road to normality

I was introduced to gambling about 2 years ago. this was in the form of match betting. whilst I was match betting on general sports it was fine I had followed the instructions to a tee and had opened accounts with around 50 different online sites. I have no knowledge of sports so match betting was simple I was matching the odds not predicting the games. at this point I was genuinely making a little money. then I hit the second stage of instructions on slot machines however I swear it took a week of claiming the discounts and first customer bonus and a few good wins and I was hook line and sinker.
i couldn't resist a little spin which then became a daily thing! 6 months ago I hit 3k and thought great I can clear my overdraft and small debt I had. winning that 3k was one of the best moments of my life, seeing the numbers go up and up whilst getting larger I was elated.
then the money was gone but i was debt free and vowed I'd never do that again.
after that each month I'd get paid pay my bills (I've never left a bill) then s***k my money on slots. I do a respectable job with alot of responsibility, I'm one of the highest paid...yet if only they knew was a fool!!!
in December my account was in 600 overdraft but its the feelings and emotions of complete failure I cant deal with so I spoke to a friend who was amazing. they helped me out and I self excluded from every account I could find. yesterday I got paid and hadn't spent a penny! I cant hand over my finances because every account I've had knows my card details already. so I'm in the process of closing that account.
the ironic thing is I've never stepped foot in a bookies and have no interest in ever doing so. today will be my second day and I'm developing an obsession of looking at my balance making sure the monies still there. I'm going to do this before my whole family find out, my partner and I lose everything and my sanity.
onwards and upwards.