Well slipped again yesterday, very small financially and I really would attribute it to one thing....Cheltenham. A hugely enjoyable festival for me and all the talk all the buzz saw me try to turn my small pot into something larger, didnt even win one bet. Not beating myself up, thats just what happened. Pay day on Wednesday of this week and need to get back on track before then which I know I can....Hope everyone is well
Take Care
Blues
Well done for coming back online today. Cheltenham is a struggle because I too love it. Let's all work together this week because it can't be over quick enough.
As compulsive gamblers we cannot gamble normally and therefore can't dabble in Cheltenham.
Brian
All the talk today is Cheltenham, I dont have cash on me so that is a win straight away although I would be lying if i said I dont miss being in the pub, studying the form and heading in to the bookies to place that first bet on the festival. In a nutshell, i'm in bad form and I know exactly why! But, I cannot gamble rationally and must remain strong
Take Care
Blues
Hi Blues.
Keep thinking that way and you will get through it. Cheltenham will be over before you know it. What I say to myself if I ever get an urge is - "I will only lose anyway". This seems to work for me and it is nice and simple and more importantly, USUALLY TRUE!!
Stay strong and use your salary on something else - you will be glad you do in the end, mark my word. I am now on day 52 and beginning to be back in "the real world" and I can't yell you enough how much better it is.
Take Care
Feb.
I don't think I will ever be able to stop - I go for periods with no thoughts and do all the right things but when I go back I crash harder each time - today is day 1 again...
Blues
Blues I think like you this illness has devastated me and my family even now I am thinking I can sort myself out regain control over gambling and gamble safely again. The thing is I never gambled safely I was always a mess with regards to gambling.
Michael
No bet yesterday, that is all. Really struggling to wonder why I keep ruining mine and everyone else's lives - terrible, terrible addiction. I don't have a life, I have an existence and wonder where it will stop
Take Care
Blues
Funny enough you know the answer yourself. No money means no gambling and after that you can begin to recover. This is a complete f of a disease you do have to give up your independence to begin to recover and only when you recover can you regain your independence. I want to gamble this morning I want to make everything right. I have no money and no access to it so I will have to wait till tomorrow:) or till I think how stupid am I gambling has me here. It's not going to dig me out.
Blues.
You need to try and break the cycle.
Do you have to carry cash/cards?
Best wishes,
gazza
Hi Blues.... sorry to hear that you are struggling. It seems to me that the further we fall the harder it becomes to climb back out... thats been my experience anyway. But climb back out we must.
Remember that how you feel at the moment is a consequence of compulsive gambling. With time and patience you will start to feel better.
The only solution is not to gamble anymore. Just for today and then just for today... and on.. You can do it mate... regards... S.A
Thanks folks,
I'm back-I owe it to myself and my family to give this one huge effort and thats what I intend to de this time. I will spend a few days reading as my mind is in a terrible state and I cannot think straight
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Blues
Day 1 over
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Blues
Day 2-decided to give heavy alcohol sessions the knock for a while too as it impairs my judgement beyond belief and more often than not leads me to gambling
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Blues
Hi Blues
Just want to say you owe it yourself most of all. You want this but you have to match your want with the effort. Best of luck.
Michael
Ok, so, probably suprising to the forum (and myself!), today is day 9 bet free and I have to say, it is not easy. I have had recurring gambling dreams, spending all day thinking about gambling and seem to be drawn into gambling conversations.
I haven't updated my status as the amount of times I have said day 1 is embarrassing for a man in his late 30's. I want a life and fully intend to take it.
People everywhere doubt me, are wary of me, question me if i'm in a bad mood, question me if i'm in a good mood. Friends rarely get in touch, but this time is for ME not family, hangers on who were happy when I was treating them to drinks etc - but for ME. This world is a horrible place to be honest so I have decided to make the most of my lot and try to enjoy my life as much as I can and gambling has no place in it
Take Care
Blues
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