Read my last page.... how could I?!!

Hi Helen,

Firstly you are doing so well and please keep this in mind when payday arrives. Do not get in my situation, you are strong and YOU DON'T need to set your cash on fire, metorphorically speaking.

You can get through it and you have your blocks in place. You are right that only gamblers understand each other even though when self excluding they report it as our lack of responsibility to gamble without over doing it. Makes me laugh just how many TV programmes are sponsored by gambling sites or pay loan providers.

As a deterant to place a bet, just think of me and you DO NOT want to get into this situation.

Considering I have never met you and no very little about you I consider you a friend, and will walk this road with you all the way.

Stay strong and stay away from the gambling

Take care and best wishes

Cheryl xxx

Helen also ty for caring xx

Hi Helen

I get paid in Friday too but have already worked out what I have to pay out in debts and priority bills I know what I will have left I will draw it all out except for 8 all my debts and bills come out on my payday

You are already thinking negative about pay day think positive about what you are paying off debt wise because everything time you pay some gambling debt off no matter how small or large you are winning

To add to your losses would be utter madness stay strong it's hard I know but it has to be done to abstain and maintain

Bless you With Cheryl I worry too and I hope she comes to some arrangement with her debts soon so she can move move forward,keeping gambling will only make them worse

I could reel off quite a few names that have come and gone some when I started and some after they have disappeared and they gave me so much support

This is how this forum works I guess CGs coming and going

Cheryl will continue to get my ongoing support as I know she will with you, it's unconditional on here

But we know only we can actually change ourselves support is great but only we can do this hard journey if we ourselves make that choice and change

Will be checking in on you to make sure you keep on the right track on payday lol

You are doing everything right to a saner and happier life do not underestimate yourself and do not ever underestimate the power of the addiction that is gambling

Staying close by to you and Cheryl

Suzanne xx

Morning Helen

Hope you are ok, ty for your continued support and keep focused.

Take care and best wishes

Cheryl xxx

Oh Cheryl & Suzanne .... your messages truely brought tears to my eyes....you're right in as much as tho we've never met...I consider you VERY MUCH my friends and confidantes - you have no idea how much that helps! Tomorrow....pay day? Honestly have been toted and getting the urges (you know, the "I'll just do a 20 scenario"..) oh yeah!!! Your supporting words I DO BELIEVE have done the trick.....I WILL NOT GAMBLE!! I just wish one or both of you were somewhere in Cumbria.....cuppa? Thank you ....catch you tomorrow with more positivity. Cheryl.....are you ok? Keep chin up....bless you both. Take care.

Helen xx

Hi Helen

Pleased you are so much more positive today

I have noticed since being on this forum some CGs sense a couple of days before that they might slip and as much as they have tried they have slipped

Bear this in mind because I do,take every precaution you can and stay positive

It's awful how this addiction try's to suck us back in it will try anything

Take care and stay safe

Suzanne xx

Good morning everyone! I've been worried about today....it's pay day and I know from past experience what usually happens!!! I will have enough to pay my months debts, food, petrol etc with nothing to spare but at least SHOULD survive the month financially....this will be a 'first'. I WILL NOT (nay, DARE NOT) GAMBLE!! Thank you SUZANNE... as supportive as ever and CHERYL my dear I hope things are a bit brighter for you....you'll get through this. I'm amazed I got this far so will have to be VERY cautious. We can ALL do this.... stay focused and united!!! I WILL NOT GAMBLE!!! Helen. X

Hi Helen

Stay strong and positive today I will because do we really want to go through another month with no money for anything

No we don't

Take care

Suzanne xx

Hi Helen,

Well done and stay focused

Take care and best wishes

Cheryl xxx

Well done Helen. You are doing amazing. Pay days are always tricky. Stay strong girl!!! We are kicking this nasty evil dark black illness!!!! Keep going. I'm with you all the way. In fact let's have a small treat tomorrow!! I'll raise a Costa Coffee to you around half eleven xx

Hello all and Diary! Thanks so much for your posts! Am doing good - can't say I wasn't tempted - the urges got kicked out when I rembered those awful feelings after gambling - the panic - the shaking, tears, worrying! Not to mention letting everyone down who is supporting me here - think Suzanne would hunt me down and kill me lol!!! Most of all, letting ME down! Couldn't bear starting another month with NOTHING. Mind you, I have so very little to get through the month as it is but at least when I got paid yesterday, I prioritised my months debts and paid up...still got a little left - that's for basic necessities. Would be brilliant if I'm still gamble free in a month - ecstatic if I make it in two!! Am feeling VERY DETERMINED....I WILL NOT GAMBLE! Thanks so much for your continued support. Helen. X

Way to go Helen, I was worried about you for a while but baby steps and your getting there! Good to see you so positive! Keep up the good work. Together we can beat this ! Heres to another gamble free day x

Hey Helen

Very very well done to you be proud of yourself

Yes I would have hunted you down lol

Determination is all around the forum this morning and that is soo positive for us

Remember to keep guard up and win again today

Enjoy your day gambling free of course

Suzanne xx

Hi Helen

Well done girl keep strong and stay focused.

Ty for your unconditional support

Take care and best wishes

Cheryl xxx

Good morning everyone and dear diary!!....I haven't felt this good in years! My husband is away for the weekend (err... not that that's why I feel good!) but I've been 'home alone'. I have VERY little money in the bank which will barely get through the month after I paid my months debts last Friday which was pay day. I last gambled on 17th August. I know it might sound ridiculous, unbelievable, but this is the first time in years I have had a few quid in the bank 2 days after pay day!! Having said that, it's STILL not my money, it's my overdraft! Anyway, as I said - home alone, ideal opportunity to get into the slots. I went shopping on Friday for food for weekend and Friday night went to then pub with sister and her husband and my next door neighbour. Lovely evening. Came in bout midnight..ideal time for slots. Went to bed with small hangover - NO GAMBLING! Yesterday sorted domestic chores and treated myself to steak dinner and bottle (ahem, yes, a whole one I'm afraid) of wine! Watched 2 brilliant films on TV and NO GAMBLING! I can honestly say it didn't occur to me. I kept thinking how good I felt. Can't believe how much better I've been sleeping and how much better I feel. Even with so little money, it's as though my shoulders feel lighter without that bloody gambling burden to carry around. I DO think of the 10000's I've lost and am going to put that down to experience....I dare not dwell for long on that otherwise am in big trouble. PLEASE GOD let me continue on my present course PLEASE PLEASE!! I wanted to emphasise....FORGET about your losses....go forward. WE CAN ALL DO THIS!! Oh and .....thanks SUZANNE, you're an absolute star!! Catch you tomorrow! I WILL NOT GAMBLE. Helen. Xx

Hi Helen,

Wow well done and looks like you are slowly getting back to the right track. Continue as you are and you nor any of us want anything but a future life free from gambling for you. Stay strong and keep focused.

Take care and best wishes

Cheryl xxx