reborn on the 4th July

Thanks Shelly

Been not too bad the last few days given the circumstances with work had jess most of the time so she's kept my mind occupied

Just got back from a great afternoon out at sherwood Forrest , jess took her bike and found a really good track to ride on , she went on loads of rides played frisbee had ice cream and had a really good time , I think ! in the end spent a few quid but for many hours of fun again a great day to remember compared to an afternoon in the bookies

Tomorrow is a big day as telling staff who's at risk of redundancy it will be a relief when it's all done I'm just hoping it goes as well as can be expected even though is going to be a massive shock for 2 of them

I'm really pleased of how I have coped with it all and not had two many urges and the few ones that came quickly went , on this front feel really strong settled back into a good pattern and routine

As plays thankful for this forum and the much needed focus and support it brings

Today went as well as expected there were some shocked faces a few tears but stayed professional and delivered what I had to do , feel completely drained now and the reality is now setting it of what I am about to lose and the massive gaping gaps I am going to have manage without

I feel do disillusioned about the whole process two of the staff who could and probably will leave have all the job skills and availability to work but yet many others are safe with only one job skill and the only reason why is that they are on a smaller contact and has a percentage they come out better but surely from a business point of view we need to keep multiskilled people , not at any point has sickness records been took into consideration I just don't understand and don't think I will

The one factor I am grateful of is I have kept my job my heart goes out to those not so fortunate

Hi castle

Thanks for your posts on my diary. The support is much appreciated.

Regards

Gazza

hi castle

just popping by to say well done for staying strong through what must be a pretty crappy time at work.

things in life are sent to test us all, its whether we cave to the pressure or not that makes us what we are today.

Sherwood forest is a fab place, my boys like to go to climb the trees and do typical boys stuff.

great place for a picnic. Have you been when they are doing the robin hood re-enactment stuff, its good fun to watch the jousting etc

keep going just as you are and you will be just fine, not long til your holi bobs either

shellyb

Hi Castle,

Sorry to hear about what you've been going through over the last few weeks....our company has been doing the same every April for the past three years, and while I've been shuffled left and right a few times, so far I'm still in a job.

The staff will appreciate you being strong during this period, they will get that it isn't you doing the cutting and that it is just the company's line. Funnily enough, with us it was always the managers that tended to be trimmed, as the frontline staff seem to have been kept to the bare minimum to get by for as long as I've been there.

Well done for not letting the stress drag you back into the old temptations, hope it gets better from here onwards.

All the best

Ryan

Thanks everyone

Feel absolutely mentally drained I should have been off this week but worked mon tues wed and all I have done is chase people trying to get answers on the challenges I have made with those at risk and have got no where with it everyone is just passing the buck

Am off for 3 days now but still been on the phone , sending emails finding it hard to switch off from it , also having really strong feelings about my own position and the job I am expected to do when all this process is finished I feel very uneasy about it all as if everything is going to come crashing down

Jess went away yesterday with school for two nights so its been very strange she wasn't allowed to take her phone so no contact at all , I know she will be having a fab time so that's ok , so off work no jess so been a few urges but had plans for most of today and just watched a couple of films , a few urges but there to try and block everything with work but they passed

Still feeling strong on that front been reading plenty and posting on other sections of the forum which always helps

Got plans for tomorrow and will see jess when she gets back and hear all about the fun she has had , then going out with some friends for a much needed night out

Hi

Thank you for the post on my thread

I took some time out with friends today for a lunch date

Sat in the pub diet coke in hand and enjoying good pub grub raking over the last few days is just what I needed

Could have done without the drive home tho. My pet hate is traffic jams. Our town was choc a block today due to the m1 being shut. My heart goes out to those injured in the accident

When ever this happens our quite little village turns into a truck stop. So a stressy me arrived home late!

Kids fed and out to play in the sun. I'm sure they're on a growth spurt as all they seem to do is eat at the minute. Skinny little monsters too

While in town I looked at beachwear for our hols for them. 11 your old son with 6 your olds waist. Impossible

Gotta bite the bullet and head to meadow- hell

But taking your advice and making it a girls day out - starting in the food court for breakfast lol

Hope the rest of your week off allows you to get some r&r

Shelly x

Hiya

Yes I know the area well. I shop at halfway occasionall. Just came thro there actually dropping lads off at a party.

Took a detour via mcd for a take away as I'm not cooking for just me as everyone else is out

As for my hours this weekend - I've my patients to look after so it's needs must. Although I do feel like I should be one of them by the weekends over lol

Hope you have a great night letting your hair down tonight

Have 1 for me lol

Sod it have 2

Shelly

Thanks Shelly had a little bit more than one or two lol

Had a really good night out which was a good switch off from work , spoke this morning one or two more issues but nothing they can't deal with

A few urges today but that's not unusual for a Saturday when I'm off which doesn't happen very often though , working through them the triggers are having some spare time on my hands unplanned and still wanting to switch off from work

It really just comes down to a simple choice act on the urges or don't , I know they will pass jess will be here later and everything will be back to normality and routine in place

Back at work tomorrow and to be honest it's the best place for me with everything going off I have been off 3 days and I might as well have been there with the amount of contact I have had with them

Six weeks to holiday and no time off till then so should have a clear run with balance still many bridges to cross but I will take it one day at a time and try not to stress about it

Easier said than done

Hiya

Passing thro quickly - just wanna say thanks for having a few beers for me lol

No hangover ....... JOY

Castle,

Thanks for your kind words on my diary. I am glad to see you are doing well with your recovery but not so happy to read about the stress you are enduring with work.

I have a situation at work where we are getting attention from our biggest competition who are a bigger company than us. There owner had a planned visit with our owner the other day and a possible company purchase is on the cards. I work closely with our owner who gives me false guarantees that I will be taken care of but I am smart enough to know he is not in control of that decision if he is no longer the majority shareholder. Any new owner will look at cuts and I hope that doesn't affect me. This will all be a long way down the line and not worth worrying about now but it plays on my mind.

You will certainly enjoy your holiday when it arrives but part of the fun is the waiting. It will be here soon enough.

Most importantly I am happy to learn that you are adding those days up again and on the right road. We both know that sometimes urges will pop up but we don't have to act on them and when we don't our resolve only becomes stronger.

Take care of you and Jess.

Tomso.

Hi Castle,

Well done for not acting on those urges yesterday, you know the truth about what giving in brings. Stress is a big trigger though, so I hope you can keep your guard extra tight over the next couple of weeks with everything you're going through at work.

We work for the holidays, and the countdown to those has begun for you...keep that countdown going!

All the best

Ryan

Hey castle

I'll let u in to a little secret - COFFEE and copious amounts of it too

That and a lot of patience

By the time I got home my boys were tucked up safely in bed with little zzzzzz's over their heads

My daughter & her fianc have been fab having them for this weekend. Without them I couldn't work so I owe them big time.

Tomorrow is meadow hell day. I'm looking forward to eating breakfast and having a catch up with friends and of course a little shopping

Hope your week ahead goes smoothly

Shel

Thanks all

Back at work and its been tough got better as the day went on , really need to clears,y head accept what is happening and get plans in place instead of feeling hard done to with losing two of my best staff

Pleased to get through last week had plenty of urges but they passed , like anybody I will always be as good as my last bet whether that be one day one week one month one year it doesn't really matter

I made the right choice each day and that's all I can do

Well done castle, keep making the right choice. Life is a lot better and calmer without self destruction crossing the path. It can be done and you know it yourself.

I hope today is better to you

Take care

S x