No recent gambling but on my mind. Making sure ive no time, no cash or nowhere to gamble though. Sadly I do not think i will ever fully stop although I was never a high stakes gambler. Confused about this really.
Gambled around £100 at the seaside with the mrs about 6 weeks ago so not totally clean.
I still get the urge. Was on holiday over the past 5 days & part of me was looking forward to arcades but i ended up passing on it & watching boxing.
Went into a pub all of an evening too with family & didn't sneak off to the machine.
Also the mrs saw me looking at the machine & said i could have a go if i wanted but i said no & realised i was only looking due to all the flashing lights etc.
I can go months without gambling but i have to be wary. For me the time, location, money triangle is the best way to avoid gambling.
I come here daily though rarely ever post & can't believe how old my diary is!
triangle wrote:
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Hopefully moving into a much bigger property soon, lived in a council flat for 10 years but we're going private as we've a kid now and the dog needs a garden. It has a 3rd room so we can have a bigger family.
Landlord accepted our application though i confessed to ccjs and a generally bad credit rating. I paid about 5k off of old priority debts last year. Hopefully things like that matter.
It'll be strange closing the chapter on my little flat. When i moved in i was pretty much wild. I had no confedence at all and barely ever spoke to anyone...and i never dreamed i'd have a girlfrieng and a daughter living ith me. Gradually i built up.
Gone from getting ready to go out pretty much every night in my flat to looking after my daughter every night & plotting the best path for my business.
Not really gambling related...but i don't gamble anymore so it's sort of a diary.
I can't believe i've kept this diary up for so many years....i never write anything down lol.
Sharing can be cathartic.
Even if its just sharing with yourself!
Good to hear from you again. Keep trying fatuesque. Tri
I'm gambling again sadly. Over the past few weeks i've been gambling bits & bobs totalling about ВЈ40...i've been skipping work to do it however so its more than that if you count the time involved. Today for example i have travelled for 2 hours with the intention of working then got captured by the machines until id lost £25 Which i was given as a birthday gift. I'm so mad at myself & ive done absolutely nothing but gamble today. Its not a lot of money but its just the sheer waste of it all. I hate jobs where i have to work in seaside towns. I never gamble when im home but i get easily drawn in when i have to work away. The truly sad thing is i have not found anything which compares to button pushing & i feel i am hardwired toward gambling. There are long periods where i do not gamble however the urge is always there and i feel ill probably visit this forum for the rest of my days...so will never really be free of it. Ive travelled 4 hours today just to throw money away.
Plus im going to have to act like im ok tonight despite not being. The mrs will probably know. I hate having to lie. "just one more £1, itll pay out in a while" i tell myself...then you get the jackpot and put it back in. Oh and 1 thing which really made me mad today was a "go all the way" where i had 2p in the box & another where i was assured the jackpot & the machine literally reset itself. I tolda staff member who said she'd go fetch someone & never saw her again. Generally i'm mad about today.
Ok so we went to the seaside at the weekend on a famheretrip & went in the arcades. We came out even though.
Now I'm determined to go cold turkey 🙂
Coming on here makes me glad that I'm too tight to try FOBTs or roulette.
No gambling recently. Moving family from a council flat into a 3 bed house in a few weeks. Moving forwards. Not cured or fixed...the urge is always around really but you just have to remember what a waste of time & energy it is.
Still check in on here daily, always amazes me the people that bet on a daily basis or the deciet people show towards their own families by not telling them the truth.
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Not gambling. Visit here daily.
Moved my family into a much bigger home recently & living the high life really.
Even have a few holidays booked.
My main concern right now is nothing to do with gambling & that is that my 3 year old has started stuttering in the past week.
Anyway gamble free so that's something.
Working in a seaside town today which is always when I gamble.
I have no cash on me, work to do & my Mrs can see any cash withdrawals so hopefully I will stay sensible.
The Mrs said I can go gambling if it rains as long as I don't go mad but there's so many better things to spend money on (like paying debts off even though I dispute them)
Anyway that's another story. Hopefully writing this will push away the urges which I still get.
No gambling. The mind makes all kinds of reasons up why gambling won't hurt.
Some excuses that ran though my mind today while working.
"A few quid won't hurt"
"You've worked really hard today"
"You might win something back"
"You've got loads banked so it doesn't matter"
"The Mrs said you could"
Over 6 years on here. Not sure if that's good or bad lol.
No recent gambling. Every penny has a mission nowadays.
Was invited on a gambling trip recently for my birthday but turned it down & took the family to the local county show. My daughter loved it.
Strange to think that when I started on this forum I didn't even have a child.
Just thought I'd update, this is more of a general diary now than a gambling diary I guess.
Gambled today & having a stressful time lately.
Last week my father had an accident at work & ended up with an angle grinder blade in his face, then this week my father in law died unexpectedly.
I was working in a seaside resort which is my weak spot & ended up just gambling all day (though I only lost ВЈ8, I could of earnt like £80 but didn't)
My Mrs knows & is okay about it, saying I could let my hair down cos I'd been very supportive of her this week.
However I'm annoyed with myself, especially considering at one point I was about £40 up. You start to think you're invincible & then gradually some machine reminds you that you're not.
I don't know what to think but I'm going to use the feeling you get from doing something like this in order to get these jobs finished so I don't need to go near the seaside again.
I'm not sure if I'm too hard on myself or not. I spend like £200 a year gambling & some people spend that on alcohol or smoking & never even consider it an issue.
I suppose getting a jackpot & then putting more in because you enjoy the game says something.
Had to work in a seaside resort again this week. Got the Mrs to transfer the money in my bank account away with just a few quid for lunch.
No incidents to report due to this.
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