Regaining control after slip

Hi, thanks for your support today and always. Slipped up on Saturday and placed one bet - I kind of knew it was going to happen, but felt no emotion either good or bad. Walked in placed the bet (financially no impact on my day to day living). Felt empty actually if i'm honest, but able to pick myself up and dust myself down. I'm not going to beat myself up and there were no urges yesterday. I'm determined to beat this and will never ever stop trying,

Take Care and enjoy the festive season

Blues

Merry xmas blues and a happy new year u can do this mate a day at a time

Hi Blues,

Just wanted to wish you a happy new year.

May 2013 be good to you.

Sue xx

Hi Folks, thanks for your support. Slipped up again on Saturday, 29th December, not huge financially and feel back on track. The reason was TIME-LOCATION-MONEY , why can't I practice what I preach!! I thought I had done great avoiding placing a bet boxing day and the few days after - the reason being, I didnt have the triangle above. The main thing missing was location as I was indoors most of the time.

Anyway, what is done, is done, time to get back on track, 2013 is OUR year, lets grab it with both hands.

Today is day 4

For today, I will not gamble

Take Care

Blues

Hi Blues... keep working at it mate. It don't matter how many setbacks we have. The important thing is maintaining that desire to live a gamble free life. Cos gambling free has got to be better than gambling our lives away. Keep focussed..warm regards S.A 🙂

Thanks SA, as you know this will be a work in progress until the day we die! The good thing is I have that burning desire inside of me and to be honest 4 or 5 months ago I had resigned myself to living a life of destitution and failure. I have come a long way mentally since then and will never give up the fight

Day 5 today

Take Care

Blues

We have all come a long way since we first came on here.

We all still have our dreams.

We all still have our goals.

By making all the right choices for ourselves, together we WILL achieve them.

NT

Thanks NT, had a catch up of your diary, good to see you are enjoying a normal life, i WILL get the one day!

Nothing much to report today, no bet yesterday and no urges today, I want a normal life without avoiding people, phone calls, threatening letters, debt collectors etc!

Will get there one day

Take Care

Blues

Of course you will.

Just don't ever venture into this evil world of gambling ever again...

NT

Well, main thing is no bet over the weekend. I had a lot of spare time yesterday and switched the TV off and just basically sat in silence thinking of the direction my life is going and the direction I want it to go.

Even when I am not gambling, a lot of my time is devoted to it be it trying to avoid racing on TV, watching football and thinking of bets, fighting urges etc and to be honest, I am tired of it.

Gambling has taken so much from me and while I believe it is an illness to compulsively gamble, ultimately it is our choice, no one elses, to go in and place a bet.

I am taking a hold of my life and the direction I want it to go is a completely opposite direction to gambling - goodbye my old enemy, you are not coming with me on this journey - now P**s OFF!

Day 9 today

Take Care

Blues

Hi blues.

Cheers for welcoming me back to these pages. I've taken a bit of time to read through sections of your diary. You just need to keep fighting hard and things will get better in time.

You are a few days ahead of me at the moment. Keep it that way! Gambling is so bloody futile. All we work for in life and relationships, we just throw away. Well no more!

Keep fighting those urges and stay strong.

Well said Blues.. gambling can go P*** off, one day at a time. Onwards and forwards to better times. Regards... S.A

Thanks for the comments folks, your support is invaluable EVERY day. No bet since my last diary entry.

As I look over my shoulder I see a figure walking aimlessly, getting further away as each day passes. The folorn figure is hunched over, looking on the floor hoping to find even 5 pence. The figure looks hungry, tired, thirsty, no purpose or aim in life, desperate for its next fix.

That figure was me! Today, that figure is GAMBLING, desperate for each and every one of us to feed its addiction to destroying lives, taking vast amounts of money off people.

Keep walking gambling me auld flower, keep walking

Take Care

Blues

Hi Blues,

Can feel your pain....but each day you refrain makes you a little stronger.

That figure you will soon see will be ...full of confidence, well fed, standing tall and ready to face anything life throws at him!

Every faith in you Blues.

Sue x

Blues.

Hope this finds you well and full of resolve.

Best wishes,

gazza