Regrets, I've had a few, but then again....

Lol lol you two 😀

I thought i will inspire my "lot" with few candies on the site, but looks like men got more inspiration out of it lol lol see ya at the gym then, don't be late 🙂

Hey Ryan,

So good to see you in such a good place and looking after yourself. Appointment sounds like went well and hope the next one will open more roads to understand yourself better.

Very weldone on your ongoing journey, keep it up!

Sandra (would say where you left that bow but not gonna make any suspicions here lol lol)
Take care and stay safe! Xx

Not sure if anyone's interested, but just about to start is a documentary on gambling in sport of 5 live. All I know really is that John Hartson's in it, but I like the big feller so that was enough for me.

Hi Ryan,

Thanks for your post and comments on my diary earlier.

Glad to hear that you are feeling better after your appointment.....

Keep strong, and enjoy the party!!

All the best

Ade

Hi Ryan,

Good to read you are feeling better, and looking forward to the weekend, oh and luv the pic of Sandra,you and Duncs, abstaining has certainly made you all look fit, lol.

Take care.

Suzanne xx

Good to hear you sounding positive Ryan and thanks for the post on my diary. I take it you won't be watching the Mickey Mouse darts this weekend then? I was made up for Gary Anderson, I never thought he would get over the line, so it was nice to see him win. I wouldn't even know most of the players in the BDO, just hope Wolfy doesn't win, I'm not a fan. Your idea of a swim in Morecambe sounds a dream, however I doubt I will even get to take the obligitary photo with the Eric Morecambe statue as my mates will be sprinting to the nearest pub as soon as the train arrives and won't move until five to three!

Have a good weekend mate!

Wow, its been a while since I actually mustered up the courage or energy to write anything down. Been on the site and read a few diaries a couple of times, just felt the words were ringing a little hollow and I couldn't find the right chord to strike. Nonetheless, I guess the good news is that I am still gamble free, still going in the right direction and finding my way, however winding and interrupted it is.

Not heard anything further about my follow-up appointment, but I guess it's still a while away yet. With all of the things that are going on with the NHS, I kind of feel bad for asking, but equally I think that if I am to come to terms with myself (fix myself, clear the skeletons out of the cupboard, whatever metaphor suits at the time) then I can't be afraid to ask for help and I can't bottle things up and let them come to a head as they have done so often in the past.

Had a nice day with the family for my youngest nephew's 18th birthday, such a great kid and really tolerant of all the old people talking about boring stuff he didn't really know or worry about!

Hope everyone's having a good weekend,

Ryan

Hi Ryan, thanks for your lovely message, it's good to hear from you, and to know you are staying strong, and positive.

Your posts always come across relaxed, like a slow train, but one that will reach its destination, and you my friend are well on the way to reaching yours, slowly but surely is the way forward.

Take care and stay safe

Suzanne xx

Hi Ryan,

Thanx for dropping by and i see you're in a saddle yourself. Good days will start outweighing the s**** ones soon enough. You are on a right track.
hope you will hear from NHS soon enough to make it more clearer of the events coming. Stay strong and true to yourself, you're doing it!

Be proud

Sandra xxxx

Hi Ryan

Thanks for the post , good news that life is treating you well and keep striding forward , with this addiction sometimes that's all we can ask , your proof that there is a life after gambling , really pleased for you

Castle2

Hi Ryan,

Thanks for the post fella, great to see you in good form on the gambling front, you're the elder statesman on that score,

I look forward with interest to your diary updates, your honest posts are always thought provoking and helpful,

wishing you the best of everything......onwards and upwards.....Ginger.

Hi Ryan,

Thanks for posting and keeping an eye one me, It's much appreciated,

Take care and stay safe

Suzanne xx

Hi Ryan,

Thanks for your post on my diary. Glad some of my words connected with you...

It's nice to know that I wasn't the only 'Billy' out there! ;0)

Hope things are picking up for you my friend.

Keep strong

All the best

Ade

Hi Ryan,

Hope all is good your way. You've been a little quiet on your tread recently. Hope work is not too stressful (tell me about it!! Lol..)...just had some news on work front myself - my hard work is done and appreciated, mission accomplished 🙂 let's new adventure begin!

Stay safe and keep battering those demons away my friend..you are an inspiration

Take care.
Sandra xx

As Sandra says...I've been fairly quiet recently, just knuckling down to work as hard as possible, and maybe it may just be paying off. Got on to a management training course at work and applied for a couple of jobs that would offer a decent payrise if they come my way.

No real temptations or gambling thoughts, moods still going up and down a little more than I would like, but I guess fixing everything would be too much to ask!

Hope everyone's doing well and enjoying their weekend...its Superbowl Sunday, which for me is one of my favourite days of the year!

Ryan

Hi Ryan,

Good to see you marching on and fighting the good fight! Keep it up my friend and all the best success on a job front. You can do it! 🙂

Take care and stay safe

Sandra xx