reborn on the 4th July

Your an idiot but so am I. I've slipped and relapsed more times than I can count and every time I think you idiot you know you can't gamble because you can't control yourself. You need to learn from it and move on. This has just shown you how strong the addiction is even after 8 months. It means that you cannot gamble for fun, for profit, for anything because it'll only bring destruction.

I wish you well and I know that you have learnt from this and I'm sure you will find that strength that helped you on for 8 months.

Just got back from the self inclusion , held my head high and asked to be excluded , she was only a young girl on her own she was very flustered and took her a while to find the form but in the end we had chat and she said it was a brave thing to do . Just 2 exclusions in 2 years at that branch but the day to day sights she sees tells me there should be more

I take great heart in knowing I had the strength to exclude and am doin something bout my problem when there's many out there needing the help and don't even know it but the focus is solely on me now it's time to take stock look at the events of today and where the triggers really lie

No beer tonite ! And rightly so but not sitting in feeling sorry for myself what's done is done I will accept my losses and be thankful it's not more , tomorrow is another day and I will fight whatever it brings at the moment it's all I can do

Yo,

Good for you Hun.

Sure it will give you peace of mind , be proud when you wake up, that you did that .

Shiny xxxxx

Hi Castle...

just to say that I am also reaidng your diary and am giving you my support too..

I can't give the same advice as the others as i would hate to say the wrong thing but I can say that i think you are a very good person and kind too and that you give so may people on here a lot of support even though you have turbulent times yourself.

Whats done is done and you will go onwards now ....

keep safe and strong and keep posting

Always Unconditional

R and D xxxx

Hi Castle

Feeling it for you , respect for excluding so quickly and getting other support in place , takes alot and it shows just how much you want this

Keep strong like I know you are , this will pass and you will only get stronger

Here for you

Lucy

Hi Castle,

I get what you mean about not wanting folks to feel sorry for you. This is not pity Castle. I just want to remind you of something that you probably already know; You are a kind, unselfish, strong person Castle, and I just wanted to say that I care and to stay strong. -joan

Well done on the exclusion. Getting them blocks in place will help massively. Stay strong and as you say focus on yourself and be ready for the fight ahead. Stay strong.

Hi Castle,

I am so sorry for you. I had a feeling this was coming. You have been under so much pressure, poor guy. You are right, you have to take this on the chin. I have been there so many times, I understand your condition so much it is hard for me to swallow. I have shed a few tears on your behalf tonight. Me, I haven't gambled but my breath reeks of alcohol tonight. Another pile of shi t in my way. We have so much in common, it hurts. I really believe we can help each other. I will happily pass my email address to you if you feel you need something more. If not I wish you all the best my friend. I know you can walk through it. I see this not as failure but a cry for help . I'm here you know that, whenever you need me.

Soul and spirit with you mate. Stay strong and fight back.

A.N

Hi Castle,

Just popping in 2 say I hope u r ok 🙂

I am thinking about u 🙂

Take care x

A quick update has with daughter tonite , had a much better day today phoned and got in for counsellor on Friday told ex we need to talk bout divorce and xmas , also had lengthy texts with friend and went into detail about my addiction but she doesn't understand which is understandable really but she's just hurting as I av ended it once again , this is key in my recovery that I stick to this somehow , that I need to work on

But the positive no gambling and no thoughts not quite back on track but gettin there

Sometimes we have to be selfish in the right ways Castle in order to keep in recovery...I understand that too from the other side.

Keep posting...You are on the right path...trust it.

hugs

R and D xx

Keep positive Castle, whatever life throws at you, you'll manage and you'll be fine.

Take care

Steve

Yo,

Just a quick one to say . Keep going mate , you are doing every thing you can , one day and one step at a time mate , where ever possible .

Biggest of hugs to you on this wet and soggy morning .

Shiny xxxxxxxx

Hey Castle,

Just wanted to say that I'm willing you on mate and just know that you are going to come through this patch with all the strength you need to continue the journey!

Keep going Castle, you will get there!

Lmm

Hi Castle,

Just popping in 2 say I hope u r ok and staying strong 🙂

Take care x