Rejuvenation.....meltdown

Hi Weldy,

Sorry to see you back on here mate, but also glad that you found your way here again to try and find some peace once and for all.

Wishing you all the best my old friend. Hope you can just get back to basics, and build your recovery up again....one day at a time.....you know the drill.

I've found some peace over the last 10 weeks. Something I always struggled to do. Never got to 10 weeks in all my 7 years of trying. So if I can do it Weldy, I'm d**n sure you can do!! ;0)

Keep strong

Al the best

Ade

Cheers Ade,

I woke up to a fresh covering of snow this morning, so I will take that as a fresh start, a new beginning and as a cleansing of all that was past

I will not gamble today - a new dawn has begun

Weldy

Fella you cannot change your past, the losses are gone, gambling will just add to them.

Enjoy the first day of the rest of your life.

You have walked the road of recovery in parts for many years.

Again enjoy what it gifts.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Hi Weldy,

Keep up the fight and never Give up giving up!!
Take the offer of recovery back on, you are worth all the best things in life. You, my friend can do it and start enjoying the benefits it gifts.

Keep posting..Keep talking
We are listening.

Stay safe and sound and be kind to you - addiction hates that!

Sandra xx

Hi Weldy,

Hope all is still going well mate?....

Keep strong my friend

All the best

Ade

thinking of you weldy

keep strong and use the support

post daily

Weldy has done it again, reached the point where I have just had enough. Been here enough times to know that it always ends in the same old cycle with a big blowout that messes up all the finances and creates a pressure that I really don't need.

Inevitably, the time has come again and I cannot seem to regulate my betting, so there is only one way I know how to deal with this, to stop. to abstain, to concentrate on living again and not pretending that betting is just a pastime that I enjoy. It's my vice, it's what I do and all that c**P. Can't do it anymore, need to take a timeout and get things back on track, before I make a right hash of it all again.

I will start over tomorrow - Friday

Good morning my old friend,

Sorry to hear that the demons are still messing with your mind. We both know it's a tough habit to break don't we? But, think back to years and years back when we were regular posters on this forum. I seem to remember that for both of us the relapses were a regular occurrence, even though we knew the grim circumstances, we'd often relapse. Me more than you, if memory serves me right!

Personally, I came to a point where I was so low that I knew I had to stop. It took me 7 long years, but you can break that recurring cycle. I am currently laying in my hospital bed following open heart surgery, which I had on Saturday. So I am facing a different type of recovery in the immediate future!!

But seriously, I am now at around 283 days of not gambling. I got so sick and tired of throwing my money away. Chasing losses, thinking I could land the big acca, trawling betting stats and just generally becoming I'll through stress, that I contracted pleurisy ( not related to my heart condition btw!!).

It's not fun for us compulsive gamblers. We can't call it a pastime or a hobby. We have to just admit to ourselves that we are out of control and we need help. We have to stop. Move away from gambling and better our life's for us and our families.

I won't go on too much more, because I don't want to sound like I am preaching and/or an expert on recovery. But I will just say that one thing that really helped me stop was my total disgust for what the gambling industry has become. And the constant commercials on TV trying to to lure people in to there trap actually make me physically sick these days.

As the song goes " I can see clearly now, the rain has gone"......"I can see all obstacles in my way".....kind of applies to the way my mind set is about my recovery.

I still like my football as much as you no doubt like your horses, but seriously mate, you're just getting mugged off by the bookies like millions of others......give it up please Weldy.....you can do it mate.

All the best Ade

Ade,

Great to hear from you mate and firstly above all I hope your surgery is a success and may I wish you a speedy recovery

Puts things straight into perspective as there are a lot worse things in this world than my own, self inflicted situation

As always it's so good to hear from a fellow forum member when arriving back at this point in my "recovery" as I have reached another low point, but will take heed of your wise words and well done on being gamble free for such a long period. I can only dream of reaching 238 days right now, but remember that I need to take small steps along the way

I'm tired of the daily cycle that I have fallen back into, so hopefully I have reached a point again in my life where things will again become clearer to me and that gambling isn't a path that I want to go down any more

Weldy

Hello mate,

Thanks for your kind words.

You're dead right, small steps my friend.....one day at a time....or even break it down to one hour at a time if necessary...if the urges come thick and fast....as they tended too with me when the weekend came....

Fight those engrained habits. Do something else at those old 'gambling times'..... just make that change. As I think Micheal Jackson once said (Man in the Mirror!) :0)

Is your band still going?.....

If so,I'll get over to watch in a few weeks and meet up.

All the best

Remember......recovery is possible!

Ade

The first 48 hrs over, so good but the feelings are raw.
Yes indeed Ade, still playing with the band.

Double header this weekend, but seem to have picked up a cold. Tonight will be tough.

Weldy

Hope the gigs go well mate.

Get some Lemsip down your neck, or better still a few hot toddies!!

Hang in there, and do one day at a time mantra....

Rooting for you from my bed......but this time it's my own one...And not a hospital one!!

Keep strong

Ade

Well, managed to get through the gigs ok. Got a streaming cold today though, yuk!

Chillin in bed watching rubbish tv while i recover and try not to think about gambling

Ade, great to hear you are back home mate

Weldy

....and equally great to hear that you are getting through each day without a punt!

Keep it up, and get well soon

Ade