reborn on the 4th July

Thanks Shel

I do get your drift lol

Been a mixed day , no work so went to jess's assembly came back and cleaned up , stuck a film on and everything going well , then get a phone call of my ops manager regarding a customer complaint , last week one day when I was off we had an incident with a customer the staff had seen on CCTV putting something in their bag to cut a long story short they got it wrong and the customer has kicked off and now I have to investigate , I phoned store and found out a bit more than I already knew , staff are now stressing as it was a genuine mistake and it looked nailed on they had put something in their bag , were losing a good 700 quid a week on shoplifting so I share their frustrations but all today has archived is stressing me out stressing staff out all non productive , so mood changed a few urges come along wont act on them but wish I could not let it bother me

Try to forget it now and switch off from it tonight

hi castle

Glad you catch my drift lol it all sounded so right in my head, i knew what i wanted to say but typing it out on the blooming phone with all the predictive text i was kind of losing the plot over typing

Hope Jess`s assembly went well for her, i love going to watch the kids perform at school. My youngest has an assembly coming up playing his trumpet. Its a lovely sound ( arent all parents supposed to say that whilst wearing ear plugs) lol

I know its easier said than done but do try to switch off a little with work, at the end of the day, the store will still be there tomorrow and so will all the issues that are going on. You dont need to act on any urges, thats why you have this place. Somewhere to unload 🙂

Dont know about your afternoon but mines been full on. got home from work, spent 4 hours gardening, i ache like mad now, then did all the housework, a pile of ironing, 2 loads of washing fed the rugrats and now im finally sat down. Pooped!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im so looking forward to very little work next week, some days off and some real chillax time. A few bits planned as my friends know i get my rota on a friday for the week ahead so after 2pm my fone doesnt stop bless them trying to organise days out, gym sessions, swimming and spa days and general get togethers. No rest for the wicked hey lol

Hope you have a real good weekend and get to spend some quality time with jess

Shel

Castle

Forgive me if I'm wrong but I'm guessing you are not paid to work 24 hours a day. Therefore you are entitled to a home life and family time with your daughter. Really chucking an idea out there but ever thought of ignoring your phone? Lol

That's one thing I've learnt really quickly. If it's not my shift and work want me to do extra I ignore the call or if I do answer it I simply say no, it's my time with the kids or doing whatever I want to do. It's poor pay for what we do anyway and I'm not paid for being on call.

I found the more you say yes the more they call. So a solid nope every so often they get the message. Work/ home/ life balance. Everything in moderation.

Email idea a good one. Do you know which one it is?

There is a reception but it's not open all day only in the evenings I think. Usually from 4pm.

Never been to ecky job lot. I now do all my shopping online that way I just get what I need, I hate supermarkets, and with the few hours a week I get to myself I'd rather not be in a queue for food lol.

I get it delivered to my door usually when boys asleep so it actually survives in the fridge or cupboards for more than a few hours haha

I start from 6 tomorrow too and always struggle to sleep when I know I gotta get up early. Hoping the gardening work done that's now killing my back is enough to knock me out

Have a good weekend

Shel

Quick fly by

Think you got the wrong gym. Although there is a gym in the building it's a club on an industrial estate rather than a big gym

Shelly

Thanks Shel

Yes totally confused did I get the wrong gym in the right place but the wrong building or the right building but the wrong gym which is actually in a club lol

Take that back bout the straight talking sounds all double Dutch to me lol

Had a good day work went ok even with having to tell a new member of staff they were at risk , still miffed with it all bit stayed positive for them

Picked jess up and took her to the pub for a carvery it's just nice now to be able to be in a position to afford to go without stressing bout money

Simply all by making the right decisions

Hi

Well I'm confused now lol I think you got the wrong place completely. I don't think I've ever passed an asda but then I drive straight to and from their club.

Note to self pay attention when driving lol

Shel

Ps... Apparently sarcasm is the lowest form of wit. But I don't think I've ever had a day without it

Pps... My mum always said if you can't say anything nice don't say nothing at all .... Never did listen to her so I say all the cheeky stuff with an ounce or 4 of sarcasm lol

Very few people understand my humour and that makes me laugh even more!

Ppps that's all folks

Thanks Shel

Had a great day with jess spending some quality time with her , after visiting my parents we ended up at the funfair nearby them , we had such good fun I even joined in on some of them , in whole spent 20 quid but that 20quid made some special memories hopefully jess will be able to look back on

Much better than having 20 quid invested on some sport and not giving her my full attention to her and much worse her remembering it when older

Hey up

Just had a look in spam box and nothing there from gamcare. Just the usual junk mail from Hillary's blinds medical companies trying to sell stuff that seriously couldn't do anything for me lol

Can u send me the link to request email add and l have a go as well.

At this rate I'll be wishing you a merry xmas lol

Shel

Ignore last post. I'm being a div. found it in junk filter. Just replied

Shel

Thanks Shel

Been a good few days with work as always plenty of stress , by the end of this week we are losing 4 staff add that to the 2 who recently left , so next week is going to be full on I'm not quite sure how we are going to manage on 100 hours less but somehow we will

One day at a time is the only way taking that step back put a smile on my face and stay calm and just do my job to my best

No urges at all though gambling is the furthest from my mind

Hi Castle,

Measuring your expenditure by what you used to spend on gambling...I find those kind of thoughts only add strength to the desire to stay gamble free. Gambling would have taken that twenty pound note and given you a piece of paper and some stress.

The simple joy of what money can do when its not going to gambling is amazing, and something I enjoy every day. One of our team members at work is leaving tomorrow, and I could chip in a tenner of my own to make sure the leaving present was decent and a bit more fun. That would have gone in around two spins fuelling the old gambling demons. 30 seconds of misery...I'm not going back to that.

Well done on continuing to cope at work, my manager's off sick at the moment so I'm finding my stress levels ticking up a notch.

Congratulations on continuing to kick gambling to the sidelines.

Ryan

Hey my King,

Couldn't let my visit go without saying hi.....HI

Hope things good fellah with you and Jess?

I have had a slip but hey ho...I will bounce back as only a womble knows how eh!

Sue xx

Thanks Ryan sue

Been an excellent few days that has had a massive positive effect on my recovery , for the first time I have managed to open up more to others and tell them about my addiction and also to been able to talk to people who have suffered at the hands of this addiction and it has really strengthened my recovery , to those who have listened and those I have listened to I am grateful to be able to have the opportunity and going forward want to try and open up more and continue to understand and help others , I've seen bravery from people who should never been put in that position all innocent who felt pain and confusion for years and years but only then to forgive another who suffers the same addiction is truly inspirational

Jess did her show chitty chitty bang Bang over the weekend at the crucible and whilst watching I felt so proud to see her doing so well to see her happy and smiling is exactly how she should be at her age , I'm so pleased I made that decision 2 and half years to make that change if I hadn't last night it could have been so different she could have had pain and confusion in her life and not be the girl she is today

This addiction will take everything from you if you let it I'm not prepared to let it take no more I made that change I make that decision each day and choose not to gamble

All I ever wanted was a second chance in life and now it is here and I'm not going to waste it

He Castle

Lovely post to read. Glad you are feeling so positive and happy and your daughter (and yourself) greatly benefitting from it.

Enjoy your week and remain positive.

Take care.

Feb.