourself occupied and calms the racing mind...i can't knit, sort of skipped these lessons at school...but my mummy does...since i work in cold enviroment she makes some warm socks for me. Oh they are heaven!!!

You doing great and i wish you well

Keep calm and carry on 🙂

Sandra x

Thanks . I didn t learn to knit at school but a man actually taught me to knit .just got back from shopping daughter took me we spent 90 pound between us and got a tin of chocolates and a present for her friends baby out of that .

Thanks love reading diaries .been knitting lots going to try design a pattern for a jumper for son after finish jumpers and knitted a hat for son s friend if my daughter ever prints it .still not sure on what toy to knit I ll decide over weekend.another day no gambling

I have been so self pitying, because of all the pain I ve had through my life and all the hurt I ve felt that I have found myself just looking for anything to do so I felt no pain even for a little while hence gambling but I am hopefully not to late realise that life is a journey and I seem to have not chosen the happy journey but one that instead of moving on I wallow in.because its easier than saying here I am I stay quiet and have let life pass me by so from now wether all I do is enjoy lifes little pleasures and of course knit I m going to be me and say I hey I count and so do we all so here s to the happy journey and no gambling for today