Sick of Being Sick

Well I am slowly wandering through Day 1. It was tough because at times today I struggled I did the wrong things looked up racing results etc. Would have backed a winner but my head is clearer for a change and I notice this it is noticeably calmer in my head. I am glad I did not gamble today but there have been plenty of days I have been glad I hope it sticks this time.

Michael

hello Michael,

Been reading your diary.shame about the recent slip up. We have all been their. looking at results is the worst. I have tried to lose interest in racing which is something hard as i have followed it for like 7 years now.]

Keep strong and remember next time you have a urge just focus on a idea that you cant win that money back because you cant stop. dont worry now that your back to day 1 that you have to start all over again because that will just get you down . just think about if your happy day by day with you new gamble free life. anyway would be good to hear from you.

dave

Day 2 Complete happy with this and happy so far still doing stupid things but I am sleeping a little better. Worry was not my problem buzzing was. Anyway the calmness is suiting me just got to look away. Hope you all have a gamble free Sunday unfortunately I prob won't be checking in tomorrow I may do if I get time but that looks unlikely now.

Day 3 and Day 4 well I am going okay still looking up racing which I should not be doing. But I will get there I am picking horses which is stupid but just happy not having a bet at the moment. Will try to sort our my bad habits sooner rather than later we are away on holidays for 5 days on wednesday so that should help to stay away.

Hello mate. The holiday has probably come at a good time for ya. Give yourself a break and clear your head. Stay strong mate and keep going you know the rights things to do and this site is always here if things get a bit tough. Have a great holiday. See ya back here soon.

Thanks Dave999, holiday was good for me I would have gambled at times if I could have. Now am 10 days off and going to try make it 11 tomorrow. I am trying to visualize every bet as ripping money out of the mouths of my children one here and one on the way. I am struggling through I do have a season long bet on soccer which I am sort of hoping wins but I have to let it go.

Michael

I am going to rehab on Friday I just cannot seem to do this on my own. I wish all of you the best till November

I am going to write a little of how I feel at the moment. I went from 2 and a half years gamble free to be unable to manage one day. I am a complete mess and I honestly dont know how I ended up here. I owe very little but have gambled a couple of mortgages in 7 years. I am in danger of doing myself in from the mental strain and yet if I stop gambling I will manage to convince myself all is okay. Well tonight is day 1 tomorrow will be day 2 and on Friday I am going to treatment for 30 days hopefully that will kickstart my recovery.

Good luck Michael. I can relate to so much of what you write. For me though is that I started to wonder if I actually wanted to stop gambling. I would try hundreds of times to stop without success and only feel like I was desperate to stop after a big loss and faced with financial hell. This time I though I'm sure I want to stop. I constantly have that feeling now. Gambling is not good in any way and leads to unhappiness. Choose from this day to genuinely want to rid it from your life and you'll have an amazing future. It sounds like everything else in your life is all in place for that to happen. Wish you all the best mate. You'll get there

We can forget sometimes how hard this is. To an average guy its just stopping gambling but we are addicts and addictions are hard to fight off especially an addiction like gambling that is socilally acceptable, its on tv and adverts, internet, high st etc its tough and we have to be strong and on our guard at all times. But also we have the tools to beat it, first off we have are minds and must realise that gambling is not the answer and we do have a choice, second we have self exclusion, taking limited cash with us, no cards etc Many things to help us and in your case chosing some rehab and i wish you all the best with that, i hope it goes well for you and can really help. You have to do what you feel is best for your recovery and i hope that, that will kick start your recovery and that it'll be the beginning of a whole new life. Good luck to you and i do wish you all the success in your recovery.

Hiya Michael. Hope your well. Great to have you for another thread. Keep at it. You know the gambling world only offers more destruction. Keep fighting. One day at a time and look forward to seeing you at the finish line!

Thanks for the post Michael. You gotta do what suits you. I'm finding that taking a step back is helping but we can't get complacent and must keep focused that's why I like the thread, keeps me coming back. And you say you have GA so that's great for you and I'm glad that's helping. Do what you need to do to get through this and when we get out the other side it will have all been worth it. Take care and have a great weekend.

Just reading my diary and seeing where I was and where I am makes me realize I have to keep fighting. I am in form today but on Sunday and Monday I was close to a bet I held out and I am in so much better mental health. Of course I am going to have thoughts about gambling but that's all they are thoughts. As long as I don't bet today I have a chance at life. Keep fighting everyone.

hiya michael yep unfortunetly - im sure ive spelt that wrong but oh well - there will always be temptation lurking but we find that in other areas of are lifes we just have to do the right thing, make the right choice. You know the destruction having that bet will cause so just dont ever have that next bet. One day at a time mate, your doing great. Its late i know but merry christmas and happy new year - make 2014 a great one!!

Day 5. Taking this day down gamble free. Forgive my false American enthusiasm. 24 hours lets do this