Sick of Being Sick

3 meetings 3 days off all good would write more but got my eyes lasered so watering quite abit

Keep reading your last post. It sums it all up perfectly. Gambling brings nothing but despair and misery, stress and worry and a whole lot of other horrible stuff. For an addict it can never be about a few small bets or an hours "entertainment" we just can't do what others can its an addiction and its a strong horrible one that will ruin us if we don't let go. You've made the decision to let go and you have the power and the choice to keep away and start really living your life.

Hope your eyes are ok and get back to normal asap.

Eyes irritated so can really focus but still here hopefully will calm down next week not ideal for early recovery but fu. ck gambling

Well my eye is alot better today bit of a blur looking at the screen. Anyway I am in good nick today. I want to say my sleep has improved just so much. I have not been doing a lot of the things I said I would do last Saturday in the main due to my eye but I hope to start again today. I Have avoided all forms of racing information and friends and I intend to keep this going. I really think this this is where I went wrong. Keep going forward everyone.

Michale

Another good day. I am trying to avoid all gambling info. I really feel this helps a lot. But I have been strictly adhering to it. Stupid as it sounds but this not something I have put a lot of effort into. I intend to keep this up tomorrow and aim for no further than that.

Michael

Hi Michael,

Thank u 4 ur post on my diary!

This journey is so tough, it's so hard but we have 2 keep trying. It's good 2 read u r staying strong!

Have a gr8 day 🙂

Well it's 8 days since I had a bet and today is prob the worst one so far and it's not too bad. I find my past constantly haunts me dragging me back towards gambling. I can just for today get through this but like most compulsive gamblers I want a quick solution to what is a life long problem. I cry and whine about what was but am not grateful for what is. I am okay today not doing all the thing I said I would do. But so far I have avoided all forms of racing and its information. I honestly don't know what tomorrow may bring.

For your and the sake of your family keep going. You can get through this. I would strongly advise that you seek counselling. It may help you get in the right mind set to defeat your compulsion. Good luck and please take care of yourself.

As I said in my post yesterday it's all so bare at the moment. An empty life of going without, owing money and scraping by. Amongst trying to keep a full time job going and supporting a daughter. You like me have tried and failed before. Doesn't have to be this time though. Today is harder than tomorrow but easier than yesterday. Next wage I get, every single penny will not be wasted. And so on. Be strong

Another day done avoiding people place and things and intend to keep this up

You just need to take it one day at a time. On the really tough days one hour at a time. Just don't bet take that second, minute, hour to stop and think and you'll realise it's not what you want to do and the urges will have gone. You've done over a week now, that's great, this certainly isn't easy to do but you are doing it and you know that it's the right decision and as you get further down the recovery road you'll see great improvements in all aspects of you and your life. And those bad days won't be that bad anymore. But the good days will just keep getting better. It does get easier I promise you that. Great to see you checking in again yesterday and those checkins will soon be flying past and before you know it it's a month and 2 months gamble free. Keep strong mate, your doing great.

Free time is my enemy. Anytime I have huge free time I just push my thoughts towards gambling. You would think I have the answer but its not that easy. Anyway I am still off finding it tough. Sleeping really well considering I thought I did not have a problem with sleep this is funny. Also does anyone on here stop dreaming when gambling and resume nearly instantly once you stop gambling

Hi Michael thanks for post. I agree with you the feedback on here is inconsistent. Some people are lambasted for slipping after 100 days and others slip all the time but get sympathy and encouragement not sure what the criteria is.

Luckily there are a number who appreciate recovery is bespoke and are prepared to support regardless.

I know what you mean re free time. I have worked hard in last 3 years to fill my spare time. Read some great books, been on numerous walks, watched rubbish tv etc and it trained my brain that I do these things instead of gambling. Hoped I could still do 30 mins a day random gambling but couldn't cope with that.

Best wishes.

Hiya Michael this is tough but you gotta keep busy and try to plan what you'd do when I urge does come. If you have a plan and can follow it you'll be better prepared for it. But the main thing is to always allow yourself time to say no. Take a second, take a step back and ask yourself do you really want that bet. I think a lot of the time when we gamble were in a zone and its important we take a second to not get stuck in that zone and head blindly for destruction.

Bottom line mate your winning, your doing great and as time goes on those urges will become less frequent and less intense. Keep striving forward, the rewards are there.

Hanging in there mate. Well just keep hanging in. One day at a time and it'll keep getting better. Changes will happen and life will improve. I've just read through your diary and as you say gambling just brings you misery and stress and a whole load of other horrible things. Great to see ya checking in. Your doing it every Friday and early on to, shows your commitment and determination. Keep that strong and you'll see the days start flying by and those urges getting fewer and further between. Keep it up. Your doing great.