Hello diary back again, pretty pathetic attempts this year to stay gambling free, managed 3 months early on but slowly drifting back into bad old habits. Take today, managed to blag £150 quid of a family member, lost it all on the horses, took money out on a credit card & somehow managed to get back in front & then proceeded to stick it all back into a FOBT. Utter bloody madness, but I've taken so many knocks it doesn't seem to matter anymore. Need to get my head straight again tomorrow will be a better day.
Hi Spud,
No time for regrets and looking back..you have today and the choice is yours!
What about some blocks as self exclusions, carrying little cash with you, asking for support and help on GC or being honest with a family member/friend you can confide in? Nothing changes if nothing changes dear soldier...and you can do it! You got it in you.
Challenge still there..please come back and hopefully it will help you to focus at least at the early days of your past slip..as you well know yourself..these will be the hardest ones.
Looking forward hearing from you. Use today (yesterday) as a lesson in this journey and make a change to guard yourself up from possible disaster.
I wish you well..one day at a time
S x
Thanks Sandra, your right it`s my choice to gamble, no-one is forcing me to throw my money to the four winds, Wednesday I chose to gamble & I`ve chosen not too gamble since then. If I had £300 on the table in front of me it would stay there, I`m sick to death of the whole thing. However as we all know these feelings will soon subside & in time the streak of self destuction will no doubt again rear it`s ugly head. Blocks are great, but when I want to gamble nothing is going to stop me. I`m trying my best & thats all I can do.
Still struggling to get some gamble free days behind me. Failed again yesterday, no willpower at all, always know what the end result will be but...... Anyway today is another day, no choice but to pick myself up and go again. Not setting myself any targets, I look at the length of time I've been on these diaries, five years, but I'm no further forward but for today I will not gamble.
Well got through another day gamble free, hard to shake off feelings of negativity, after a lifetime of failing it's easy to get in the mindset that another fall is just round the corner. Did something positive & took my anger to the gym. Thanks for the encouragement GT, I've plenty of blocks in place but when the opportunity arises I can't seem to help myself. Willpower is not a word I associate with myself.
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